A few weeks later….

It was now July and I was soon going to have to get ready for college. Justin was still acting weird but he wasn’t as bad as before. He kissed me but we hadn’t slept together for about a month. That was weird because we used to about every night. Lance said he still didn’t know what was up. I just tried to brush it aside.

We were all backstage before the concert at Tampa, FL. I went to kiss Justin’s cheek and he pulled away saying, "Come on guys lets go out now!" I looked at Makala with sad eyes and she tried to tell me it was OK but I could feel a knot growing bigger and bigger in my stomach.

They ran of the stage when the concert was done. This time I whispered, "Nice job," in Justin’s ear. He turned around and looked at me then he started yelling, "Why don’t you get it, I DON’T LOVE YOU! I NEVER DID! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO GIVE YOU THE HINT IT IS OVER!! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!!"

I looked at him frightened with tears streaming down my cheeks. He had never yelled at me or any one else like that before. "Justin, I don’t know why I have stuck by your side when you have pushed me away so many times. Maybe I was blinded by my love for you or else I just hoped that you would pull me close as you have so many times before. Silly me for thinking such a thing. Silly me for wasting my breathe and kisses on lips that wanted nothing more than to not be touching mine,’ I turned to the rest of the guys and said, "You all have treated me so nice and I am glad I have gotten to know you so well. You are not only my friends but best friends. I hope that ‘N Sync only becomes better and more famous but I will not be here with you when that happens." With that I gave JC, Lance, Chris, Joey, and Makala a kiss on the cheek and left.

I got outside and called a taxi. It took me to the airport and I flew home to my family. I was crying when I got home to my house. My mother asked me if I was alright and I said that I couldn’t talk about it. For days I stayed in my room curled tightly in a ball on my bed crying. My mom came into my room several times to try to comfort me but every time she touched me I longed for Justin’s touch.

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Back with ‘N Sync…

"Justin, why the hell couldn’t you be nicer about it. She loves you so much and you can’t just do that to her. What the hell is wrong with you?’ Joey said trying to keep his anger controlled.

"Leave me the hell alone. You don’t even know," Justin replied.

"You are right I don’t know. I don’t know YOU anymore. You aren’t the same anymore. On stage you are the same but off you are a complete monster," Joey yelled back.

Justin left and went back to his room in the hotel. He laid in bed and went to sleep trying to forget the whole night. The next morning he got up to take a shower. Her shampoo is still in here, he thought. He ignored the tug he felt in his heart and hurried to get done. He wondered if the guys were up yet so he went searching the hotel. Chris, JC, Joey, and Lance were all in the lobby. Justin sat down

"Good Morning," Justin said.

The rest of the guys gave him a dirty look but said morning anyway. There was tension in the room and Justin didn’t like it so he left to go watch TV back in his room. If they don’t want me to be with them then I won’t.

The couple of concerts after that were complete hell. Justin was performing worse and worse. He tried to smile but he couldn’t. Some of the crowds were mad because they wanted to hear Andy sing. The group was starting to fall apart so JC went to talk to Justin one night.

"Hey, Justin, can I talk to you a minute? If you don’t mind I was wondering why you blew up at Andy in the first place? You don’t have to tell me but you have been actin’ even worse since she left," JC said.

"Well, it all started when Larissa Cheptah called me about a month ago. She was my first love back in Tennessee and she would never go out with me. She called me and said that she wanted to go out on a date with me. I told her OK since I thought she was my one real true love. I didn’t tell Andy anything about it and one morning I went to breakfast with Larissa. It seemed to be going really well and I told her that I would call her. When I called her the next time she told me that she was busy for the next couple of weeks. I tried to forget about her and it almost worked but then she called me again."

"Is that why you started to kiss Andy back because you thought Larissa was gone?" JC asked.

"Yes, I thought I could get back where Andy and I were. Anyway, then she called me and said she wanted to see me again. I met with her at the movies and we watched Meet Joe Black. Well, after the movie I took her home and she kissed me. At first I was like oh no she can’t do that but then I decided I liked it. This all happened the night before the concert I blew up at Andy. I thought that breaking up with Andy would be fine and I got so frustrated with it that at that concert I screamed at Andy. Then, I started to go on more dates with Larissa but she just isn’t the same and I guess I am not either. Every time she would try to kiss me I wished it was Andy and not her. I screwed up the best thing that I have ever had."

