lewis.
14 march 1999.
save yourself the pain.
you'll never get there.
i'm still running but i don't know what, what am i running from, what are you running from
you're still tryin but you don't know why, when it ain't no fun, i know it ain't no fun.
a-a7-d"so what are we trying to prove"
g- -c"when i know it ain't no use"
g- -c"yeah, you know it ain't no use"
g-g-g"why don't they know that it ain't no use"
so maybe we should all just go and get high.
"yeah you know you want to"
don't you want to get high - er?
I just wanna get high
and you know you want to
don't you want to get higher...now?

what are you talking about, you fool? a pain right over the right eye, spreading throughout the rest of the brain. close your eyes & maybe the pain will stop. did it again, od'd again. welcome back home.

fool.

look me in the eye, please. look me in the eye with my hat on backwards & my body twisted & torn. do i appear different? do i appease your exceptionable objection? i'm a creep. you don't look like your pictures & i never looked in mine. they're all starting to seep back in, i can tell. i can see them trying to come back together. what is this? a legal overdose is always a mistake. as opposed to a felony. you're so very special.

but i'm a creep. i need to clean. messy. throw things in drawers that belong there. when i don't belong here. whooaa. dripping off the tongue, it's metallic & biting. run.

go on. run.

fly away. we always fly away.

dead carnation, white, soupy water. i could pick it up in my hand. i want the back of the tape. i want the sticky surface & the lastnightonearth. you're so fucking special.

spelling words with an a, l, o, n & an e.

i'm grateful.

faith.

away.