Author's Notes for

This was a self-challenge, when someone somewhere said, "Why aren't there any Bellatrix/Draco fics out there?" Well, if you write that, you're under certain canon constraints. Namely, that up until book five, she's solidly locked in Azkaban. So Draco doesn't know her. And then I began to think about Bellatrix, and her character, and the characteristics of the Blacks and the Malfoys. There's a lot of secrecy there, things not talked about. And perhaps Malfoy's animagus form is a ferret. Nosy things, ferrets. Into everything. Curious. Hate a locked door on principle. And then I considered the fact that some locked doors are made up of smiling faces and significant glances and changes of subject, and I began to see the theme of the story unfolding. I finished the thing with him saying, "I won't be back," and feeling that it wasn't done, but not knowing how. Discussion on IM with a friend suddenly left me remembering sleeping in a virtuous dorm bed with my pelvis still sore from vigorous sex with a boyfriend, and the thought of her haunting him. For all she's insane, she's alive. And it makes him realize where he is, and the alternatives. Hell of a way to rebel, isn't it? (grin) As always, I live for feedback.

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