7:30 a.m................

"Hey Charissa," Mary said, shaking me but not so harsh.

"What." I said with my eyes a little bit open.

"Come on, we have to go." Mary said. I stared at the clock and groaned.

"But it's 7:30 in the morning, I'm tired and sleepy." I said, starting to whine.

"Well, you can sleep in the house." Mary said, trying to drag me out the couch.

"Well, wake me up when we get there." I said, staying and lying down in the couch.

"We're already here" Mary said.

I groaned and got up and went to the bathroom to fix my hair. I didn't bring a brush so I just brushed my fingers through my hair. Then I got out and I went to walk in my house very sleepy. When I walked in, JC, Justin, Lance, Mary, Joey, and Chris were in the the living room sitting down on the couch and talking. Joey called me over to sit down and talk. So I sat down on the same couch that Justin was sitting in, but there was this big space between us, and talked to them.

Then finally he stood up and said, "Charissa, can we talk." I stared at him and stood up and I walked to the kitchen and he followed. I sat down and he sat down too. We stared at each other.

Then he said, "Ummm, we have to talk."

"About what," I said.

"About last night, ummm, the kiss."

"Oh, well, Justin, it was a mistake, I never meant for that to happen,it was an accident, it didn't mean anything, okay." I said staring at him in which I knew that all of what I said was a lie and that I meant to say that I liked him, but it came out wrong. I stared at him and he looked away, hurt. I knew I hurt him when I said that. I felt bad for him. I had to tell him what I really felt."Justin-"

"I don't wanna hear it Charissa, that's how I feel too," Justin said.Then he continued, "It didn't mean anything, your just a friend to me, I don't really care anyways, it's not like I like you and I'm pissed off right now because you don't feel the same way." Justin said, without staring at me.

He stood up and walked away. I stood up and I grabbed his hand and he turned around. "What." He said.

"Justin, I didn't mean to hurt you." I said, staring at him and still holding his hand. But all he did was stare at the floor.

"Look, we have to go." Justin said starting to walk away."

Are you mad?" I said staring at him.

"WHY the hell will I be mad!" He shouted. Then continued, "I told you okay, it was nothing, it was just a very stupid thing that you and me did! That's it! So stop asking me if I'm mad because you know what Charissa, I'm not mad, and I don't really give a damn!" Justin screamed and left the room.

Part of me felt like I wanted to cry, burst out with tears, while another part wanted me to take back what I said, and theother part wanted me to run to him and kiss him and tell him how I feel about him. But all I did was tell him a big lie and look at the consequences that I have to put up through. I just ran upstairs to my room and cried.

30 minutes later...............

Knock! Knock! Knock!

I opened my eyes and I noticed, while I was crying, I must have drifted off to sleep. "Who is it?" I said still lying down in my bed rubbing my eyes.

"Who else lives here?" Mary said. "Now let me in."

I got out of bed and I looked in the mirror. I noticed that my eyes were red. I didn't want her to see that my eyes were red and then she'll know that I was crying, then she'll ask why I was crying. So I said, "Ummmm, I wanna sleep Mary,you can come in later." And I walked over to my bed and lied down.

"Oh, well, I just wanted to tell you that N SYNC left and that I'm going to go to the store." Mary said.

"Alright." I said and closed my eyes. I can hear Mary going downstairs and a couple minutes later, I heard the door shut. In the bus...............

"I'm soooooo stupid, why the hell did I say that." Justin said to himself while he was lying down on his bunk.

"Why? Whatcha do?" JC said, wondering why the guy was talking to himself.

Justin looked up at him and said, "Nothing."

JC lifted one eyebrow up and said, "There is something wrong, so tell me." Justinl ooked at him, then looked away."Come on Justin, there's something wrong. You can tell me, we've known each since the Mickey Mouse Club, we tell each other everything, sooo-"JC said sitting on Justin bed while Justin was lying down.

Jusin looked at JC and said, "I don't know what to say but, I'm so stupid." v"Just say it." JC said, looking all serious.

"I lied, I should of told her the truth, I should of told her what I really felt, I should of-never mind." Justin said sitting up.

"Hold up Justin, who's 'her'." JC said staring at him.

"Charissa." Justin said.

"Why? What did you say?" JC said.

"I said really mean things, I lied." Justin said.

"What mean things did you say?" JC said.

"Okay, remember when me and Charissa kissed that night, well, we went to the kitchen to talk about it today, and I wanted to tell her that I liked her and the kiss, but she said that it didn't mean anything to her, that it was just an accident. Then when she said that, I felt really hurt and mad. Then she called my name and I told her that I didn't want to hear it and I stood up and walked away. She went after me and she asked me if I was mad and I was really mad, but I didn't tell her, so I just yelled at her."

"Dang, I'm speechless, why didn't you tell her-" JC said but Justin cut him off.

"Because I didn't want to make me seem like a fool." Justin said very sad and heartbroken.

"But Justin, if you really like her, then you will tell her how much you care about her, then if she doesn't feel the same way, then it's her lose." JC said, trying to make

Justin feel a little better, but it wasn't working."But it hurts JC! It hurts! It really hurts inside!" Justin said to him, and a little tear came down from his eyes.

JC looked at him and said,"It's okay man, it's okay." And JC gave him a hug.

Then Justin said,"JC, can you leave me alone for a while."

JC looked at him and said,"Yeah sure, but if you need me-"

"Just call my name. I know." Justin said, finishing off the sentence for him.

JC stood up and looked at Justin then said, "You'll be alright.It's just puppy love." Then he left the room.

Is he sure it's puppy loveor it real love. Justin thought to himself. It can't be real love, I just met the girl and already I have really strong feelings for her. No, it's puppy love, it's nothing, if it really nothing, then why am I going crazy. Do I love her? I should of told her what I felt, but I didn't, I told her a lie, a big lie. She's just a girl, there are other girls out there for me, why care about her. Maybe because you love her. Love! It can't be love, or what if it is, what if it's love at first sight.