Empty yogurt containers
And bottled water
Pathetic attempts
To acquire control
To regain the sanity
I threw away
So long ago
A garbage bag full
Of symbolic pain
Confusion
Fear
All pathetic attempts to tame
The anger
The hate
That burns inside
Eating away
At my very being
I made a decision today
To visit a doctor
A pathetic attempt
To preserve my health
To discover the destruction
I’ve hidden from
For so very long
And to maintain
That which has lived on
despite my twisted self-loathing
And devastation.
My mind calls them baby steps
These pathetic attempts at sanity
Reality scoffs.
After all,
It’s only trash.
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