With a tortured soul, I watch you from the corners of my eyes.
Never halting my conversations with others.
A glance at my wrist; still hours yet before I can touch you.
A heavy sigh flows from my lungs.
A sigh unrecognized by all, save myself.
I wonder if you wait as impatiently as I.
Finally, the moment comes!
The grandest hours of, what seems my life, are now approaching.
The moment when your lips hold fast to my own, and my flesh melts between your fingers.
Without hesitation, you devour me, body and soul.
Unknown to whether you're fueled by lust or love.
I lie in awe as you awaken every sense my body had lost.
Every fraction of me is alive.
From the tips of my fingers, to the ends of my hair.
Were I to chose a moment to die, it would surely be this one.
And yet, I know I will indeed be dead soon.
For I die each time you leave me
Only to wait anxiously, impatiently, to be re-born.
Born again not from a mother's womb, but a passionate lover's arms.
As I think of you, I know there is a God.
For you are both my Heaven and Hell, my reward and my punishment.
the many hours I lie awake without you, I know I pay for every wrong I have committed.
Yet, when I feel yourbreath upon my skin, you are perhaps, the consolation for whatever righteousness there is in me.
All I know, in truth, is that in your arms there are no battered wives or starving
children, no political dictators, or wars without reason. Your body is my sheild
from reality which no misery can penetrate. Your kiss is my sanctuary wherein
I find only hope and goodness.
Ask me not why I await these hours so eagerly. It is in these hours I have found
a wondrous world within our mingled flesh. A world in which, I would be
content in forever.
Heather Epperson
{FAIRRY}
