Education is a never ending process with one who strives for fullness in life. Education, therefor is obviously one of
the most highly upheld of my desire. It is never ending because even the best of the best scholars in the world are
nowhere near to being supreme when it comes to overall intelligence. Like these select few, I also recognize this
but do not acknowledge it during my life; it's just a simple fact.
     Let me start by telling you what I strive for in the classroom. It seems to me that once we begin a new topic or
chapter in any of our classes, I will, if interested in, speak up and ask the teacher to go beyond what he is
teaching. In a manner of speaking, he or she will explain to us why such is so; but then I have the instinctive urge to
ask, but if so is so, then why is such so and how is so so? The rest of our class usually does a good job of keeping the
teacher's integrity and he or she does not have to go deeper into the topic. I have found this to be annoying, but I
simply dismiss it usually, unless if I find that my comparison completely goes against the theory that the
teacher is teaching us. This is a fairly adequate representation of what education means to me.
     Another example of how I praise knowledge is whenever we were building our knew home. Yes, I helped build it and did
at least a third of the mechanical, but that's beside the point. (Though I really did learn a lot about general
plumbing, electrical, ductwork, and common structures.) My parents had been afraid of the Internet; but I bugged and
bugged them about it long enough to where they finally gave in and I had access to it.  It was here that I could express
my love for computers and programming; here I could learn to my hearts desire all I ever wanted to know about C++ or
Pascal or Assembler or any other computer programming language that was out there. In my time, I have released 2 or
3 full epic games, that is epic in my opinion considering that it was on a local scale, and that I did all the
codework, data, debugging, art, and script by myself.  Though they didn't go anywhere in the world, I learned very much
from the experiences. It makes me smile now remembering all of the things that I defeated in which I once thought that I
was incapable of doing with the tools that I had before me. Where there's a will there's a way. And besides those games,
I also created numerous utilities that helped me create the data for these games, such as a drawing program that enabled
the use of 256 different colors at once (of which has kept in the tradition of my games for the past 2 or 3 years), an easy
to use map maker, and many other littler things.
     The last example that I have for my growing yearn for education is something that I've recently been drawn to:
spiritual enlightenment. I have been learning more and more about my spiritual self for a little over a month now; but I
have found the entire process extremely difficult. Not just learning the things that've been presented before me, but
college admissions, where I'll go to college, scholarships, everly increasing workload from school, extracurricular
activities, and people who fear me for what I am looking at. This journey that has been placed before me is one that will
allow me to better myself and become more and more aware of my real self and those around me, and a new way to love.
Deeply I am attracted to it, and the urges and warnings that I receive from all sides during my daily life sends me to bed
in tears of frustration and grief some nights. It just seams that nobody here cares about the deeper love that we can give
to eachother and ourselves, and that I am all alone in my attempts, but I will strive forward, and I am devoted to
bettering myself and the world around me. This is a deeper side to me that I have not revealed to anyone but my parents
yet, and they are only afraid of my integrity; I wish that they would not fear the Internet though, for already I have
fended off two cult leaders wanting to suck me into their desires. It is a long process of learning and in this field
as well as in all other fields, be they spiritual or physical, you can never know it all nor get enough. And with
that again I will tell you that I do not acknowledge this fact of life.
     Upon the closing of this letter, I hope that you take these words in place of my being.  All that I can do is hope
that you trust me and my words, for they come from my heart, and they are the truth. Life has been very hard for me these
past few months, but I will always strive for life within and upon myself. I am in youth, but I am only one.