Things have been pretty interesting lately. I won't swear by it, but I think I made a friend. Her name is Amanda and she's three months pregnant... but don't knock it 'til you've tried it, right? I spent most of Tuesday morning counseling her about what to do if the father of her baby left her. She's really sweet. I think she's been through a pretty tough time, considering that the father of her baby is a pretty "rough" guy, to say the least.. I think that it's actually pretty sad that a girl as sweet as her got stuck with some loser like him. Today she told me that he's leaving her for sure. I couldn't believe it. Even after he'd asked him to marry her and gotten her pregnant (not necessarily in that order). Anyway, things have just been really weird lately. Oh, and just for the record, if you ever want to tell if I'm lying about something, it's when I say, "fine". Like, "How are you?" "Fine." You know then that I'm lying through my teeth. I'm so tired. Not only that, but since the move we have no furniture, so we've been sitting on the floor. My computer is on an old coffee table I used to have in my room that's pretty low to the ground, so my shoulders are really taking it hard, too. I have some good news though! We might be going back to Kansas for Christmas. I don't want to make the car trip again though. Guh. Hopefully one of these nights my parents will actually give me permission to go out with Jesse, my good friend from Nashville whom is the greatest. Rawr. Anyway, that's all I really have to say for right now. Just some non-sensical babbling. But, just as a juicy tid-bit, my problems run much deeper than this.
"My mother says to get a job, but she don't like the one she's got. When masturbation's lost it's fun, you're fucking breaking. Bite my lip and close my eyes, take me away to paradise." -Green Day.
"You're getting closer to pushing me off life's little ledge, sooner or later you know I'll be dead because I'm a loser." -Three Doors Down.
"I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control.. I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul. I want you to notice when I'm not around. You're so fucking special. I wish I was special. But I'm a creep, yeah, I'm a weirdo... What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here." -Radiohead.
"I'm am all-bone, I am two-toned, red as a newborn, white as a corpse." -Eve 6.
"I take away my problems, but only in my dreams. He takes so much away from inside you, it makes no sense you know he can't guide you. He's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong." -Kittie.