i cant concentrate
i cant live anymore
i cant have everything i want
i cant have everything you want.

i cant do this anymore
i cant live this lie
i cant pretend nothing happened.
i cant live in doubt, in fear.
i cant live with you in my life.
i cant live without you in my life.

i dont know what to do.
my brain is about to explode
i cant think straight, i cant feel safe.
even in your arms i know something is wrong.
i'm going to break down anyday now
cause im not as strong as you think

i'm weak and depressed.
i'm nothing compared to you
i'm nothing because i'm made taht way
my life is pointless, all i bring is downfall.
everyone ive met has suffered because of me.
every i've loved has rejected and left me.

you do what you have to.
i completely understand.
but if we chose to end
to end this all i have to ask you
not to look back at all.

dont remember the times together, 
dont remember me at all.
forget everything you know
forget everythign you dont.
just keep on living
without me.

because i wont be there anymore.
because i wont come back.
it may sound selfish and pety.
but i cant live my life liek this anymore.
i cant live anymore.

maybe i'm selfish, maybe i'm wrong.
frankly i dont really care anymore.
i could die today and it wouldnt even matter.
who am i in this infinite world?
who am i, but just another collection of molecules and coded genetic information?
just another waste of space, another virus destroying the earth.

so i'm down this same old road.
death and suicide, its all commonplace.
my stomach churns and my brain throbs.
so once again i put on this mask.
maybe it will get me through everything.
maybe once more i can find refuge in my own self pity.
maybe once more it can take me away and bring me back.
or maybe this time it will destroy me
maybe this time it will end me.

maybe.
maybe i hope so.