Decoy

Me, a role model, someone to look up to?
I don't at all see why.
They see only how I live on the outside.
But inside, that's where my pain and struggle is.
They don't see that of course.
I mean, how could they?
I have become quite good at covering it all up.
There's no way I could reveal all that.
Not now, that's for sure.
I should be done with all the things I struggle with.
They shouldn't see all that.
No, instead I'll only allow my outer person to show,
Like a decoy I guess.
Just leave "me" inside.
Allow the "good guy" outside for all to see.
Yeah, that's how I'll do it.
Hey, its worked this long, why not?