I know since we have been apart, it’s
Been really hard on you; the both of us.
I think about what you must think of
Me. You hate me for what I did.
The way I left you, without an explanation,
Without a clue. You didn’t understand what
Was happening.
I think about us together. We lived what felt like
Miles from each other, but our hearts were never closer.
I needed you closer to me; not just a phone dial
Away, 30 minutes to an hour away, but right here
In my arms. To feel your warm body against mine
Instead of imagining it when I’m talking to you
From the phone line.
Living so far away from you, my love just rips my
Heart to shreds. I want to spend so much time with
You, but we rarely have time to talk on the phone
With one another.
All those times when I said ‘I love you’, please try to
Believe me when I say that I meant every breath, every
Last word.
So Every 17th of every month, I remember you, who I
Was, what used to be when we were together. Hoping
One day when we meet again we could maybe start fresh,
To forget all the drama that has troubled us for so long.
I know that you will never forget what I have done to you
In the past, but I want you to know that I still love you even
Though your love for me has extinguished.
I sit and remember the first night that I asked you out.
You remember at the dance? Our first date, all these things
I remember.
Sometimes I wonder if you even give me a thought.
You probably don’t, but I understand and I don’t
Blame you for not thinking about the person that has
Done you wrong.
I think about all the time, to the point where I lose
Concentration in whatever I’m doing.
So maybe one day we could be friends again and start
Over, to forget all the drama that has troubled us in the
Past.
To become what was, as one, mind, body, and soul.