"The whole time you did this behind all of our backs? You should have talked to me about it. Even if I wouldn’t have agreed with what you were doing I would have listened."

"I know that now man, but I love Andy so much and I am so sorry I hurt her. When she said those things back to me I only wanted to grab her and hold her tight so everything would be alright. What should I do? I can’t even perform on stage the same as before. I told Larissa the whole thing about how I love Andy and you know what her reply was? She said she only wanted me for the fame and money and then she left me standing there. I am such a dumbass JC. You gotta help me get her back. I love her more than life itself," by then Justin was crying hard.

JC tried to comfort Justin but he couldn’t so he left to explain the story to the rest of the guys. They had to come up with a way to get Andy and Justin back together. But, how could they do that……

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Back in Union City…..

I couldn’t even eat or sleep because Justin ripped my heart in two. I tried everything but nothing could make me feel better. My family thought I was upset because I got booed off the stage. So I finally explained the story and my dad was pissed. He was so mad that Justin could do that to me after how sweet he was when they all stayed here. I tried to explain that he doesn’t normally act the way he did when he yelled at me.

My college plans kind of kept my mind off of Justin but I still cried myself to sleep. One day my mom handed me the phone when I was looking over some classed at Florida University. She didn’t say who it was so I figured it was Makala checking up on me again. Makala called me every day since I left to check up on me.

"Hello," I said.

"Hi, Andy. How are you doing? I was wondering if you had a Nintendo?" Joey said trying to be serious.

"Yes, Joey we still have a Nintendo. I am doing a little better than I was a week ago when I was getting yelled at." I answered.

"You were supposed to laugh about the Nintendo thing. But anyway, have you gotten all your plans settled for college in the fall?"

"That’s what I am doing right now. I got to start putting things in boxes for when I move into my house in Orlando though. How is the rest of the gang doing?"

"JC and Makala are happy as you probably know, Chris, Lance, and I are just messin’ around in the hotels trying to get in as much trouble as possible. Justin is well moopin’ around lately. Actually we are starting to fall apart. Justin won’t even smile on stage anymore. But we are OK. I mean we are stickin’ with it."

"Oh, well I still hear your music on the radio I just wish I could be there having fun with you, Lance, JC, Chris, and Makala. I’ll probably come to a concert soon if I can. It depends on how I am, you know, feeling?"

"Yea, I understand. That would be really cool if you would come. But I gotta go so I will talk to you later, OK?"

"OK, Hey Joey, has Justin asked about me?"

"He asked Makala if you got home safe. Talk to you later. Bye."

"Bye Joey," I hung up the phone and familiar tears started streaming down my cheeks again.

I brushed my tears aside trying to continue my search at classes. It can’t be this bad forever it will get better. It has to get somewhat better. Everything I told myself seemed good but it never felt like the pain would end. I glanced over a class in vocal lessons. I should be on the stage singing no matter if my ex-boyfriend is part of the group I open for.

I couldn’t help but be angry at the fact that I couldn’t sing anymore because of Justin. I mean he was the one that helped me get over my fear of performing live. How could he then just take that all away? ???

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With ‘N Sync…..

"Justin I just called her and she sounded somewhat better but she didn’t have that spunk in her voice that she always has. You have got to do something. If you love her tell her, she needs to hear that.," Joey informed Justin.

"I know but I don’t know what to say. Sorry I am such an asshole and that I screamed at you and embarrassed you. Also that I happened to lie to you about seeing someone else. Is that what you want me to say?" Justin asked looking confused.

"Well it is the truth but you better come up with something better than that. Just express what you are feeling deep inside."

Justin got up and walked to his room. Everything he saw had reminded him of Andy. He hated taking a shower because his mind always ended up thinking of the many times him and Andy showered together. Then it hit him. Thai is what I have to do. I got to go tell the others. He ran out of his room and found the other guys. He was actually smiling which was almost a new thing for him.

