Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Thursday 14June07 6:39pm
I didn't realize that A.M. Homes book about being adopted and meeting her birth parents was published. The Guardian (Click this link) has a write up about it.
I read a piece that she wrote for the New Yorker a long while back that dealt with the whole experience. It was a harrowing read. It made me think about what would happen if I should find my birth father. It's all linked to Mercury Retrograde this month and next of course because my retrograde seems to be surrounding men, only men. Plus my June horoscope from Susan Miller at Astrology Zone.com mentions the possibility of me looking up a biological parent. Creepy!
The whole thing feels like it's too much to handle anyway. Between A.M's article and then Kathryn Harrison's, The Kiss, which is about her sexual relationship with her birth father... creepy!
I don't know if I read this or thought this or where it came from but it's something about a man who hasn't raised his daughter and only meets her as an adult having weird, inappropriate feelings/actions toward her. Maybe it's the reminder of sleeping with her mother all those years ago that keeps him focused on a sexual thing rather than a parental thing. Maybe the only reason that men don't have inappropriate feelings towards their daughters is that they can still picture them as children. I don't know, it's something to follow in fiction perhaps. I'm certainly not accusing men of wanting to screw their daughters. I'm just trying to reconcile why that comes up.
I wonder about my biological father, at times and I wonder would it fuck me up to meet him? Is it sometimes better that the way things happened are the way they're supposed to be? Is it better to never have the answers? What do you do if you meet your biological father and he makes a pass at you? How do you wrap your head around that?
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