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09/30/06 - hey, how have you been doing? long time no see, eh? well, i've been doing fairly well as of late. always with room for improvement, of course. i started teaching and have taken over the day to day management of the violinshop at the college of music. they gave me a title: visiting assistant professor in lieu of adjunct (what ever that means). it will look good on resumes in the future and as soon as i get off my lazy ass and get a faculty id, i will have library privileges again (with perks). i'm also playing in the pit orchestra for the school of theatre's production of "urinetown: the musical." fun show and good pay. still plugging away at the other two jobs (sound and recording) so i rarely have down time. oh, and i moved out of the ghetto, traded in drive by shootings for noisy upstairs neighbors. thats about it, nothing new on any other fronts. i miss you all, mostly.

06/29/06 - you thought i was going to skip this month, didnt you. we'll sorry pilgrim, no such luck. i'm going to make this short and sweet. i need your help. you see, i just got a new camera and i'd like to use it. no i bought it so as to take pictures of work in the shop, but thats only going to be intersting to me and hopefully some future employer. so your mission is as follows: tell me what to shoot; a subject or abstrat thought or something. and i will post what i get on face book.

05/14/06 - so yesterday i was recovering from a cold. what the fuck is a cold doing floating around now that its like 80°F out there? anyways, so roommates out of town and so i spend the day sprawled out on the couch wasting time till its time to work a recital. pop a pair of dayquil and head to opperman. on my schedule, i was the only one listed to work the shift (normally, we'd have four in there. recording, lighting, stage, and house) so i was not looking forward to work (like one is ever looking froward to work). pull in and find that coworker liz's car was in (kickass, i'm not flying solo). find her inside and were chatting when ernesto wanders in, things are looking up. no one else shows (other then the preformer and the 11 audence members). i fuck the recording up (another story) and i ask liz if she has time for a drink. we head on down to P² (pour paul's, get it? P*P=P². fuck you, i think its funny). i get some gin 'n tonics and doing well. yada yada yada i walk into my house and go from sober to sick in moments. best i can figure is that dayquil and gin dont mix. learn from my mistakes. (ps: 9am opera loading didnt suck as much as it could have)

05/09/06 - ok, so i wander around the internet and like to see what people like and what not. a very common trait is music. people say things like "i like all music" or "i pretty much consume music" and these are things i dont understand? are these people living in a world of only good music. hell, i see all genres as being mostly trite crap with a bit of cream mix in. one thing they pounded into me while getting that piece of paper was to be critical. very critical. hell, we had one seminar a week were 6 or so people would play and everyone else would take notes on how they did. then i took a job as a recording engineer. every recital at the college of music is recorded. i generally end up recording about 70-90 concerts a semester (whether theyre good or not). i figure about on out of 10 is enjoyable to me. its has gotten soo bad that i am critical of the artist i love. example: ben folds latest, the dvd in concert with WASO. three things were wrong with it. bad orchestra, bad orchestration, and bad recording production. i had to turn it off. man, i've become a pretentious bastard and its all because i have be over educated and exposed to music..."

04/06/06 - i kinda dont have time to do my taxes. i'm too busy trying to make money and keep my head about the finacial waters to do anything but head to a gig, leave that early to set up for the nest and so on. one of the gigs i got talked into recently is to play a show at lincoln high school. once upon a mattress. this is the third time i've played this show, why cant i end up replaying shows that dont suck? if it had been whorehouse of littleshop, i'd have jumped for the oppertunity. but this i tryed to farm out to other bassist. everyone else had conflicts and i didnt at the time (i later had to turn down two easy, better paying sound gigs). anyways, i really just wanted to update with something i overheard in the music library the other day "i dont care if youre sober, just come play in my recital."

04/01/06 - i have in the past few years come to the conclution that life is a waste. i dither around here, yet its all useless. a few nights ago, wasting some time on the internet, and i came across this. ideas bounce around in my head. things clicked. and now i will move. i'm selling everything. that which doesnt sell goes to goodwill and the proceeds will aswell (after i get to missouri). maybe someday i will find my meaning and will come back to this world youall live in. till then, take care.

