YOU STIRRED UP SOMETHING INSIDE ME THAT HURT LIKE HELL, BUT IT WASN’T HATE - Todd & Marty
This is possibly the strangest but most mesmerizing scene between the two. I think Malone wanted a final reconciliation and sense of peace between Marty and Todd before RH was leaving the show and this was just amazing to watch. It is Todd in one of his most open and honest moments. When watching it live I was very uneasy, not sure of the direction, it looked at first, as if they were going to pair them romantically. Watching it now in retrospect it is an amazingly acted and written scene. Both of these actors give you a true a lesson in their craft of underplaying and subtly in acting. Todd admits to Marty that he did feel something after their initial one night stand and when she asked him to stay that night it ripped open a wound in him that subsequently made him lash out against her. What I can’t capture here is a series of flashbacks that Todd has sitting in his limo waiting for Marty outside her house. In three separate montages they show Todd & Marty’s entire ‘relationship’ from their consensual one night together, the rape, the trial, his rescuing her from the car crash, his apology after Powell’s terrorism, her stopping his almost suicide at the docks, her giving him her blood, his covering for her drinking again. It is one of the best flashbacks that I have ever seen on this show, no music, only snippets of dialogue, it gives you an entire encapsulated version of their story. This scene follows the previous transcript at the country club. Todd has decided to wait for Marty outside her house to make sure she is safe after her drinking spree. She arrives home having picked up David Vickers who thinks he is going to get lucky with the drunken Marty. They are standing out in the pouring rain, he is starting to push himself on her and she is trying to tell him that she should just go sleep it off. He persists and she tells him no trying to fight him off. Out of no where, Todd comes and grabs David off Marty. They fight and finally he gets David out of there by having his chauffeur drive him to the airport.
I AM SORRY FOR THE PICTURES BEING SO DARK, THIS SCENE IS VERY DARK. FIRST BEING OUTSIDE WITH OUT LIGHTS AND INSIDE WITH ONLY FIRE LIGHT. ALL THE SAME, THIS IS A GREAT SCENE AND ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVS!
TODD: (they are both drenched to the skin) Alright Marty, you look like road kill let’s get you out....(starts to take her arm)
MARTY: (she flings his hand off) What does it take to get you out of my life, what the hell are you doing here?
TODD: I was waiting for you! (getting upset) I couldn’t get what you said to me out of my mind! (points to his head) What you said to me at the country club, you said that I didn’t have the guts to come clean, that I couldn’t deal with...with everything that...that had happened between us.
MARTY: Why do you want my opinion?
TODD: Yes I do, I want your opinion, right here, and right now! You say that you’re the only one with the guts to show it, you show me, you show me how you feel Marty, you show me how you feel.....(cutting him off, she slaps him hard, then she grabs him by the lapels, struggles and manages to throw him to the ground, she screams, letting it all out)
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MARTY: You don’t know what it feels like. (he sits up and slowly gets to his feet) I was in trouble and I needed help. I was drunk, I was sick, I was lonely and you saw all that. (she hits him he flinches, letting her rage on) You saw all that. And what did you do? You stomped on me. (Todd is out of breath) It made you feel good to hurt me, someone sad as pathetic as me. Did you feel like a man, did you feel strong, I don’t know! (she hits him again) You know what, you’re still hurting me. You can’t stop hurting me, like you said tonight, you told me, you said it’s still my fault you said that I ASKED for it! God I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!
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(He is in the living room of her house only lit by the fire. He throws another log on the fire sits on the floor in front of the couch near the fire and starts to take off his shoes. Marty enters having changed in dry clothes and throws a blanket at him, she is sober now)
MARTY: Here. You’re soaked. (she crosses to the opposite end of the couch)
TODD: (he dries his face) I still think you should have let me taken you to the doctor.
MARTY: I’ll survive. I feel like I’ve been run over, but I’m feeling better then I was. (she sits tucking her feet up on the couch)
TODD: What were you doing drinking anyway Marty? (she looks at him) You know watching you turn into this person you were a long time ago, this....this self destructive, pitiful mess, it drive’s me nuts! It digs up all this stuff that I wanted dead and buried a long time ago.
MARTY: Like what? What?? (covers herself with blanket) Come on Todd, let’s finish this, it’s your turn. You never really been up front, to me, although, I know you always hated me from the moment we met.
TODD: Yeah, I hated you. (glances back at her) But that didn’t happen till later.
MARTY: (confused) Later, later than what?
TODD: (he sighs) You remember the night when you picked me up? (glances back again) I mean long before the night of the frat party, the night that I didn’t rape you. We could say....(very tentative) that we made love, right? And you asked me to stay and I blew you off.
MARTY: (quietly, stares straight ahead) Oddly enough I remember that.
TODD: Yeah, well. (he stares into the fire) Everything that happened after that, happened because of that night. You asked me to stay and it twisted me up inside. And that’s why I blamed you, (pause, quietly) even for the rape. Not because you asked for it or because you led me on, but because of that night. You stirred up something inside me that hurt like hell. (looks back to her) But it wasn’t hate. (Marty looks confused and surprised)
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MARTY: (looks at him, little confused) What did I do to you? That night you wouldn’t stay?
TODD: (staring into fire) It was happened after. After we done it. You asked me to care. And you freaked out when I told you that I was going. You got all sad and lonely and you begged me not to leave you alone in that big fancy empty house. (Marty has tears in her eyes) And that freaked me out because I was like, you want met to care, then what?
