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[4 january 1999]

blue: do you think my writing lacks focus & therefore takes away from it's reason?

secret agent man: yes ma'am?

sam: focus?

sam: i'm not certain i know the meaning

blue: focus.

sam: i think that the contradictions in writing more purely reveal the true meaning, and the true writer. being consistent is in a way censorship, and not conducive to honest writing

blue: okay..

blue: can you expand on that?

sam: it is asking for a universal that does not exist.

sam: it is asking for definitions in a chaotic relationship.

blue: okay.
sam: the questions AND answers are asked by the writer, and the reader ASKS AND ANSWERS the same questions from a seperate perspective

sam: the relationship the reader and the writer create is undefineable

sam: writers write because they must, not because they can, and the reaction is arbitrary, which is why brilliance goes unrecognized daily....it isn't commdifiable

blue: okay. how come you always know what to say?

sam: i'm SUUUUUUUUUPER old.