03/20/06 - its not that i dont have emotions, i just dont like them. this past month has been about getting reacquainted with heart break. same old story as par for the course.why is it that disinterest is rewarded and heartfelt feelings are punished? i push this hypothesis out there not just as a self indulgent mode of self deprecation, i see examples all around and i even hand it out on occasion.
well, thats my emo moment for the month. hope you all enjoyed.
as for life out side my skull, busy. four basses in the shop at the moment (two opened, one waiting to be opened, and one to be picked up after being opened) and i have been getting calls to do freelance sound engineering. it seems i'm always working and never have any down time to relax and yet i still dont make enough money. to those readers still in school, STAY THERE AS LONG AS YOU CAN!

02/27/06 - in case any of you didnt get the memo, i live on a not so nice corner of a bad street in the worst neighborhood in a shitty town. to further illustrate this, i give you two recent examples:
First: the baptist church down the road put a new sign up for black history month (it is unknow if there be any correlation between it being black history month and said sign or if it is just a commonality) stating that one should "trade your piece for his peace"

yeah, fun times. and...

Second: last night around 12:25 (right around when cable television really start to suck)i hear some tires screech right out front. my inner curiosity had a battle with my intrinsic laziness over whether or not i should get up to see if anyone had wrapped theyre car around the telephone pole again. in the heat of the battle in my mind gun shots where exchanged from the same general direction that the prior noise came. armed with this new info, i chose not to investigate as to the source. rather i went in to the bathroom and sat low on the floor (my roommate, soon followed suit and we both had a book reading and staying alive party). about an hour later some cops cruse by and eventually knock on our door. i dont care for cops too much and i couldnt see how anything i could tell them could prove helpful to me, so we told them we were both asleep.

lovely times in tallahassee. on a lighter note, i just came back from doing a tour with the university singers. sound engineer. west virginia. no good bars. one bad hangover. kicked out of titty bar. 16 hour bus trip back with 60 some odd vocal majors. that about sums up that trip. same old stuff as for the rest of my life.

01/18/06 - there are few things that a few fingers of good scotch cant fix. some examples are loneliness, selflothing, and the feeling of being used. some of you might say " you brought it on yourself" and/or "i told you this would happen," and to that i would say " youre goddamn right, and i'd (or perchance, i'll) do it again you sycophant!" my life floats about in limbo and i am the first to acknowledge this. i'm just sitting in the corner with my eyes open for an escape. your buddy in chirst.
i finished writing that and thought that its kinda sour note. so i came back to give you guys a happy ending (and if it doesnt satisfy you, ask me for another happy ending next time you see me). there is a chance i will be on PBS again (and this time not answering phones or scholar's bullshit). antique road show is coming to tallahassee and the college of music will be sending me, a student violinist, and the violin i restored to sit at a booth. i will keep all the patrons of this site well informed for i am a publicity whore.

01/13/06 - wow, friday the 13th kinda snuck up on me (hope jaxson had a good first month), as did 2006. i think that this year will be the year of financial insecurity, or maybe the first year of financial insecurity. i worked out a rough buget last night and not even accounting for food, beer, and entertainment i fall short about $250 dollars a month, which is coincidentally the same amount of money that i owe ORNL federal credit union every month to pay back for that college thing.the slightly ironic thing is that the people that dont pay me enough to cover my debt are the people that caused it. yes, i am still working the three jobs at FSU. the sunny side of things is that it is spring and i can count on more work late in the semester that one can really handle, but that isnt going to help here in the month of january when nobody does recitals (10 fucking hours a week is all i can scrounge up this month).
seeing as it is a new year, i shall make my second annual state of the bar verdict. the best new (to me)liquor of 2005 is redbrest 12 year old irish whiskey . boy howdy it is tasty (if you like to sip scotch, this is even better). as for beer i found a dunkle weissbier that is malty and caramelie and on tap at leon pub. so those are my picks of 2005. enjoy.

