maybe this is more pure.

pure than simple.

(maybe this is all i have for home)

28 october 1998.

so by this point, you're thinking, "freak! what the Hell are you doing with these funked up background colors?" relax. it won't hurt much longer.

~you are only coming through in waves.~ so this chick who i know.. we'll call her melodrama. she's calling herself anne gwish, who, i was informed, is a character from the comic johnny the homicidal maniac. okay, let's just lay it out on the table. i'm a sicky - i've got obsessive compulsive disorder & depression & other stuff - mental handfull. anyway.. i don't think i really exploit it. i try to overcome it when it doesn't overcome me. i'm not big on using it for excuses either. but when you say to someone you care about, "i'm <insert DMV-IV disease here> & this is why i treat you like shit," that's NOT okay with me. i could go on relentlessly about this. but i won't. but if you're sick.. if you're hurting - get off your keester & FIX IT. don't treat people who love you & who worry for you like calvin & hobbes food monsters until you beat them to nonrecognition. if you can't rise above it, you're nothing more than a text book.

i gave a presentation today in history class & ended up flashing the class. not like you think, but you know. i was trying to prove that everyone is different & used the example that i haven't shaved my legs in.. well, quite a while. why is this a problem with everyone? where does it say that women are supposed to be hairless? could you quote that in the bible for me? could you point it out in the constitution or articles of confederation. hi. i'm not pretty. i'm going to put it to you straight. i'm not a pretty thing, freak. but who the fuck says i have to be? who says, "you have to be the most beautiful waif that ever walked this planet or you're mincemeat?" who says that?! is it you? well, come on, evil one! take on me! take me on! & bring your books & a couple shears.