Okay, I think I need to fill you in. Thursday was a pretty good day. Especially last hour with the boy in my English class. His name is Josh. We had to go to the library that hour, and me and Josh fell into me as he was trying to pull a chair out from a table. Here comes the embarassing part: I accidentally grabbed his lower back and was sorta cradling him as I caught him... he and I both apologized profusely and he offered me the chair and I walked off... because, that's how I sheepish I am. Josh came over and sat at the table I was at. It was totally incredulous. Then when I came back to our table later, Josh was sitting in my chair. So I sat down next to him. He made me laugh my ass royally the whole time we were in the library, and when we got outside, the teacher told us that we would stand there all day if we didn't shut up. And Josh said, "Fine by me." What was THAT supposed to mean? Sigh. The world may never know. Friday I skipped school and went to Lebanon and the Hermitage with my mom. We went shopping at the Mall, and then we went to Super Wal-Mart. Real fun. I snuck on the WWW at about 9 that night, and me and Adam stayed up with each other until nearly one o'clock in the morning, just talking and holding each other. It was the best night of my life. It made me feel really close to him. I had a lot of time to think about the future and I've decided that I want to grow old with Adam, and have his children, and never let him go. I love him more than I ever thought I could love anybody. It's almost overwhelming. Adam brings out the best in me, and some of the worst too. But that's why I love him. He puts me so full of raw emotions. I think maybe I'd oughta shut up now... this is getting older and older, and writing this is making me lose minutes of my life which I will never get back.
"If you die, you said, so do I, you said." -The Cure.
"Slamming a rhythm to the vision that's in my head, slamming a rhythm to the sight of you lying." -A Perfect Circle.