I sat and waited for Justin to come back.

Checking my watch for the fifth times since I left them alone, it still said that they had only been together for ten minutes.

::::What could she possibly have to say to him that would take ten minutes and counting? What could they be talking about that's so important? Just forget about it. He'll be back before I know it. Just sit back and watch the movie.::::

When I had come back to find everybody watching Star Wars. Obliviously J.C. had won over that pick.

::::I can't get over-protective of what Justin does with his life. he needs his freedom. Even from his girl-friend sometimes. besides, he already told me, nothing is happening between him and Amy. Or any girl for that matter. Just forget about him and watch the movie. Justin? Justin who? Just watch the movie::::

After an hour into the movie, Sara and Lance had already fallen asleep.

Somebody yelled out, "I'm hungry." I laughed. " Sorry Joey, we don't have any food."

" I remember Justin putting some in his bag," J.C. said. " but i don't feel like going to get it."

" I'll get it," I offered. " I just need your key."

He reached in his pocket and pulled out his room key. " Here," he said without even looking up. Still engrossed in the movie.

" I'll be back."

shutting the door quietly behind me, trying not to disturb the movie, I went three rooms down to Justin's shared room. by his time I had forgotten about his absence. The movie helped even though I'm not even into Sci-fiction movies.

Sliding the key, I pushed opened the door. Leaving it open for some light, I felt my way on the wall for the light switch.

Finding it, I flipped it on.

What I saw in front of me was a total surprise. I was literally shocked. Unbelievable that this could have happened. I blinked a few times to make sure what I saw was for real. It was and I was so much dreading it.

Amy was all up over Justin. They were kissing. I don't know if he was kissing back or trying to push her away. It didn't look innocent to me though. I just stared at them in utter confusion. :::: Is this for real? Surely I'm dreaming. Justin wouldn't lie to me. Or would he? ::::

They were to caught up in each other to realize I was even there, which made me even more mad. I was too shocked to move. The tears already started to flow, wetting my cheeks.

Finally I spoke. " Why?" I yelled. Both looked up. Justin had a look of guilt. Amy's was rather different though. It was disgusting. Nothing but pure pleasure to her. " Why?" I said again. Seeming that I wasn't going to get an answer from either one of them I said, " You know what I don't even want to know." I turned and left, slamming the door behind me.

Going down the hall, I opened the door to our room. I slammed the door and threw the key card across the room. Lance and Sara had woken up from the noise. I heard footsteps running up to the door. I started down the hall to the bathroom to escape any confrontation. Justin walked in. It was too late to hide now. I turned and faced him. His eyes held a look of pleading forgiveness but I wasn't about to give in. All I felt at that moment was anger and betrayal.

Somebody turned off the TV for this was more entertaining. ( there's about to be a show of fireworks up in here!! )

" Jenny--" he started.

" Don't even." I cut him off. " How dare you. Why? Why did you do it? Was it all lie from the beginning? After all that has happened your doing this to me know? After all the fighting we went through? And you were cheating on me. Secretly going behind my back. You had no right." I yelled. I turned around. My back to him. " Why is this happening?" I whispered.

he came up and put his hand on my back.

I jerked around. " Don't touch me!"

" Jen, just let me--"

" No! I don't want to hear it." I pushed him." Why? Why her?" I pushed him up against the back door.

" Jen. Its not like that."

" Then what? What is it like? No, I seem to have gotten it perfectly clear. I caught you making out with my best friend!! What do you mean it's not like that!! You hurt me. You can't even imagine the pain I feel right now. You can't even imagine." I turned and headed to the bathroom.

" Jenny wait. Please."

Before going in, I faced him and said, " Leave me alone." I went into the bathroom and slammed the door. I collapsed on the floor in tears.

:::: Why me?::::

I cried until I thought I couldn't cry anymore. But once Justin's sweet face popped into my mind, tears sprung to my eyes and I cried even harder.

After awhile I was so drained, physically and emotionally, that I was so weak.

I turned the doorknob and crawled out. I couldn't stand up. My legs wouldn't be able to move. I headed towards the couch, hoping I would make it there. Passing the digital clock, it read 5:30 a.m. So early when it seemed has if I was in the bathroom for eternity.

Crawling up on the couch I tried my best to go to sleep. But I kept drifting back to Amy's look. She knew what she was doing. Probably a well thought out plan. To become our friends and then follow us to meet the stars. She was in love with Justin from the beginning. Just using us.

There was no way I could get to sleep. All my thoughts kept turning to Justin and what I should do. How can I face him? I'll burst out crying. I don't want to be fighting with him but he doesn't even know how much he hurt me.

I stressed over what I should do? To much stress I guess because I fell asleep. Reckless sleep but sleep none the less.