don't go on me.
18 march 1999.
don't you want me?

don't let go. i feel the music in you. oh, yoh yohhohhoh.

get your free, private sponge bath..

cure-all. i've got one. want to see? want to know? how about i show you, who are you? lovely. okay, it's about that time. i'll throw it up now. go on, catch it. go on! hurry! spilt ketchup on the side of your shirt. whoops.

one time, my junior year, i was sitting in the journalism room editing copy. just sitting at the table, minding my own business, being the studious little editor everyone knows me to be. plinkplink. but joe is sitting across from me at one of the desks. i wasn't really paying attention to him, but i kept hearing him go, "shit. oh, shit. shitshitshit." erm.. yes. joe has tourette's, i thought to myself. then he starts to get up & move around the room. he's getting notecards & tape & truthfully i'm starting to wonder what the hell he's doing. so i look up & here he is, cutting out an index card. what for, you ask? there is a Huge mustard stain right smack in the middle of his kiwanis island shirt. so he takes the index card & applies the tape to his chest to cover the spot.

okay. i just had to share that. continue on.


hi. i don't know why, but i'm moody. & i'm in the moody mood of wanting to fill out forms. i get like this a lot.. times that i really want to just do nothing but sit & fill out forms. i was one of those kids who absolutely relished filling out college applications (maybe that's why i want to transfer.. hm.. ). anyway, this is from jessica's page. see the links page. yeah. so here's what's on her page & here's what i filled out, being in one of my moods.

"The majority of these questions were taken from the program book of The Cure's Swing Tour, in 1996. A couple of catagories have been removed, and a few extra have been added by me. . ."

name. * shannon. blue.
birthday. * 21 august. send presents.
colour. * blue. navy blue, usually.
phrase. * continue to continue. 'these are the things that i'd like to forget. when do i begin?'
food. * anything italian. i'm incredibly picky.
drink. * any coke product. straight liquor.
place. * like location? d.c. ideally: nor'easter, like boston or cambridge; with you.
moment. * early in the morning when i'm the only one awake & everything is absolutely still & natural. showers. any time before, during or after a rainstorm.
season. * autumn.
sound. * acoustic guitars, voice in your ear during a hug, the movement of lips when someone is speaking, blinking of eyelashes.
taste. * like chicken. uhm.. chocolate. coke.
look. * like chicken.
dream. * --er.
material. * gap jeans.
collect. * music paraphenalia, books by winterson, card & bantock, memories.
word. * existention, inatia, dreamslight, shadowstar, blue, waves, tempest, begin.
animal. * elephant, dog, butterfly.
thing. * soap, touch, flowers, handwritten letters.
smell. * soap, honeysuckle, spring, cigars in passing.
picture. * usually not smiling, don't even try it.
book. * written on the body, j.winterson. the griffin & sabine trilogy, n.bantock. a portrait of the artist as a young man & ulysess, j.joyce, weetzie bat series, f.l.block.
poem. * i don't remember it, but it has something to do with eating one's heart.
comic. * the sandman, neil gaiman.
song. * "phonecall 45," emm gryner. "marianne" & "bells for her," tori amos. "black star," radiohead. "if i wrote you," dar williams. "fade in-out" & "cast no shadow," oasis.
number. * three. in all forms & repetitions.
pastime. * sleeping, writing, reading, being, acting, beginning, listening.
person. * audrey, justin, john, jessa, sam, jesse, scoot, lo, kare & air, kir, wendy, swan, kat'.
feeling. * need, want, love, touch.
love. * understated.
hate. * tapping, complacency, faking, absence of truth, malice.
describe yourself in 13 words. * when i begin in flux, there will be a revolution of all thought.
describe the others in 13 words * come closer together, & i will always remember to say things you hear.


from a washington post article about more study of reefer:
"I would note, however, that the report says 'smoked marijuana has little future as an approved medication,'‚" McCaffrey said. "You should not expect to go into an ICU [intensive care unit] in 15 years and find someone with prostate cancer with a 'blunt' stuck in his face as a pain management tool."

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five against one.