CONSPECTUS
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XXXVI
ASYLUM
Clad in
saintly frock
A rival of the unholy order
Benefactor to the holy flock
Set I like a gaudy beast
To liberate those pierced
By the prejudice of the masses
The echelon of élite classes
That deride The worsted rabble
Deprived of rightful justice
Their virtuous Causes to dismiss
And proffer them Naught but gabble
Yea how racking was their plight
Nay be found Their prospects to fight
A blight on them contemptuous
In their lordliness presumptuous
What may open The eye to concede
Humanity not a singularity
'Tis a consanguinity
Indeed not a divinity
Alas that such brutish secularity May be subdued
And for the siblings of the race
To embrace the rood Of magnanimity
And journey on The ocean of unanimity
From the ascendancy Of fateful entropy
To the eminence of philanthropy
Innate to the Quintessence of humanity
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XXXVII
CITADEL
One rueful
day I sat to contemplate
The strength of my soul
My destiny to be
To wrestle for the intrepid goal
Or capitulate
To the bounden fate Of humanity
The gait of sanity irrepressible
Alas discerned My affray impressible
On nay but the insane
And my heart accessible
To nay but the Arcadian
That alien spirit slain
On the heaths of antipathy
And lo sympathy For the agrarian
Captured the martyr in me
Heaved me once again
To the edge of insanity
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XXXVIII
FIASCO
Yea for
the verve in me to retire
And oh to leave This mirthless mire
Of boundless conflict Within and without
The ancient derelict
And maudlin minstrel devout
Of humanity's timeless endeavors
To bind the human lineage
Which disparity dissevers
Its flaws to flout
And probity to sprout
But to no gain
Alas that the heart Of me would refrain
The conviction of Me would adjourn
For I am haggard and worn out
My travail is empty
My foe is stout
And my innards churn
At the strain of my shout
For respite from the noon
Of human sorrows
From the drain of my doubt
My hopes now somberly hewn
But none be there To deign worthy
My accord to emancipate
The dullard insane
From the loathsome chain
Of humanity's distinction
And to predicate my position
'Gainst the villainy Of sophistication
Thus abandoned I The heroic battle
To spar no more With the phantom of reality
The sacred anthem of humanity
And to garner forevermoreThe lore of solitude
In the heirdom of insanity
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XLIX
ABJURATION
The voice
of insanity Within me uttered
Succor to my soul
To recover the Ageless proverb of old
And muttered I thence to silence
A covenant bound By the conscience of me
To unfold the eminence Of solitude
The caliber of its propensity
To elucidate the paradox Of resistance
To the norm of humanity
And to explicate its fortitude
In the face of The noisome parlance Of sanity
Avowed to disencumber My essence
Of all urbanity
And absolve mine heart Of its charm
To do no harm
To no sentient being
And to disarm mine soul Of its belligerence
At last to embrace the silence Within me
to the End of the age
Till this heart of me could engage
Absolute mansuetude
Shimmering in the darkness Of consuetude
Rendering calmness to the rage
Confluent with the quietude Within my soul
And till this heart Of me could dole
A legacy of intransigence
And to surrender To the radical indigence
Burning within me Since mine youth
To discourse of naught
And to procure aught
But the sooth of silence
In the reticent ether about me
To make a compact with solitude
To the gratitude Of the quietened humanity
Who oppugned with propriety
Alas thus battered
And to oblivion spattered
To remain the astute Voice of silence
In the towering Voidance of humanity
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XL
STAMINA
My
conundrum thenceforth liberty
Amidst fetters of captivity
Unbridled from the Commonality of the lucid
A slave of the random oddity
Of mine own heart
Eminently the cupid
The beloved and lo the horrid
Who set me apart from humanity
At the outset of youth
Rendered my passions uncouth
Yet beholden to mine affliction
The fabric of the conception
Attained in me immutable ruth
Such as the delphic predilection
For the lone consociates Of my sorrow
Mine soul now purged,
Incipiently flaccid
But through pilgrimage in silence
