I redid this survey on Septemer 29, 2003
1. Preferred Name: Erin
2. Nicknames and Origin: Rinny- My cousin couldn't pronounce my name and always called me that.
Rin/Air/Bear- My mom calls me odd things.
Stinky- Everyone thinking they were original by rhyming my last name with stinky.
3. Adjective Most Oftentimes Used to Describe You: "Different."
4. Birthday and Age: February 1st- 19
5. Location: DeKalb, Illinois for college
6. Favorite Element: Air
7. Who Are You?: I'm the most real person you'll ever know. I'm the person songs are written for.
8. How Do You Feel About Life?: Life has never been on my side.
9. Define Bliss: Waking up and seeing the person you love beside you.
10. Have You Ever Been In Love?: I'm always in love.
11. If So, With Whom?: A select few.
12. Define Perfection: Something I will never know and never achieve.
13. Sunrise Or Sunset? Why?: Sunset because I refuse to rise for anyone.
14. Who Do You Admire?: I admire anyone who's ever been through anything that could be scarring and walked away perfectly fine. I have never been able to do that.
15. Obsession Is: What I feel for those I love.
16. A Word You Find Obscure For Some Reason: Crotch.
17. Favorite Natural Scent: Burning leaves.
18. Favorite Natural Color and Description of Where It Occurs In Its Purest Form: The orange of turning leaves in the fall.
19. What Makes You Look Twice?: Blue or green eyes captivate me for no apparent reason.
20. If You Could Only Listen to One Album for the Rest of Your Life, What Would It Be and Why?: Bright Eyes (Fevers and Mirrors) because I can never get sick of it.
21. One Quote That Defines You: **And I'm broken, let's fix and I'm swollen, let's kiss and we're walking, he'll lead, if he's waiting, we'll leave. I'm so gracious I've got you here. If you touch it, it's cold. If you drop it, it breaks. If you hold it, it shakes**
22. Favorite Jell-O Flavor: Cherry
23. Are You Happy With Yourself?: More so everyday.
24. If You Could Touch God, What Would It Feel Like?: I don't believe in God, I think my hand would just slip right through.
25. Do You Believe in an Afterlife?: I believe that inside everyone is a tiny bright star that goes back to the sky when you die. You can become someone's North Star if you are important enough to them. I already have one.
26. What scares you?: Drowning, sharks, clowns
27. What is Your Most Prominent Emotion?: Stress.
28. One Song You Wish You Would Have Written: Arienette by Bright Eyes.
29. Your Addiction(s): Cigarettes, pop, and writing.
30. To Be or Not to Be?: Not to be. Anything.
31. Beauty Is: All around us.
32. Your Favorite Person: Joey, my schmoopy.
33. What Do You Look Like?: I have brown hair and eyes. My eyes look black if I put dark makeup on them, which is the only attractive thing I think I have. I am beauty queen. I'm somebody's dream.
34. If You Could Change Your Name, What Would You Change It To?: Arienette and I still might someday.
35. Do You Associate Crying With Pain?: Yes, but not physical pain. I definatley cry more at emotional pain than anything else.
36. What Causes Emptiness?: I don't know because if I did, I would fill up mine with the exact opposite of it.
37. Are You Vulnerable to Anyone? Who?: I'm vulnerable to anyone who is close enough to hurt me, which would be about everyone in my life. I let people in too quickly.
38. How Do You Feel About People?: Mostly I don't understand them and would most of the time rather live in a world unoccupied by them.
39. Is Social Status Important?: To me, it means nothing, it's just a state of mind. A state that I don't wish to have.
40. Favorite Art Form: Music. Writing, I live to write.
41. Would You Rather Be Used By Someone You Love, or Be Involved With Somone You Only Like Partially?: I'd much rather be involved with someone I only partially liked then be used by someone I loved. I love people so whole-heartledly and entirely that I am always broken into fragments when they hurt me, I can't deal with it. I'd rather be blissfully ignorant.
42. Do You Have Any Plans For the Future?: I'm going to go to college and become a famous author. My books are going to be made into movies that make beautiful people cry. And I will change the world.
43. What Would Jesus Do?: He keep his ass away from me.
44. Brilliance is Defined By: Feelings.
45. When Was the Last Time You Were Truly Happy?: I am happy everday now.
46. Is Contentment the Same as Satisfaction?: No, contentment is being fine with something and satisfaction is feeling complete.
47. Better to Have Loved and Lost Than to Have Never Loved at All?: Love is beautiful and I'd much rather have loved and lost then to never know what it felt like.