12/10/05 - i never update, yada yada yada. thats done. now on to the main course. i will be making some aperences in the eastern tennessee area in the near future. the family is doing christmas in san fran this year so from the 20th till the 30th i will be out there (trying to talk them into cross country skiing in yosemite) but 17-19th and 30-8th-ish i will be in the ridge. i miss you people, so much must be made of this time. movies, magic wok, midnight sushi, and drinking. emails have been flying across cyberspace and it seems that some others will be in das ridge but sadly be missing my window of opertunity (daria, i will try to make it up there to the motherland and see you soon). thats all that needs to be said in this update. if you would like to know more, when you see me next, ask me about the bass i just bought.

10/10/05 - yeah yeah yeah. so i havent been updating. you know why? because there hasnt been shit going on in my life. every day is just about the same, wake up around 9, listen to npr, ride my bike to the violin shop, come home... now there are some variations here and there: play a little bass, hit up a bar, etc etc but every day is much as the last. freelance work is a pain in the ass, i currently have about $2000 in outstanding invoices (people that owe me money) and sooner or later bills will catch up with the redline. oh well, we will burn that bridge when we get there.
today was the first day it felt somewhat fallish on the ride to the shop in the morning. the brisk air made me feel nostalgic for summer in nova scotia or mornings on little castia (big fucking mountain in NM). then the afternoon came and i was reminded by the 92 degree wet dog weather that i am still stuck in florida. one of these days i will get out of here. wish me luck.

08/28/05 - another school year is about to begin, but not for me. that's right not only did i get to walk, but after much trouble, they sent me my two slips of lambskin (diplomas, that is). yes yes, i am a changed man. for a few months ago my reason for not going out to a bar was because "i got class in the morning" and now its more like "i got to sleep in tomorrow, i cant let drinking get in the way of that!"
much has happened in the past two months since i last posted, and most all of it not really worth writing about. ended a relationship for the first time and finally saw things for the other side of the equation (to all my ex's that have kicked me to the curb, sorry i was such a pain in the ass). i moved to the ghetto, as in the guy across the street slings rock and next to him lives a registered sex offender. the rent is really cheep. i also got a car, a piece of crap. but it too was cheep. a good thing, because that is my price range these days. i did go up to tennessee for the playhouse's musical. i got to play in the band for cabaret. sorry if i missed you, my days were spent cleaning out my room (my mother is going to turn it into an office)and my evenings were at the playhouse.
other then that, i got three jobs (sound engineer, recording engineer, and violin shop) chilling in tallahassee till i land a gig elsewhere...

06/05/05 - well tomorrow i go out to find my fortune. up to kalamazoo for a week of networking at the international society of double bassist convention. if your in kalamazoo, in or around, let me know. ps: color copys cost and assload, i was thinking of getting a bunch of extras of my portfolio for anyone interested but fuck that! youll have to settle for an electronic copy that may make its way up here. ciao.

5/26/05 - almost a month since my last post, how ever did you guys get along with out me? i've been busy as of late with that whole graduating thing then crashing for a week and a half till my new domicial was vacated. but that is over and i am here now. it still isnt home yet (ie: i havent set anything on fire [by accident or otherwise{yet}]) and i still dont have a bed. my thermarest is keeping me sane and were taking care of a pest problem, all and all it feels good to be in a some what realer world. i bought health insurance today (for the next 90 days that is). it kinda makes me feal like a grown up, maybe i'll even get one of those job things people keep talking about. i've been working on a friends bass too (upright with a soundpost crack), took the top of and whatnot, i'll post some of those pics soon. with all the pics of luthierie work i've done and a fist full of business cards, i head to kalamazoo next week. i hope to find some leads on apprentiships there and maybe even some cool job. it scares the shit out of me that this convention may be the make or brack point for me (i think i was saying the same thing three weeks ago about the lit paper i had to write). anyways i hope to see you soon as i can and stay in touch.

04/29/05 - well, i'm done. let us hope. and am in the pits and grinds of graduating and moving and what not. i may not be online in any fashion for a while. but expect my triumphal return with guarded anticipation, for i hope to have found a rare specter that is free time. ps: i got all the new benfolds today. rock out with your cock out!

04/27/05 - finals week and i should be packing, but first and interview from mike s.