Before that the only other person that I cared about was my mother (Marty gets pillow and sits on floor at opposite end of couch) and I turned around one day and she’s gone, into thin air, just like that and I wanted to cry my eyes out but I didn’t, I wouldn’t care about anyone, EVER. And that worked pretty well for a while. (glances at her) Then we had our roll in the hay. (he looks down) You asked me, you...you begged me to care and it was like you had ripped open this scab.
MARTY: It was just a one night stand. I didn’t know it meant so much to you.
TODD: Well, I hid it pretty well. But you treated me like a piece of meat. It didn’t matter who you slept with that night, you didn’t care.
MARTY: (she hugs her knees to her, staring straight ahead) I didn’t. I’m not proud of it, but that’s all you were then, someone to get me through the night.
TODD: (staring into the fire) That would have been fine. (Marty watches him) Except you stirred up all these crazy thoughts like maybe it would work out if I wound up caring. (Marty looks confused and upset) But at that point, you’d already decided to tell the world I was garbage, and I guess I thought I deserved it. (he glances back to her)
I wanted you to know what that felt like. And so I fought back. (he side glances with his eyes intently looking at her) And I raped you. I...I don’t want to blame anybody else for that and I won’t, but I had a choice and I raped you! (Marty closes her eyes at the memory, lifting her head)
MARTY: (she now stares straight ahead) How angry you were was all I could feel. I guess I just never understood why or how scared you were till now. (tears in her voice and eyes) I’ve been there, Todd. I guess ever since my parents died, and I hate it. You know, I can’t help caring about people but then when I do, (slow camera pan close up of Todd, while she is talking. He is upset, tears glinting, at one point closes his eyes about to lose it, reacting to their similarities)
I’m so afraid of losing them that I push them away, so I’m not going to get hurt, like Dylan. Or I end up hanging on to people who could care less about me, like my Aunt Kiki. I mean she took me in when my parents died just to get her hands on my trust fund. I guess that’s why I was a little messed up tonight cause I just found out she’s been robbing me blind. And even worse than that, I let her do it! (Todd looks at her) I should’ve stopped her years ago. No, I was too afraid of being abandoned one more time.
TODD: You think that I don’t know what that feels like? Every time that I scored a touchdown in high school, I’d turn into this pathetic dog. All I wanted was a pat on the head and for my father to say; “Good boy.” I wanted that more than life. (pauses) Even though I knew he hated my guts.
MARTY: (turns away, looks up and back down) You wanna know what’s really scary? (can’t believe she is about to say this, looking at him) How much alike we are.
(she grimaces putting her hand to her forehead) You and me. (Todd looks back at her surprised)
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TODD: (camera opens on the fire with Todd’s voice being heard and slowly pans to him) Yeah, it is scary how much we are alike. Except you take everything out on yourself and I lash out. (pauses) I guess it’s kind of a boy-girl thing, maybe.
MARTY: Maybe. Just like tonight. I was so mad at someone, so I hurt myself. Got a little of that booze, Marty. All I really wanted was do beat my Aunt Kiki to a pulp. I just found out she’s been living it up in Ireland off the money she’d been draining from my trust fund.
TODD: Here’s a thought. Why don’t you fly over there, surprise the old bat? (small laugh) Why don’t you kick her in the butt?
MARTY: (looking at him) I don’t think I’m strong enough for that battle.
TODD: (softly staring straight ahead) Oh, I don’t know, Marty. You were pretty strong with me tonight. Knocked me on my duff right in the mud. Think you’d do just fine against Aunt Kiki. (putting twist on Kiki)
MARTY: What about you? I mean telling me I have to fight and you’re not doing anything! I mean maybe if you worked harder at that marriage of yours......
TODD: (cutting her off quietly, she’s staring at him) No. (definitive) No. (long pause) It’s way too late for that. I mean, there was one brief, bright moment right before Blair had the miscarriage. I cared so much about her, about my baby. But I was scared, but I wouldn’t have stopped myself from caring. And all of that went up in smoke. (Marty lays her head on her knees) Oh, sorry, didn’t mean to bum you out. (She rubs her head) You okay?
MARTY: I don’t know. I feel pretty lousy.
TODD: I’d better let you get some sleep. (he stands) Except I don’t have anyway to get home, I don’t have a car.
MARTY: You can take mine. (she gestures to the table) The keys are right there.
TODD: (walks behind couch to her side to get the keys, turns around) You okay? (she smiles lamely) This isn’t working for me. You look bad.
MARTY: Thanks.
TODD: No, I’m serious. (he crouches down by her and looks directly into her eyes) Look, why don’t you, um, go upstairs and get some sleep, and if, well, just in case you need somebody take you to see a doctor in the middle of the night, I’ll crash on the couch. And I’ll be gone before you even wake up.
MARTY: (unsure) No, I’ll be alright.
TODD: (sincerely, softly) Marty, (she sighs) do you remember that night we made love? You needed me and I wouldn’t stay. And you’re right, I was a coward. Let me take care of you this time. (they stare at each other as the scene fades out)
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(Todd is lying on the couch with a blanket over him and his arms folded. Marty is standing by the fireplace looking down at him)
MARTY: I just wanted you to know that I’m not scared.
TODD: (quietly) Good. Go on now. Get some rest. (they look at each other for a moment then Marty goes turns and leaves the room and Todd closes his eyes to sleep)
