"Do you have any idea what a curse it is to look this good? Men look at me and all they see is this perfect body. They Dream of the pleasures they wish to share with me. They lust after me like I am some sort of Goddess. Like I am a trophy just waiting for someone to put their name on me.

I am Lancara Magic. The first memory I have is of the old lady dropping me off in Vampire-Tavern. I remember how Aurora found me shortly after and how her husband Black Magic talked her into adopting me.

I love my father very much and no matter how old I get I'll always be a daddys girl. I remember the first time I saw daddy, how he knelt down so we could be at eye level. I remember him reaching into his satchel and handing me a piece of jerky. He moved the hair out of my eyes and tucked it behind my ears. He smiled and said I reminded him of a beautiful Angel he once loved. His first love to be exact, one he called Moria. I've been daddys little angel ever since then.

I could never figure out why Aurora hated me so much.Why would she adopt me if she didn't want to be my mother? I learned later that she did it because daddy loved me so and she was trying her best to keep daddy in her life any way she could.

I remember the day daddy died. How momma said all of those horrible things about him. How momma tried to tell everyone who would listen that daddy was a bad man and how he done all of these horrible things. I was only 5 but I told her she was lying and to not say things about my daddy anymore. I'll never forget how momma slapped me around and told me I was nothing but a disease sent to kill off the Fs. I remember how she began to beat on me and then choke me. I remember how the darkness sucked me in and refused to let me go, how no one could hear my screams, how I could see the demons of the other worlds.

Then I remember my eyes opening up and daddy being in front of me. I remember saying daddy please help me, please daddy I love you don't leave me here. I remember him touching my face and saying,"Daddys here angel, and its time to come home."

I don't know what he did after that but I remember jumping into his arms and wrapping my arms around his neck and refusing to let go. I remember how I cried and told him of what momma had done. I remember how his eyes turned colors and he told me no one would ever hurt me again because he would kill anyone who tried. I remember seeing wetness on daddy's cheek as he carried me home. That was the first time I ever saw daddy walk some where, I've always known him to fly. He hummed and sang to me the whole way home.

For the longest time daddy let me stay with him till I felt I could move into the room next to his. Even then there were still times I would sneak in at night just to be close to him.

I was never far from daddys side when I was growing up after that. He taught me politics and frequently asked me what I would do in certain situations. I remember how he said I was his most sensible child and on my 18th birthday he named me to his Head of High Council.

While I was growing up daddy used to tell me of all of his adventures and of all the women he had encountered. He told me how women used him for the power they craved he could give them. I remember him saying how he was never sure if a woman loved him or if it was the idea of being queen they loved. I remember how he made me promise to not be like those women. He begged for me to be true to myself at all times and never let another use me for their own personal gain. He asked me to save myself for the one I wished to live my life with. He said I would know my true love when I met them.

It hurt me watching fathers relationships as I grew for he always looked so unhappy. The failed relationships that he told me would fail long before they did. Father never hides his emotions from me. I remember a night long ago that really hurt him. Father has 39 children and struggles to give them all the time he can. I have never doubted his love for me or any of my siblings. The night Dreams gave birth to Evander, Blackie,Chaos, Sidhe, and Black Magic Jr. was horrible I have never seen father so upset before. He had just come home and he was looking for Mystic when he saw me in his chambers looking for a book to read. He told me how all he ever asked of Dreams was to be there when she delivered. Daddy was so upset because he has never been able to see any of his children be born. He was always away during those times. He said Dreams chose for others to be present instead of him.

My father was right and men are no better then women are. I refuse to be someones trophy. I gave my heart to a man once, his name Was Mordred IV I am to skeptical to trust anyone but my father ever again. Mordred left me after asking me to marry him and getting me pregnant. I remember how daddy hunted for Mordred and was saddened he couldn't find him. In a way I am glad he didn't for my daddy is very over protective at times.

I am still by my fathers side in the DDM where I will always remain. He offered me my own Kingdom but I wish to stay by his side.

If you will excuse me daddy and his wife Silent are due home and I wish to greet them when they get here. Its nice to finally see daddy happy.

Last updated January 9, 2005

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