1. If you could be a tree, what kind of tree would you be?

boy howdy youre asking the wrong person. where to begin? hardwood or softwood. gymnosperm or angiosperm. domestic or exotic. well, first of all i must tell you about what my last will and testament has to say about what is to happen to my earthly coils once they have been shed. i am to be cremated, mixed with potting soil, and a bosnian maple (Acer opalus) planted in me. i then wish to have this plant to be transplanted (once it has sucked up all of me it can) in a controlled forest in deutchland. one where the timber is cut just for stringed instruments so that some day, my matter will be a bass (or cello or viola).

domestic: sugar maple (Acer saccharum)
asia:east indian ebony (Diospyros inclusa)
south america: tie between purpleheart(Peltogyne spp.)/snakewood (Piratinera guianensis)
africa: padauk(Pterocarpus soyauxii)
austraila: sheoak (Allocasuarina fraseriana)
oceania: kauri (Agathis australis)
antartica: there are no fucking trees

2. Is there any reason I should not abhor Florida?

once i leave? no...

3. What practical precautions, if any, have you made to protect yourself against the coming of Zombie Jesus?

i had my brain removed (isnt that what christanity is all about, right?)

4. Do you do impersonations?

no, but there is this dude that works in the little convenience store around the corner that every time i head in there states that i look like some famous actor. and its different each time. once quintin, then a fear and loathing depp, i forget the rest. i stop going there for fear of him saying buscemi and i have to punch him in the face.

5. What's the deal with people not liking M. Night's 'The Village'?

because the trick was good the first time, tolerable the second, and the third is just not worth the arm and a leg price of popcorn.

04/07/05 - sorry, been jumping though hoops and crossing i's and dotting t's as of late. but i thought some of you guys might like this little dittie . hope you enjoy and i hope i survive...

03/27/05 - hello again, and happy easter. i hope you have all enjoy this day that jebus h. christ rose from the dead as a nerotic rabbit that has a fixation hidding colorful bird embryos for children. anyways, the point to this post is the high light a revelation i had earlier today as i napped/recorded a clarinet recital... ...most of the people that i associate with, we'll call them friends for the sake of this discution, have habbits and manorisms that are annoying as fuck (this was not and is not aimed at anyone, just people at large). and i was noticing how all these annoying querkes, low and behold, i have them too, all of them. funny thing is, i generally like myself, am i just fooling myself? just a thought, and you need not think that i am secretly hating you behind your back, i feel fine telling you to your face if you are to my disliking. again, happy easter.

03/22/05 - its at in the morning, what the hell am i doing up? well i'll tell you, i put of writing this little prospectus till 7am and now i'm done with that and killing time. you see, i want to post more often. i just done know what to write about. i could go on and on about what ever i'm doing in the shop but i dont want to drive away what little readership i have. so topics of interest should be emailed to me. speaking of the shop, i got some more parts for my EUB, and i got some time on the pianoshop's drill press this afternoon (i should take some pictures of that). anyways, adam is down here doing what ever it is he does for a living, so i must save him for himself at some point this week. so until next time, blow up your tvs, throw away your papers, eat alot of peaches, and try to find jesus on your own.

03/15/05 - blah, blah, blah, come out to the warehouse tomorrow night. my band (the puruvian fussion group) will be playing the open mic some time after 9pm (hopefully last so we can make a crack by thanking all the others for opening for us) other then that theres not much. spring break in the ridge has come and gone, one good idea came from it, more to come on that later (gambling is involved).

03/04/05 - heading to the ridge for the week. if youre around, you must call. anyways, days will be out at the lab making some much needed cash measuring trees and whatnot. but my evenings are free (hint hint)....

