feb 3 1995

my brother and justin and three other guys, joey fantone, lance bass and chris kirkpatrick ,had just formed a group , thier name was nsync . jusitns mom lynn had thought of it , almost as long as i thought of her son . justin had moved on from me just as i had started moving on to him. It was hell to me to sit with the guys and see him and talk about girl friends and boy friends and that kinda stuff . but i had to i couldnt let him know ,it would wreck us and besides , i needed my best friend for my birthday wich was in a few weeks.

But while the guys were blowing up big and fast in europe i got an acting job in many movies and was fastly hollywoods hottest star. All the reporters said it was "fate" and that i had come as i gift from my parents to carry on our familys legend, but i was just having fun.

Feb 20 1995

"Three dayz kate!!! Three dayz til my little chick turns 15!!!! Oh i cant bare it any longer!" JC played with me while we were shopping at the mall, at the finish of his outburst he came over and huged me i front of the entire abercrombir & Fitch ."jc i love ya big bro but get the hell off of me !" he first looked shocked then remembered something he wanted to tell me "uh kate me and some of the guys were wondering when you and justin were gonna do sumptin abotu this little crush you two have on each other, i mean its cute and all but way not your style! your usually a go-n-get-em kind of gal, what happened?" I sat there dumbfound that JC had figured out i like Justin. "oh umm ahh , ........what are you talking about?"ya kate that was good act like an idiot!hes your brother he'll know somethings up!"Nope sorry uhhh uhhh i dont by it!you have that boy whipped and you cant even see it!!!" well we'lll just have to do something about that , come birthday time, Jc thought exitedly.