trembling
for Scarecrow

trembling
naked in your arms
my fears
lay strewn about the floor
like yesterday's clothing

Not Mine I

time and distance and reasons
seperate us
not mine to desire
nor dream of
not mine to share the moments
nor count the minutes
with you

but the longing
lingers

Not Mine II

dark light sears through my body
as I realize that you are not
Mine

your touch
your skin
your face
all belong to
Not me

I could reach out and touch you
if you were not already embraced

Untitled I

frozen in time
heart quivering
unable to turn away
from you
leaded feet
steel tears falling
from blood shot eyes
blue stained cheeks
frozen in time


Untitled II

choking
fist rammed down my throat
vomit gurgling
tired of hating
and hurting and loving
and feeling
begging for numbness
but feeling every emotion
like a twisting knife
wracking me
scalding fire demon
breathing his breath
I, huddled
pained
in my silent body


nothing

you left me nothing
of yourself

except
your smell
on my stained sheets

the taste
of your kiss
on my lips

the feel of
your skin
on mine

and it's not enough
to make me remember

but too much
to let me forget


Fire Eyes

burning

feel my eyes
pierce your soul

lock with yours
lost in time

seeing all
of us

dig in
dare to look deeper
don't fear what I
feel

love me hate me
burn with me


FRAGMENTED

the buterfly squirms
as the wings are pulled
off, slowly

The pain doesn't kill
Just hurts like
HELL

and you go on
but you never really
Recover

sometimes the pain subsides
and you can almost live again

sometimes the pain
sears through your
FRAGMENTED body
and you are
too tired
too scared
too hurt
to fight it

Untitled III

tonight
I worship your form
in the moonlight (your form
being a 2 1/2 foot
granite monument)

Whole-less
without you

I'm in Wonderland

Going, going, gone
down a deep deep hole,
late in the afternoon

a smiling cat
a mad hat
(-ter) that is
eat me
drink me
grow me
shrink me
losing sight
don't want to fight
off with her head
she'd look better dead
big door, small door
wonder what's in store
open one and see
what does all this have to do with me
confused, confuseder
find her, lose her
or was that Loser?

was it a dream?,
maybe a show
hey!, where'd that funny-
looking rabbit go?

down a deep deep hole,
late in the afternoon
going, going, gone
or was it
gone, going, going