02/21/05 - oh, wow, i'm sorry you guys. its been over a month between post here for a while. first of i have some new business to take care of...
RIP H.S. thompson
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more proof for my hypothesis
ok, now that thats through, on to the random bull that is my post. 2005 has been similar enough to that of 2004 to be one in the same, though '05 shows some major potential. as an example, i got fitted for my cap and gown this past friday (dude, the college of music's tassels are PINK). so this get me thinking more and more of my future and what not. so the plan as it stands now is that i shall summer here in tallahassee, sorta. this is not taking into account the trip i have to take in june. what i am hoping is this: at the end of may i drive to the ridge, witness the graduation of my favorite step niece twice removed, then head to kalamazoo, MI for the ISB convention. there i plan to plaster all the floor with my resume, card, and portfolio (there could hopefully be a stop in ohio to greet a new one into this fold). then after whoring around the world of bass luthierie for a week head to chicago and stop in and see alex, then to the twin cities to see my brother eion. then another chance to tempt fate, drive to vermillion south dakota to see the national music museum and interview for the master in music program for musical instrument history (only one in the world). then head back to tallahassee, most likely via st louis and oak ridge (again to see cool people). i havent a clue how long this should take me or any dates of certainty other then ISB, but if you see a chance for me to stop somewhere on this path to see you, tell me about it for it is still an evolving plan.

01/16/05 - welcome to 2005, lets us hope that it is as fun as 2004 was yet a little more productive (yet, i dot want it to be quit as productive as it will be for john and andrea and nathaniel [congratulations]). this post could easily turn into a recap of all the drama that i was a party to in this year past (disintegration of long held friendships that later was to later rise again from the ashes of a night of drinking on baltimore ave. or champaign infused nights of oversharing) but i dont want to drink the amount it would take to get me through such a post. i will leave that topic with this bit of wisdom that i gleaned from this summer past. dont tell holly SHIT! unless you want an unpleasant nickname created from your sexual phobias. i would like to thank all those new friends of this year past (cara, graciela, joy, seven, erin [#7 i think i'm up to now], yessi, jeff, etc). some of you are new new and some are old new but you all are great. and in conclusion i shall wrap up 2004 with a review of new finds (for me).

burbon: fighting cock
vodka: hanger one
gin: citidelle
scotch:laphoaig
wine: riesling
beer: purple hase

thank you all, you readers of mine (you poor bored bastards). good luck to you all in this year of our lord 2000 and five.

12/13/04 - yes, another semester is finally done with and good ridends to it. back in TN till the 23rd-ish (westward for a weekish) and back for the important holiday. so this is here to let you all know that i am here and give me a call, i want to get out. uh lack of a computer of my own here and the fact that my father works at home means i will not be on AIM for the rest of the month nor will any post be likely on this page. all the more reason to call.

12/02/04 - nobody's been posting much as late. thanksgiving break was good. got to see most all (with a exception here and there). now on to more importent things. now some of you know my creedo: men are asshole and women are batshit crazy. now i could go on and on with case studies but i wont. what we must do is to strive to over come these handycaps and those that cant arent worth the shit they shat. there may even be some pro bono work this holiday season for contracts. most importently, i shall be coming home on the 12th or there abouts (some of you may be getting a little suprize before that). much fun shall be made, and most likely at my liver's expence. now i've got to crap out a couple of more pages before morning light kills me...

11/15/04 - hows tricks? things here are just about the same. i work nearly every day this time of the year (my contract is for 10 hours a week and guess how many i cover this week? 28, to bad i dont get overtime till 40). uh, news news news, well shit not much of this will mean anything to you guys (my readership of thre or so on a good day [that is to day that if i were to subjectively choose that days with the most readers are the good ones, but i dont, i judge them by the number of comments) but fuck all, this page is really here for me to laugh at in about a year or two when i look back apon what a looser i was (assuming i am to over come this aflicment). anyways, liz (live across from me freshmen year though we didnt know it even though we had two classes together and both dated in the percussion studio and later became coworkers and tried to start a band) has moved. sad, yes i know. we hit up pour pauls for drinks (well i was soo late that i only got in one white russin before last call cus i was doing a recording for portia's auditon). i'll miss that girl, she was one of the cool ones at work. anyways, i'm looking forward to the day of tryptophan. well actually more of the hanging out with the peeps. midnight sushi has been spoken for as has have the magic wok. what other things are in the works or should be in the works or might be in the works?

11/14/04 - R.I.P. O.D.B.