Forged and stalwart In resistance
And in resilience torrid
To the predacious vanity Of the sane
Yet there be in me A further oddity
Verily 'tis the solitude within me
From humanity Waxed I the truant
The valiant fainthearted dullard
Slave of all absurdity
But yea rather I remain true
To the dimensions Of mine bosom
Than to live in a darksome reality
My heart askew
With the bent of humanity
Captive born to triviality
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XLI
PALINODE
Thereupon
I withdrew from the path
Of the common mortal
To meander through The portal of solitude
Resolute to unearth
A wilderness in me Awaiting birth
The hermetic antithesis Of the soul
The otherness of mine whole
To elude the Increase of wretchedness
Of mine disquieted spirit
Elicit the prude within me
And decimate its wickedness
Said I therewith to the psyche
Journey on to lands non murky
Oh dullard insane
Amidst the pains of silence
Flee the mount of iniquity
Heaped upon your conscience
And traverse the Vale of integrity
Succumb to life's purest ritual
The vivacity of Essence spiritual
The rudiment of simplicity
Pristine and natural
Yea and embrace virgin humanity
To be born once more
To that forborne eidolon
Raw and earthy
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XLII
CHAOS
In the
midst of grim and sadness
Troubled hearts
And sometimes madness
Tramped I with ambage filled
A heart with rustic silence stilled
Shackled by flesh
Hobbled wretch
Alas and marooned
On the oceans of frail mortality
Marred by the Wound of the duality
Of my existence on the apogee
Of sanity betwixt insanity
And moored on the boundless soil
Of thought and reason
Fidelity and treason
My affections now befuddled
And my passions now muddled
And I am cast like litter
In the gutters of humanity
My misery lingers on
My ardency is gone
And my heart jitters
Like a leaf on the wind
Embittered from the thorn
Of life insipid
And fervors tepid
The horn of reality apt to rescind
Aspiration and meaning
Imagination and feeling
Impaling licit humanity
Forlorn and destined
To remain stolid to inanition
And gelid to the mission
Of the brotherhood of the insane
Who grapple to pervade acuity
For celestial mortality
Amid the random vacuity Of the sane
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XLIII
HORTATORY
When I
would behold the good
In the living no more
Nor could I excise the misgiving
Humanity bore
In the smitten heart of me
I set out to pour The pathos of my soul
To the beloved germane
Comfort for tribulation to obtain
Sought I the Mentor's apparition
To petition my heart once again
For perception
For none exist who understand
And none mine Pain could withstand
From the legion Of them who venture
To me thus accordant
To the throngs Of them who indenture
The likes of me discordant
Yea there be none
Neither be she nor he
Neither father nor son
Who can behold me as I am
An entity existent as someone
But ofttimes fain they even damn
The dullard to abhor And to shun
Alas beloved germane
Reckon I mine inquest done
Mine heart is strain
Mine soul to drain
And now alas e'en my life
In anguish to wane
For a journey once With heft begun
Yet there be nowhere Left for me to run
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XLIV
ADMONITORY
Consider
then beloved germane
Wherefore the heart of me
Pines for you
Now more than ever
For the ethos of you is gain
To me whenever
Mine heart is stunted
Its course abrasive
And sanities pervasive
However life's paltry Recompense turns
Rancid lo then putrid
The zest of me burns Down to clinker
Now vivid lo then languid
Beloved germane
Thus have the years Henceforth to me been cruel
Yet the tears of me Availed a jewel
On the diadem of Mine trials candid
And I am timid and Long for renewal
Mine soul is naked
My destiny barren
As the heart of me Is prone to harden
To the pardon of callous humanity
Which cast me an orphan
On the edges of insanity
To dampen the rationality Of the insane
And deaden my pain
With shallow words And rhinestones
To the affront of me
And to the shunt Of me to perdition
Howbeit with gratitude Beloved germane
Sanctitude beckons once again
For serendipity Cast me unawares
From the millstone Of human sorrow
To the milestone Of a new tomorrow
Where the solitude Of silence fares
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