On the evening of February 1, 1999, Rinda Lynn Ferguson sat at her computer screen up in her bedroom at her parents house staring absently at the screen. "Of all the nights," she thought "where is he tonight? It’s my birthday, and really I thought he would be online.. it is very strange for his ICQ to be totally offline, since he has his baby connected 24 hours a day.. I wonder if it’s just them ICQ fairies.." She cracked a small grin to herself. "It must be… although I really wish he would show up on SWC or email me or something.." It had been like this all day for some unbeknownst reason.. Jason had not said anything of being gone during her birthday.. She hoped that he was okay.

    She decided to go ahead and drop in the SWC chat room.. just in case he saw her in there somehow.. although there really was nothing going on, unfortunately. More of the same greetings and hellos and Namastes.. never anything really true and spiritual in there.. or so it seemed.

    There was a ring at the door! Who in the world could be at their house?.. She had a flirting thought of Jason, but she just chuckled to herself. Her parents were gone trying to see if they could find a different satellite dish, and she wasn’t for sure when they would be back, so she ran downstairs to get the door. Her heart nearly jumped out at her when she saw Jase standing there at the door!!

    "Jase!!" She screeched "What are…?? Are.. how did you get here??.. or what are you doing here?"

    "A friend of mine…" he smiled his mischievous smile "Well…. It’s a bit of along story… I umm-"

    "Come on in, guy!" she interrupted him with. "You’re lucky mom and dad aren’t home, otherwise they’d probably kill you now you know?" The expression on her face was one of absolute glee yet mixed with a bit of surprise. "I was wondering where you were all day! Gee – I just can’t imagine – how did you get OUT here??"

    "Well, I flew in," he smiled. "WHAT??" she exclaimed. "I flew in! I was talking to some friend the other day.. said that one of them was going to be making a trip to you guessed it ‘Hillsboro Ohio’ to pick up some relatives of his. He is training in the flight program there at VU. Sooo… I got a free ride," he smiled a huge grin.

    "Well, I’ll be! You lucky dog you!!" She hugged him so so tight.. missing him so much that she realized she even had a few tears coming down her face. He rubbed her back comfortingly.

    "Happy 33, love," he whispered into her ear. She only chuckled in response, trying not to reveal the tightness in her throat.

    Jason sat at the front of the little baby monitor staring intently. Flashing through the zipping electrons and photons, information at the speed of light. He was checking his email. As he waited for his main page to download he asked Rinda, "What are we going to do then with your parents, Rinda?"

    "I dunno," she replied. "If we can, we’d probably better not let them know that you are here. I know mom would through the biggest fit!"

    "That’s what I figured," he replied grimly. "How are we gonna keep me hidden?"

    "I guess just stay up in my room," she replied.

    "Hmmmm," He thought. A grin spread across his face and he began to laugh, as did she.

    "Now just what is going through that onry mind of yours," she asked with a blushing giggle.

    "Ohhh…. Umm… well…"

    "Come on… Tell me now..!"

    "Argh! No… you know…" her face was as red as a cherry.

    "Yes… I think I DO know…! And let me tell you.. I don’t think I want to make the same mistake I made last time."

    "Really," he replied slightly bemused.

    "Really," she said gently yet firmly.

    "Hmmmm.." There was that same contemplative look! Rinda began to laugh.

    He knew himself to be going into retreat mode. It was common trait for him to back out into saying weird things when he was cornered, yet cornered in a place that he could almost enjoy. "Such pleasures of this flesh! It is so blinding at times…"

    She knew he was joking but still replied to him saying, " Yes, but what about the pleasures of the soul, mmm?" He merely blushed. He definitely knew that he had cornered himself into doing this, but he gladly accepted with only slight hesitance.

    The night went on. Rinda fixed Jason a good microwave meal since he hadn’t eaten since noon that day. She also fixed him up with a quick can of green beans for his veggies that he had so dearly missed due to the CRAPPY cafeteria down at his university. He made sure to stay in silent mode when her parents arrived. Thank goodness, they don’t often come into her room.

    As the night grew, her parents eventually went to sleep, and she went up back to her room as if she were to retire for the night. Hehe… only if they knew. Only a few minutes after she had arrived, he decided to shut down her baby so they could talk.

    "Rinda, I want to know if you feel in any way afraid of this.."

    "No, I don’t think so… I have thought about this before a lot, and now I understand.. and I can accept what you and I do. I am not afraid." Her reply sounded quite honest, but still he stared into her eyes reading her.

    "Are you certain?" he asked with great weight.

    "Yes, I am certain.." she replied calmly and assuringly.