11/03/04 - oh wow, what a depressing fucking day. not just the kerry lost, but everything just compounding inside me. the kerry lost just pissed me off, i whore a black armband till i heard the concession speech, then i took it off because it was just another painful reminder (i think i spent all my luck for the year on the red sox).
that was just the start, i guess alot of it coming down off of such a good week last week. the red sox, a good ecology test, spending alot of time with a new friend. this week was that of sinking in on how some things just never work out for me. sinking in that school is such bull shit that i dont plan on using, EVER (why the fuck am i trying to finish for a pair of fucking placemats). that the people in this country of ours are soooo fucking AAAAARRRGGGG!
deep.... breaths... at one time, i was saying things about moving to canada as just another bit of funny. but now i've done some reading. here. there are a lot of trees up there, socialized health care and motreal (aside from all of that french gibberish they speak) has to be one of the coolest towns i have ever been in, oooo, and i shouldnt leave out wolfsville, nova scotia. there is this coffee shop there with cranberry scones that in and of them selves are worth expatreation....
do worry to much about my mental state, its just one of those things that comes and goes, as you may already know. on a positive spin, i looks like i will be in das ridge for the day of the bird. there are some people that i will HAVE to see (namely those that ran away and i havent seen in like, oh, a year and a half or so... [red heads are the devil]). laundry should be done, i promise to think about updating more often, but still no plans on the next step....

09/20/04 - man, ani was great. what a trip. first off on the way down i was educated on 16 years worth of her music in seslections from 18 albums (between callie and seven, they had all but one with them). so we were talking about her musical evolution, adding harmonies and orchestration. in her latest albums, she pretty much fired the band and did every thing herself. so we were talking about what we would expect and i said "i just hope she has a bassist." dan bern opened (look him up, hes good, the "balls the size of small dogs" guy, now with lots of political angst). its a shame he was an opener, i would have loved to see him for the whole night. he closed with a tune from his latest CD "my country II" called bush must be defeated. callie got the CD (sub titled "songs to beat bush by" [hehe]). then there was the intermission slide show filled with stats on voting and what not. i wandered around the audience (a fucking cocktail for $8, i was not going to the bar). full of, uh, colorful people and hair. it was weird being on the opposite side of the relative spectrum, i fell very conservative (yes i washed it away since then, icky). then the lights flashed and we found our sets. the stage lights were still low when i saw the fleeting image of a scroll bounce silhouetted against the cyclorama and i got very gittie. the lights came up and low and behold, there was ani WITH only one other musician accompanying her. an upright bassist. it was great, i envy that man. what a great gig, most of it just improv, what ever felt right that night. he had a pretty good tone (could use some tweaking, wonder if he needs a tech on the road). at this point i must say that i hate audiences, theyre performers, not a god damn jukebox so stop yelling when the rest of us paid to hear those on stage. fucking southerners (yes it tends to be a southern trait). so yeah, great concert. we crashed at seven's 'rents' place in winter haven (think sweetwater with orange trees everywhere) then came home sunday (sad, no chance to see a friend in st pete). then the drive home, yay. and that was my weekend (sans talking about my own concert on friday night, but you should have come to that one so its your own damn fault). a shout out to ken, i hear we're coworkers now, kickass. oh, and this is like post 108 since last i lost everything (and by "i" i mean those angelfuckers), i had ment to do something special for number 100 but ohwell, that will have to wait till 200 or something if it last.

