I looked at Taylor who was still eyeing me from the couch. He had a pink piece of paper in his hand that he kept looking over.

I wanted to see how she was doing even though I know she’d probably rather see Taylor and not me, but it was worth a try.

Suddenly Taylor got up, threw the paper to the ground and stomped off into another room. He looked really annoyed, but I wasn’t going to sympathize with him b/c I quite frankly didn’t care. It was a race to see who wins and it didn’t have to be the best man either. I just acted like I didn’t see Taylor run off.

Which, in this case, I did, but I wasn’t going to tell her the truth.

I heard the sounds of my mother doing the laundry in the background as I looked over the flyer. It read that there was a new teen club in town and it was having its grand opening tonight. I suddenly got a brilliant idea. I decided I would ask Janie to go out with me to the club tonight. That would be cool. My stomach ached nervously but the butterflies that filled it were mostly just anxious.

Yes, I had a plan now. I would just go over and ask her later if she’d like to go with me and if she says no then I’ll just get Jack, David, and Keith to go with me so I won’t feel bad. Yes, I will do that. I thought about calling the guys but I doubted that they would even be up. Normally they didn’t wake up until like 3 in the afternoon. It was very stupid but that’s how they spent their weekends for some reason.

Out of boredom I picked up the remote control and flipped through the TV. I hadn’t watched TV for the longest time. I was so behind in all of my favorite shows that it wasn’t even funny. I changed it to MTV and the Will Smith video for ‘Wild Wild West’ was on. That was a pretty cool song. So I just sat back and reclined into the cushions of the couch singing along.

Before the video was even half way over with, Taylor suddenly flew down the stairs in a blur of blonde hair, a red shirt, CK Be, and a couple of chokers. I got up to block his way suspiciously curious on where he was going.

I stood there speechless. I knew where he was going. That was obvious. He wanted to go to Janie’s before I could. He would probably ask her out or something and knowing just my luck she’d say yes. Feeling a little down I just didn’t even bother to run after him. Really the more I thought of it, as much as I wanted Janie as a girlfriend, I know it just wouldn’t work out with her being so close to Taylor and he hating me for like her when he likes her too. So it would be majorly uncomfortable. I guess it would be better for him to just have her and me to give up then for him to be mad at me if I were given a chance. I mean she was Taylor’s age of course she’d rather go for him. I can understand that, but the thing is I just couldn’t understand why she wanted to be his friend only. I told her I wanted to be her friend, and she acted as if she didn’t care. Would that be a sign of shyness therefore leading to the fact that maybe by some chance that she could have feelings for me too?

No, that’s hardly the case. See this is what happens to me when I like a girl. I got overly obsessed and I analyze everything. It’s like my brain looks for every possible way that there could be some hint of hope that maybe this girl could like me. I always get my hopes up too. This time was going to be different though. I wasn’t going to let that happen and then be all depressed for a month when she turns me down. I just want to be her friend if I can’t be her boyfriend. I’d settle for one or both just not neither. If she just liked me as a friend is one thing, but if she ignored me that would totally destroy my soul.

I sighed and went back over to the TV; not as happy as I was a couple of minutes ago. I lay down and thought about Janie. I decided that I’d still ask her to go to that nightclub tonight anyway, as a friend date and nothing else.

Just then the phone rang. I grabbed it after the third ring.

That was pretty strange for him but I dismissed it as nothing after I fell asleep on the couch that lazy afternoon.