    He sat on her bed in silent thought for a while… pondering the condition of this ever persistent delimma. He wanted her. He wanted to blend with her. He wanted the sexual experience for study and heart. He did not need a single thing though. Nor did she. She wanted comfort, but he knew that if she were on her own, she could find plenty of it herself. She wanted love, but she didn’t need it. She wanted everything that he had… but she didn’t need it. He didn’t need it. He opened his mouth to speak, but paused and decided to word himself very, very carefully. She decided to join him on her bed, asking him to lay down so she could lay her head down on top of his.

    "Rinda… what we are about to commence upon.. is something that is very powerful. Those connections you have for me? They do have the potential to possibly become ten times stronger and maybe more. Rinda, this is a sacred time for both you and me.. but I don’t want what happens here to turn out to be something that will really rip us apart in the end. You and I know that such an event is NOT what we want to happen. What we do – at all times – does not close any outside doors to neither me nor you."

    "Yes, I know that… I know that," she re-affirmed to him with a loving smile…

    Her whole body was alive with energy! That connection was pulling her so strong to him that she had an extremely difficult time from devouring him in some of her passionate kisses. Inside she reminder herself "Down kitty! Down girl.. be a good girl now…" she began to giggle a bit.

    He was momentarily broken out of his deep thought by her giggles. "What are you giggling about?" he asked with a silly smile.

    "Oh nothing.." she replied beginning to giggle even more. He knew at times like that he was certain that that was her answer that basically said "You would not want to know…" so he continued his curious smile and began a dive back into deep thought.

    "But seriously though," he continued. "Whatever happens in the future… this is and will always be something that you and I will treasure.. we will not hold this against eachother for any reasons, because it simply wouldn’t be right. I’m not sure if what we are doing right now is right or not still.."

    "Why not?" she half-whined, still smiling.

    "Well, because love.. It just seems like I still don’t feel…. That connection for you like you do me. I mean I care for you and I am compassionate towards you and I think very highly of you – yes… but unlike to you, this, to me, is a good relationship… a fantastic relationship, Rinda! But…. It’s not that one… you know?.."

    The pain welled in her heart a little bit, but she knew that by her love for him and her understanding of his character, she had to affirm. "Yes, I know, love.." His hand across her hair and back soothed her pain and light confusion.. she was so glad to have him there with her… she didn’t even think about it being her birthday.. tonight was all to special for her!

    They were silent for a long time, both thinking silently on their own, pondering their own hearts desire and intent. Being the man that he was, he decided to speak up.

    "But until then… I have really missed kissing! Would you mind kissing me and me kissing you for a while?" he asked with an innocent, almost childish smile.

    She needed no further encouragement, and uttered not a word in reply as she quickly shifted her body to his face and they began kissing….

    Soft gentle kisses…. Those beautiful kisses that they had both loved so dearly… Soft moist lips dancing slowly and sensually. Knowing that tonight there would be no bounds, he let go of his worries completely. Running his fingers up through her hair as his lips mingled with hers in a dance of love..

    Their kisses were not like the first ones that they had ever exchanged. For this first dance became wet. In fact lips became involved in the building passion. He became slightly flushed, feeling his body heat rise. She moaned and he gently rolled her over to his side and continued to kiss her face. His lips then began to slip down towards her neck..

    She sighed as an overwhelming amount of bliss came bubbling up through her body. She felt as if she were a thermometer ready to burst with love and lust together. His caressing moist lips kissing her neck.. God she didn’t know which was better, when he kissed her mouth or her neck! And oh how she wanted him! She felt his hand gently caressing her back still… his lips so powerful! Such a man!

    He felt her entire essence responding to his assault. Knowing that he was empowering her with more passion only gave him even stronger drive to make such love to her. For only a brief moment did he contemplate the strange properties of love and love making. It seemed to feed upon itself, which only caused it to grow at an exponential rate. Then as quick as the thought came, it was soon gone, eradicated by the consuming passion of his heart and the nakedness of his soul.

    "Oh Jase…" she whispered with her eyes closed in total rapture. He gently stopped his kissing, and pulled away. Only to find a sudden pair of lips back on his again. "She is a raging lion!" he thought to himself. "Or wait – lioness!" But none-the-less, he felt the desire she had for him. He felt her need to return the favor, and he did not bother to fight it or her. To do so would be like trying to stop a raging river with only a wooden dam. She wrapped her arms around his body and pressed herself strongly against him, the passion in her not stopping for one moment. He realized he was resisting and totally let go… nearly going limp to her lusty attack.