09/16/04 - hello you faithful few readers. yes, i am still alive after yet another near miss by mr. hurricane. but fuck this one for coming so damn slow. yeah yeah, i got off today, but had only it had hit on wednesday morning as it was predicted a week ago, i could have gone to nashville to see my favorite ben. GOD DAMN IT. oh well. in trying to make up for it, i will head down to tampa to see ani difranco on Saturday. i have turning into callie's go to guy for concert companion. i may even get out alive if i can keep from saying "barefoot and pregnant" in the estrogen mosh pit. it should prove to be rather entertaining. hell, may even get to see the dali museum again (this would be the third time, though the second will remain the best).
funny thing happened to me in the bar on monday night. vance (now 21, hell yeah another added to the post USO free pizza), sean and some others were sitting with some beers in front of us (and in us) when a posse of girls in pink while one has a tiara. sean (with a bit of courage brought on by good friend amber Bock) asks one of them "whats with the pink?" apparently it was one with the tiara's 21st birfday and she was on the waltz (if you dont know, ask). she turns around and says "your name is k eiran" and i think to my self "oh shit, i havent a clue what this girl's name is". she goes on to say that we were in environmental field methods together and that when she was at the ESA convention this summer in portland, that she has seen me on some slides in a presentation (i didnt even know i was in those slides from fort benning). if only i had known her name maybe i could have gotten a number (this should give all that know me a big laugh). anyways, that boosted my ego like a big ass ecology pimp.
concert friday in ruby diamond. playing overtures to "the bartard bride" by smetana rimsky-korsakov's "sheherazade" with a bunch of arias with some new faculty tenor (verdi, donizetti and the like). come one come all and as usual, free for students and drinking shall be had after...

09/07/04 - so the storm came throgh, ruin and plans of having plans on labor day, fizzled, and cancelled classes today (tuesday). i fine, no ill effects from francis (except that my bar was closed last night those fuckers). yeah, dispite that my liver is still pissed at me for my actions this weekend.
on to another problem, my guestbook was fealing under apperciated so i when and jacked someone else's code (thanks cara). we'll see how this goes...

09/03/04 - so apparently my conservation bio class was canaled today unbenounsted to me. i guess a combo of a long weekend and the coming storm. classes are ok, they are classes as all others. i wish i had some none frivolous trite news to put up here. i put up shelves? the second from the top has become the liquor shelf. my goal being to fill it and have 81 inches of liquor in my collection before the semester is out. yeah frivolous.
so other big news, the makers of ATHF are doing a q&a next friday (unseen footage has been promised). hells yeah. at 7 and 9 then with cowboy bebop the movie at midnight. other highlights at the SLB are "saved" next wednesday "the dreamers" a week later "mean girls" the following friday.
thats all thats coming from here. good luck to all those involve in this storm.

08/25/04 - here and trying to make a go at it. things are just about the same here, classes seem good. still trying to get into conservation bio, the computer is stupid and keeps saying "for majors only" when it is a class that counts for ES majors too. i'm in three ES classes this semester, though they could all easily be confused for each other. biogeograph, ecology, and conservation bio (the last being the first two applied to the really world with a bit of econ and politics mix in for good fun measure). then i got public speaking and orchestra. that pretty much round out the school thing for the next three months.
tonight will be the first of the "k eiran's movie nights in lindsey recital hall" which should prove to be a fun time for all that attend. with any luck this should turn into a weekly or biweekly event. this even's screening will be john cleese's 1974 romance with a double bass. curtain at 11 or 12 or something.
emotionally i am in a weird place (no, a new weird place) that i really havent a clue were to take it. from this vantage point i see three paths. but i would have to say that any real choices are a ways off and i have other things to deal with in the very very near future (ie: audition to bomb this evening).
anyways, that is about enough prattle for before public speaking. please keep in touch...

08/18/04 - car is packed, leaving ass early tomorrow. those in tallahassee i will be there tomorrow afternoon... byyyyeeee