"Guys, I just came up with a great idea. Come on let me tell you. OK first we will have to set this up so it is perfect then………."

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A week later at Andy’s house……

I woke up early to go running, I was trying to clear my head. I hadn’t heard from Makala or any of ‘N Sync so I was worried. Also, I had read a newspaper tabloid that said that Justin hasn’t been performing onstage very well. Inside was a picture and he looked so sad, so put those things all together and that is why I was trying to clear my head.

I got back took a shower and dried my hair. I realized I forgot my robe in my room and I thought of the time I asked Justin to get my robe for me. I shook my head at the idea and ran to my room. The rest of the day I watched TV and read the new book I recently bought. At 3:30 my mom came home and told me I had to come with her. I pulled on some shorts and a tank top.

My mom took me to Cracker Barrel and then we went to the mall for a while. My mom got some new shoes and then she looked at her watch and said that we had to go. When we got home it was dark outside. I thanked my mom for taking me out and said that it helped me a lot to get out.

Then, I grabbed a magazine to read on my bed. I was reading this really good article when I heard a really weird noise. What the hell was that? I better see what it is. I looked out the window but I couldn’t see anything. Suddenly, there was a click and these lights, they looked like spotlights, flicked on outside. I looked out the window and saw a figure sitting on a stool. I couldn’t make out who was sitting on the stool because the lights weren’t directly on the person.

I heard some music surrounding me I saw four figures behind the person on the stool. The music sounds just like I Want You Back. Oh My God it is!!! Then, the lights flicked on the person on the stool and the people behind it. It was Justin and the rest of the guys. The guys in the back started doing the dance to the song and Justin stood off the stool and started singing:

You're all I ever wanted

You're all I ever needed, yeah

So tell me what you do now

Cause I want you back

It's hard to say I'm sorry

It's hard to make the things I did undone

A lesson I've learned too well, for sure

So don't hang up the phone now

I'm trying to figure out just what to do

I'm going crazy without you

You're all I ever wanted

You're all I ever needed, yeah

So tell me what to do now

When I want you back

Baby I remember

The way you used to look at me and say

Promises never last forever

I told you not to worry

I said that everything will be alright

I didn't know than that you were right

Then, the music from I Drive Myself Crazy came over the speakers. I walked outside onto the front lawn. Justin kept on singing:

Lying in your arms

So close together

Didn't know just what I had

Now I toss and turn

Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad

Where was my head

Where was my heart

Now I cry alone in the dark

I lay awake

I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy

Thinking of you

Made a mistake

When I let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool

I couldn't see it

Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love

Undying devotion

I confessed my need to be free

And now I'm left

With all this pain

Lonely got myself to blame

Why didn't I know it

(How much I loved you baby)

Why couldn't show it

(If I had only told you)

When I had the chance

Oh I had the chance

Drive myself crazy

Lying in your arms

So close together

Didn't know just what I had

Now I toss and turn

Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you

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Where was my head

Where was my heart

Now I cry alone in the dark

chorus

I lay awake

I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy

Thinking of you

Made a mistake

When I let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool

I couldn't see it

Just how good you were to me

You confessed your love

Undying devotion

I confessed my need to be free

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And now I'm left

With all this pain

I only got myself to blame

bridge

Why didn't I know it

(How much I loved you baby)

Why couldn't I show it

(If I had only told you)

When I had the chance

Oh I had the chance

Everything I own

You sheltered me from harm.

Kept me warm, kept me warm

You gave my life to me

Set me free, Set me free

The finest years I ever knew

were all the years I had with you

I would give anything I own,

Give up me life, my heart, my home.

I would give everything I own,

just to have you back again.

You taught me how to love,

What it's of, what it's of.

You never said too much,

but still you showed the way,

and I knew from watching you.

Nobody else could ever know

The part of me that can't let go.

I would give anything I own,

Give up me life, my heart, my home.

I would give everything I own

Just to have you back again.

Is there someone you know,

you're loving them so,

but taking them all for granted.

You may lose them one day,

someone takes them away,

and they don't hear the words you long to say

I would give anything I own,

Give up me life, my heart, my home.

I would give everything I own

Just to have you back again

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