~TO CORY~
WITH LOVE

~CHRISTMAS MEMORIES~
(DECEMBER ~ 2000)
 

As I sit and gaze at the falling snow,
Dancing, off the twinkling lights,
My mind drifts back in time, a time of
Unrequited joy and contentment,
That I will never know again.

Christmas without you, is no longer Christmas.
Christmas is for children, and you my child,
have gone away.
No more presents under the tree
No more cookies for Santa,
Just an emptiness, that nothing will ever fill again.

Oh, I go through the motions, and put on the face,
As I know that is what you would want
So, people walk by, never knowing
That I am dying inside.

I bake the cookies, and think of you
I decorate your rememberance tree and cry.
I buy the gifts for other people's children
and pretend that all is well.

When the day, is finally put to rest, and
all has been tended to, I come here,
and this is where I live.
In my heart, mind and soul
Precious memories of you.

This is my Christmas now, your tree,
your picture, your spirit.
I feel your very presence, and I never
want to let you go.

I hear carols being sung, but they are
for the joyful at heart.
There is no more joy in Christmas
just the longing for your presence.

Maybe in time, with your help and God's
love, I will know Christmas again.

All My Love,
Mom

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