48. How Do You Feel About Spandex?: I don't care for swimsuits which are made of Spandex so I hex it to Spandex Hell.
49. Favorite Texture: Velvet.
50. Favorite Taste: Chocolate
51. Most Admirable Celebrity: Daniel Johns.
52. Hurts More, Sticks and Stones or Words?: Words kill your soul which is more than any tangible object could do.
53. Do You Believe Everyone Has a Perfect Match?: I believe that.
54. Is Ignorance Bliss?: Yes.
55. Words or Pictures?: Words draw a more beautiful picture that any camera could capture.
56. Favorite Oxymoron: Infinitely finite
57. Lasts Longer - Love or Lust?: Love, lust is fleeting.
58. Absurdity Is: Randomness.
59. Do You Feel the Word "persons" Contributes to or Detracts From the English Language?: I have honestly never used it.
60. Is Cynicism Used to Prevent Pain? Why Do You Think This?: I am a cynic by nature. I use to prevent myself from being hurt, it is a defense mechanism. The world is cruel so you must be equally cruel in order to survive.
61. Is Optimism or Pessimism More Widely Accepted in Society?: Pessimism, it's always worked for me.
62. Fishing For Compliments Is: Something I have to do sometimes to make myself feel better.
63. Would You Rather Hold or Be Held? Why?: I would rather be held because nothing is more reassuring than feeling safe.
64. Favorite Palindrome: I sadly do not know what that means and am too lazy to go look it up.
65. How Long is a Moment?: A moment is short, but can feel like a lifetime.
66. Lullabies or Silence?: Lullabies are so soothing, I haven't heard one in ages.
67. Full Moons or New Moons?: Full moons, because I like to see completion in the universe, it makes me feel like everything is tied together.
68. The Most Accurate Way to Find Out How Someone Feels About You Without Asking Is: Their eyes.
69. Favorite Symmetric Shape: A circle, they are perfect and never end.
70. What Do You Live For?: Day to day things. I live to write now and I live to be different.
71. Kisses or Hugs?: Hugs are so much more endearing.
72. Is Isolation Self-Imposed?: I don't think so for me it's something that I can do in a room filled with people all talking to me, I'll just go to a place and not be able to care. It's involintary.
73. Better - Introversion or Extroversion? Why?: Introversion because if you are so busy being you for everyone else, you will quickly lose sight of who "you" are.
78. Most Important Factors in a Relationship: Trust.
79. Do You Keep a Journal or Diary? Why or Why Not?: I used to keep an online journal, which I'm trying to restars, and I write in my paper diary every day.I do this because I don't want to forget my life like I've forgetten everything that happened before writing. It also helps me get my feelings out instead of twirling around my head aimlessly. It helps me realize that people feel the same. It just helps.
80. "I just want to be friends", Sincere or Bullshit?:
It's hard to be friends with someone who you used to love, with it's easy to love someone who are friends with. I don't think it's bullshit though.
81. Favorite Sound: Music.
82. Is Singing in Public a Right or a Privilege?: It's a right, you have a voice, you can talk, you can sing.
83. Favorite Independent Musical Artist: Bright Eyes.
84. Envy Is: Feeling that someone or something is better than you and wanting whatever/whoever they have enough that it hurts.
85. How Do You Feel About the Prominence of Eating Disorders in Today's Society? why?: I feel like it's insane. You are who you are and if you can't look at yourself and say this is the weight I am right now and that's that then don't look around. There is always going to someone smarter/prettier/skinnier than you are and as soon as you realize that you won't have to starve yourself anymore. Everyone is so obsessed with this worldy beauty contest, it's sickening.
86. Do You Support Local Music?: Of course, I have to support others stuck in this Hell Hole trying to sing/play their way out.
87. Favorite Musical Instruments: Piano and Guitar.
88. Life - Seems Better When It's Just Beginning or When It's Nearly Over?: I don't remember what it was like when it was just beginning and I don't know what it's like when it's over, but it sucks being stuck in the middle.
89. On Average, How Many Times a Day Do You Question Your Signifigance?: Many, many times.
90. When Was the Last Time You Laughed For No Reason?: Earlier today, I laugh randomly.
91. How Do You Feel About Your Body?: I used to hate it, but I've grown to accept and like it. I have decorated it with tattoos and think it truly expresses my personality now.
92. Innocence is a Virtue or a Burden: Innocece is a virtue, I wish I could have held on to it a little longer.
93. Do You Look For Love Forever or For Now?: I love for always. I love until my heart stop beating.
94. If You Had to Choose, Would You Live Like There's No Tomorrow or Dream Like You'll Live Forever? why?: I would live like there's no tomorrow. If I had the right mind set [which I'm working on] I would live as if I'm never going to see the sunlight again. I would live as if I couldn't be sure of tomorrow.
95. How Old Do You Want to be When You Die?: Young.
96. What is Your Favorite Sin?: Lust.
97. How Far Would You Go For a Friend?: I would die, gladly for a true friend.
98. Do You Feel that Love Needs to be Proved?: If it is real love, it proves itself.
99. Would You Rather Exist For Someone or Have Someone Exist For You?: I would rather exist for me, and live for no one and have no one live for me because evitably I would let them down and then I'd be killing someone.