[13 december 1998, very fucking early] what are we coming to? i'm going to melt down, i'm sure. i bordered the thin line. ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._ ._. i'm in a relatively good mood. i wish aud were around so i could bounce things off her that i wouldn't normally bounce off anyone else but her, therefore stating her importance. ahhh. that made So much sense. indeed. i need to get a new chair. the chairs i have at home & whatnot for the computer are all so Painful. they're very wooden & i'm not quite sure why i subject myself to this kind of torture. maybe when i grow up i'll get a magic rocking chair like john kennedy & a little child will sit in my lap & gurgle. that would be nice. do you ever think of becoming a mother or a father? no, not really. i used to. i used to think about it often, but i don't. not now. <shrug> it just doesn't seem like anything realistic at this point. i'm not responsible enough for myself so i doubt i could be for another little person. so i'm just being fair overall, i suppose. i was seriously considering packing a lot of my stuff up & heading off to london. maybe oxford. wherever. just Going. wherever. i think it would be nice if i had some money. that might do me good first. har. nothing is possible without it. everyone's a wanker, everyone's a loser. bastards, all of them. but i love you & you love me & all is well. yay. i miss my dog a lot. is that so wrong?
whoa. stacey just came in here & was talking about her roommate situation. poor girl. sigh. i wish i was closer with the people who i lived with. but i don't really care that much. <shrugeroo> whatever. it's not really my deal. i don't like cliques. i don't like snobs. & i certainly don't like YOU. oh, wait. crap. just kidding. :erase:
okay. it's way past my bedtime & erin is super-sick.. blame it on the black star. blame it on the falling sky. blame it on the satellite that beams me home. {later in the day} |