    They kissed eachother like this for nearly an hour… back and forth.. sometimes relaxing back to gentle occasional small kisses. Perhaps they were resting from the energy of an on-coming yet, unsatisfied orgasm. Both had lost all track of time and space. They were completely wrapped in their own little cocoon there on her bed.

    "This night is far from over," he whispered to her during one of their breaks. She merely giggled in response, not sure if she could even talk, she was in so much rapture. "Mmmmm…." Was her reply.

    "I would be fairly interested in learning feminine anatomy, if you would feel up to the task of teaching me." He squirmed with embarrassment, but she only planted a flirtatious kiss on his lips and smiled.

    "As you wish, master.." she replied hoarsely, and he broke into a fit of laughter, and then catching himself silenced himself into a fit of the giggles.

    "I’m NOT a master, silly!" he smiled to her. She was nearly crying with the giggles herself.

    She then sat up-right and shamelessly and without hesitancy lifted her shirt off of her shoulders. His gasp made her tickle all over and she just went into another fit of the giggles. His hand curiously reached up to touch one the mounds extending from her chest that was encompassed in a silky fabric.

    "Now.." she said in a playful manner, "these are my breasts. They help mothers feed their babies when they are children, and they generally serve for sex appeal. Are they doing their job you think?"

    "Yes!!" came his whispered exclamation.

    "Mmmm.. good.." her whole upper body was flushed, and it was making her feel VERY naked…

    "Okay okay!" he chuckled "Lemme see what really is behind that fabric, eh?" She merely blushed, reached behind her to undo her bra snap, and let it fall down to her waste. The cool air rushed against her flushed, damp breasts almost made her gasp. His jaw dropped in complete awe as he reached back up to touch them and feel them… his face showed that he was totally entranced by her body.

    "Okay okay… now me take off my shirt so you can have fun with my chesty hairies again," he gurgled out of his quietly laughing. He instantly swooshed off his shirt, not feeling the slightest bit of embarrassment. It was a feature that he was fairly comfortable with. She got a quick idea and quickly sneaked her hand over to his belly as he was pulling his shirt off, and tickled him. Jason whooped in surprise as he went into the laughs, trying to grab her hand with one, and getting her with his other. The tickle fight ended up to be another session of intimacy… He met her lips with his and kissed her now with a slowly consuming passion, she moaned and received him and his passionate kisses. She relaxed back onto her bed and let him manuever himself atop of her body. He was several pounds heavier than her, and his bare chest and broad arms around her now topless body.. She had felt so overwhelmed with his masculine body.. He was so gentle to her, yet so strong! His compassion and caring… yet his love making! He was like no other man she had ever known before. And oh God…. He was beginning to kiss her neck again! Ohhhhh!…. she totally succumbed to him, soaring up to such lofty heights of bliss and joy in her soul that she never knew existed. So radiant and brilliant!

    The feeling of her breasts pressed against his chests as he breathed into her his fire was like nothing he had ever felt before. It was the feeling of a woman… the first woman beneath his impassioned, yet pure and true body. His soul reached out only to tickle her soul. His love making to her was no more play. His love for her was real. His passionate desire to unify with her was extremely real, and yet he knew not of reality, for he was unaware of his actions, driven purely by his soul and heart. The energy snapped shut as though an arc welder as his mouth slowly, instinctively pulled away from her neck.

    "Jase," she whispered in a barely audible voice, "I am beyond ready you now. Any time you feel is right, let me know…" He only smiled a seductive smile, his eyes seeing right into her soul, and he kissed her on her lips lightly… lingering.. gently kissing her…

    "I’m ready when you are, love.." He whispered to her.. "But… we didn’t finish our lesson did we?" he asked in a child-like tone. That’s what she enjoyed so much about him – his ever-present ability to shift tone and method. She closed her eyes and simply smiled… inside, only her soul shone through. He got up off of her and stripped down his jeans, his hands trembling. Rinda took her time carefully. She felt as if she were some sultry feline.. seducing her handsome male. And God did he make her feel gorgeous.

    She delicately and lovingly took off her jeans and stood naked before him – with only her underwear to guard against foreign intruders. He stood before her, with only his underwear on as well. Only now, he himself now flushed slightly with embarrassment, as there was something long and straight sticking out poking down his underwear; both knew exactly what it was and what it was used for.

    "You first?.. or me?" He asked with a red face.

    "Mmmm… you." She smiled, standing naked.

