+-i think i'm in love with you-+

January 25, 2001 [01-25-01]

Today isn't even worth writing about, however, I will. I woke up at 5 this morning from a nightmare about Jesse. I decided that I loved everyone in the world and that I cared about everyone. Then I fell back to sleep. I woke back up at 6. I decided that I was sick and I couldn't go to school. It was like a dream. I walked into the kitchen and told my mom I thought I was sick because my throat hurt and it was odd. She told me to go back to bed. Any other day she would have said, "No way. You're going to school." Why was today any different? It was an odd day. Then I went back to sleep until 8. I woke up, listened to Incubus, and sat around until my mom handed me the computer. Well, not literally, but you know what I mean. I came on and talked to Jordan and Xero. Jordan didn't have a whole hell of a lot to say, except for that he misses me. We talked about life in general. About weird shit, like old video games we used to play. Me and Xero didn't talk a whole lot, except for about how much life sucked. Then Jesse came online. I was totally relieved. We started talking and I found out that Jesse has been sick for a while. It was funny that he was sick, because in my dream, he was sick... and his temperature was 101. Guess what? Jesse was running a fever of 101 the other night. Considering me and Jordan's history together, I was surprised that we actually managed to go through today without touching each other. Touching bothers me more than it should. No guy has ever really touched me, so as soon as they get close to me, I sorta back away and I'm like, "What are you doing?" Hehehe. It's totally cool to watch them think they've done something wrong. For some reason I've been downloading girlie music lately. A few days ago it was Jewel, now suddenly I'm downloading Mandy Moore and Jessica Simpson. Some of their music really isn't all that bad. The lyrics are okay. The music is just annoyingly infectious after you've listened to it for a while. Last night I was watching WCW and I saw Daffney on, and I totally had to watch. She was being crazy as Hell last night. She kept screaming into this megaphone. "Get him Crowbar! Go crazy Crowbar! AAAHH! AAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!" It was cool as shit. I'm definitely gonna be a valet when I grow up. After all, it doesn't take a high school degree to yell into a megaphone. Anyway, back to present day. I played Super Nintendo after I got done talking to my friends on ICQ. My friends are wonderful people, and I'll never belong to anyone but them. They just have to realize that they're the most wonderful people on Earth, first. I love you all! Jesus. I get freakier and freakier. It's cool! Someone should really do something with me. Like kidnap me and tie me up and never let me go again. Nah, that'd be too easy. Besides, being kidnapped is a paid vacation to a health spa. You don't eat, you're constantly on the move, you don't have to go to school... I wonder if one of my friends would kidnap me. Thelma and Louise! Or Louis! YEEAH! Why am I so hyper? Everything is shitty right now. Well, not EVERYTHING. Pretty damn close though. My dad was supposed to come home from work today. Glad he didn't catch me at home. He would have "tanned my hyde". I don't have anything to say right now... See you later.

"Twenty four hours to go, I wanna be sedated. Nothing to do, nowhere to go. I wanna be sedated. Just get me to an airport, put me on a plane. Hurry, hurry, hurry I can't control my fingers, I can't control my brain. Oh no oh no oh oh." -The Ramones.

"Boy I think that I'm in love with you, I've been doing silly things when it comes to you. Boy, I think that I'm in love with you. I've been telling all my friends how I feel for you." -Jessica Simpson.

"I'm missing you like candy!" -Mandy Moore.