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November 11, 2000 [11-11-00]

I'm exhausted, but very relaxed. I probably can't hold my eyes open any longer, but I'm going to try. Today has been a sort of off day. I woke up at about 7:30 this morning, which is really early for me on the weekends. My parents had decided to go to Nashville today and go furniture shopping, and I said, "Alright, great. We can go see Jesse." Then, suddenly they decided they didn't want to go anymore. Then my mom whined a little, and we decided we wanted to go again. So, I threw one of my favorite outfits into the washer and jumped in the tub really quickly. I took my bath and pulled my short hair up into a bun very neatly, put on my semi-wet jeans, and dry tanktop, socks and boots, applied my make up, and was ready to go. I think I looked pretty good for a fat, smelly chick, you know. So, we left for Lebanon first. We walked through the malls there. I didn't get to pick anything out, but I think I know what I might be getting Adam for Christmas. My mom bought three dark blue, soft fluffy towels, and three black soft, fluffy towels. She also picked me up some of those gel-like bath sphere things I like so much. Then we ate at Shoney's. I ordered chicken stir fry with an egg roll. I've never had anything so fat-free and delicious in my life. I even like sweet and sour sauce. I drank the rest of my Dr. Pepper, and then we left and headed over to Nashville. We really didn't do anything in Nashville except drive around and look at the Grand Ole Opry. Then we headed back into Lebanon, where we went into the Super Wal-Mart. We roamed around the store and I bought some fortune cookies and Honey Lemon Ginseng Green Tea. Then, we decided to leave and when we got out into the car, I opened the fortune cookies for me and my little brother. I handed a cookie to him, and grabbed for myself, then put the rest away from dinner. After cracking my brothers cookie open and reading his fortune (which was, "START RESPECTING YOURSELF AND OTHERS WILL RESPECT YOU."), I opened my cookie and took a long hard stare at my fortune. "YOU ARE THE GUIDING STAR IN HIS EXISTANCE."

"Down to the Earth I fell with dripping wings, and heavy things that won't fly. And the sky might catch on fire, and burn the axis of the world that's why I prefer a sunless sky... to the glittering and stinging in my eyes. I feel so light... this is all how I wanna feel tonight. I feel so light... tonight and the rest of my life." -Nina Gordon.

"You don't see me at all." -A Perfect Circle.

"Girl don't come... if it's all been said and done don't hang around." -Garbage.

"She's not the kind of girl who likes to tell the world about the way she feels about herself. She's taking all her time in making up her mind... she doesn't want to fight against the tide. And lately, never trust anyone. I said, never trust anyone. The trick is to keep breathing." -Garbage.