    He only hesitated for a moment more and then off-handedly pulled down his masking garments. He nearly doubled over with the giggles as he saw her eyes become entranced and her jaw drop. She began to giggle a bit too, but was still overwhelmed with marvel at this new thing.. She reached out to touch it.. and feel it. He squirmed crazily, blushing like mad.

    "Okay okay, I’ll take mine off now too." She said with a giggle and a blush. SHE, on the other hand, had tactics, whereas he had none. You see, where men have brute force, women have fine finesse – more tactile agility, never leaving a good job undone. His eyes glazed over as he stared into something that he had never been close to before.. or at least as close as this. Her love… That sacred place of a woman. VERY moist from her own arousal. His hand trembling reached out to touch the heart of her womanhood.. She gasped as the feeling over another finger upon the lips of her temple. Unable to stand it any longer, she reached down with her arms, and tenderly brought his face to hers to kiss him on his lips… This was a different kiss though.. a kiss without lust or desire.. This was not a brutal kiss. This was a kiss of pure, unadulterated love. This was her core essence she was expressing. She was all feminine beauty and grace.. she was the purring tigress.. Ready for love, and ready for the dance.

    And as with circular motion, so did the tiger within him respond. His arms wrapped completely around her body as he kissed her back with his soul. He was the masculine image of herself, shining forth – outreaching back into her body and soul. And she totally encompassed him as the two lovers locked themselves in a passionate embrace that no one could even possibly break.

    He then felt her body beginning to rock against him, and he only giggled as he pulled his face and his arms away. The game of seduction had only just begun!

    He went to turn on a low-lighted lamp on the other end of the room and turned off the lights. As he was doing this, she instinctively took to the bed first, and followed his every move with a playful, yet sexy eye. She felt as though she were a child once again. He followed his instincts as well, joined her on what was now going to be a very sacred and holy bed. A bed that both would remember for the rest of their lives. He let his tool down below her nest, with only the top of his member pressing up against her moist opening. It was all extremely sexy for her, and she became awash with a flood of lust and desire. They proceeded to kiss some more… feeling eachothers’ bodies.. stroking and caressing their flesh.. the beautiful flesh.. Moist kisses softly meeting and lingering between their bodies. Pulsing between them… she moaned underneath of his heavy body. They were finally making love… really making love for the first time.

    She then looked into his lovely face.. her eyes partly open. "Now…" was all she whispered… he slowly nodded in complete compliance and whispered in return, "Now…"

    He reached down and lifted his body up enough to make the entrance into her tunnel. Her body melted under the touch of that impossible love thing of his. Her slender arms then slowly and lovingly reached up to enwrap him. And as he let down all guard, totally submitting to his entire soul, he let himself drift down into her body.
 

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And for the first time… in that life time… those two precious souls brought the entire of heaven and it’s heavenly bodies and bliss down to earth in a unified connection of mind, body and spirit. This…. was indeed… Love….
 

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    Their bliss was shared throughout all of eternity! Time and space refused to exist! The eternal moment that exists unchained by the limits of the physical dimension. Together the two lovers shared a moment in which all was nothing and nothing was all, and that is all that there is and nothing beyond infinity but the all-that-is. And heaven looked down to still away all of the earth, all of the drama, all of the time, all of the space, to make room… for the explosion of two souls into one complete, unobstructive, and infinite Godhead. The mating of the Masculine and the Feminine. And the light that was brought forth did not go unnoticed… and the light was good.

    Tears flowed down their faces.. kissing eachother with so much love now! This connection they had made had been far, far beyond ANYTHING they had ever known! And his body proceeded to pump in and out of hers… They were as one.. knew eachother as one.. and moved as one. They reached maximum orgasm as one, and the layed together within eachother… breathing and beating…. ..and pulsing as one.

    Tears of joy continued their silent outpour. The heavens were raining, and there was nothing but the refracted light of rainbows everywhere. Laying together… their heads on their shoulders. Warm love flowing all throughout their bodies as if they were encased in a skin of the finest silk.

    The night continued on… and though they played in many ways and forms, they never did quite reach that original prime state of ALL-hood. God how they loved it though! It was more than just children playing with a new toy. It was souls playing with a new found experience. The experience of their lifetime.
 

    I would like to conclude this story with a dearest Happy Birthday to my beautiful Rinda Lynn who just turned 33 on this day of February 1, 1999. Perhaps someday we may exchange such an experience, who knows? But also, as the author of this piece, I strongly beseech you not to waste your first time having sex. Sex can be anything you want it to be; it can be casual, playful, egotistical, mystical, anything… just don’t waste your first time… Make it sacred. Make it holy. For I truly tell you, you will never ever forget it. ;-) God Bless and always be with thee.