[i'll find my soul as i go home.]
17 november 1998
as if it wasn't influential enough,
emptyv is here. tonight is the campus invasion with third eye blind & eve 6. i believe they're doing road rules auditions on godwin right now. interesting, i suppose, for those of you interested in this kind of thing. hey, dude.. i'd go through the t.v. shit to go some of the places these kids go on the mtv shows. hell, i'd turn my wallet over to those loons, no problem. i'm listening to temptation.. how appropriate.so time for a little expression -- i LOVE it when people write me an email & end up going Off. just throwing whatever's going on in his/her head & hurling it into the keyboard so i can read it & be amazed. it Really grabs me. even if it has absolutely nothing to do with me, & this is going to sound stupid, it makes me feel incredibly trusted & needed. like i'm available as a sounding board & you're using me as such -- THANK YOU. love that. love me some random spouts.
mental scat. "call me mister!" i sent some letters, sent some checks. erin's sick. i spent some quality time in the health center today. nerr. i think i should have a tattoo that says "warning: perpetually sick." <shrug> oh! i had this wonderful thought. boys who tell your friends they're not virgins in order to have sex.. i'd like to get them all smash drunk & take them to a tattoo place that will plaster "I AM NOT A VIRGIN" over the lowest part of his stomach. i would love that. i would love it. gah. even if the girls didn't believe it, so what. who cares. his own stomach is screaming "liar!" hah. anyway. </mental scat>
i love this girl across the hall from me. chris. she kicks ass. need i say more? didn't think so. jay is also kicking my ass. see above. ehjay too. aj. yes. ask him
stuff."if you're gonna call me by my last name, you put mister in front of it."
"i can think of something else i'd like to call you. i could put mister in front of that if you'd like."
-mulder.
"Large Piles of Manure."
-scully.
when someone writes words, sometimes it's as if they don't Know it's going to penetrate your soul. "this is a brand new song that no one's heard before." just lonely. i feel fulfilled when you say these things to me because i know you mean them. do you hear?
at times, i don't think you do.
but others..
i know you're at least listening.