08/17/04 - so, most likely my last post from the summer, the last from living in the ridge, and the saddest. perhaps not the last part. leaving the ridge has always been emotionally neutral. its not the place i like so much, rather that it has (or has had) so many people that i enjoy spending time with and even a couple that i genuinely care for. the worst part about this summer is that i have meet and even remeet a number of great people that i feel i am being shortchanged in the breath of out time. and the over welling feeling is that this IS the last summer that any sorta gathering will happen (for those left i am sure you will replace me). i will miss that and will strive to keep in touch.
work ended for me, this past friday was spent cleaning house. be it the office i decorated/littered with soda containers or madly sorting though several years of samples and data that were only organised in my head. had my 4th goodbye meal with my mentor in as many years and speed on beathel valley for the last time (haha, probably not). left alot of leaf samples that will need to be ground and if caroline doesnt do then, i may even have some work over christmas(yes i will do nearly anything for money).
my bro has come down from the fridged north lands to visit. it means i see less of the locals but we have fun. today we headed up to the big south fork for some tubing on white water. it a spot handed down in the family from sibling to sibling off a long gravel road. it was kinda hard to find this time around due to some development up in the oneida area (the put in what passes for a sub devision in our way). the water was a little low but the route was still doable. this just made for some ass bruises and general whatnot. i got a nice one on my hip (if you ask nice maybe i'll let you see it, pay me a dollar and you can poke at it with a blunt stick). this outing will have to be introduced to others (by others, it must be those that are strong swimmers and a hair or two of common sense being that its several hours via water trail gravelroad and then some to the closest hospital and no cellphone coverage).
so i leave day after tomorrow and there is still packing to be done, so this will have to be your goodbye. i wont say stay safe or be good, i would never ask of you what i do not intend to do myself. i will say that you are welcome to come to tallahasse, you have a floor to crash on (hell, if you cook breakfast you can have my bed). taker easy, dude...

08/10/04 - so, a lovely outing this evening. dinner and a movie with two lovely young ladies and two equally lovely young men. and then there was me, too. so off to some texmex place for a beer and a burrito and passing the time gossiping about this and that. then we all headed off to the good ol' west town to see napoleon dynomite. in one word, lacking. i wouldnt say as others are that it was an entirely bad movie. rather that it had sooooo much potential yet fell short of cashing in. it had some moments (cow, protection,pinata...) but it also left me wanting so much more. there were supporting characters that i loved and i think that their stories were that which were missing (lafawndah, padro, and debbie). i see what the writers/director/actors were aiming for but i feel as though the movie died in them pushing napoleon's character at us too hard. two stars (but pedro gets my vote for best supporting actor).

08/09/04 - i got one of those fortune quizes as an email this morning, the ones that you fill in peoples names and numbers and what not. i thought i'd tell you guys about some of the results. step five of this quiz was "WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, &11" so i wrote it:
8. tonight we fly, the devine comady
9. come sweet death, bach
10. girl on lsd, tom petty
11. dido's lamnt, percell

these were just the ones that popped into my head, some i listen to quite recently others not in like two years. pure gut intuition. so then this quiz goes on to tell me about the numbers and people i put on the quiz like "THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7" (sorry sewell, it can never work out, the quiz told me so...) and so on. then it tells me what the songs mean.
7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3
8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7
9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND
10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE

so this is great, the song telling me about how i feel about life is a baroque suicide ballade, the song about my mind is the one bach wrote after his daughters death and he was thinking suicide. and sewells in love with a girl on lsd...

08/08/04 - so the weekend happened and now its over. all i do is sit here. its been beautiful weather as of late. been in the upper 70's and clear blue skies the like of which i havent seen since cimarron or flagstaff. friday i drove out to the trough fall displacement site (to double check work i did last year) and i was just sitting there wondering where in the world could i live so that it was like this year round. closest i could come up with was some were on the equator at a good elevation (let say northern peru or there abouts). time to start shopping for land to retire on.
well the shows over, i got a week left of work, then my brother comes in town for a few days, then to tally and classes. the summers over and i'm sad to see it go. i've had some good times, seen and hung with people that will be missed. and opened my mouth way too often. i will work on that last one.
i had the closest thing resembling a date in over a year (mmm, zebardia's). but i didnt even get to sit with them and it was cut short due to packing for their early morning departure. ah well, it filled my craving for companionship for a short time and for that i am dearly thankful.
so yeah, getting down to the wire and we neednt waste any time. i need to fit a lot of living in these next two weeks, so call and shit. and check out the new link page and sign the guestbook to bitch about it...

08/05/04 - it gets me real pissed off and makes me want to say... yeah, so so far today has sucked. got up all early and shit (2hours earlier then usual) and meant to come in to work to put up panels and shit (our trees are getting tall and sticking out of the chambers, pics later if you behave). couldnt find my badge, so i end up wasting time tearing up my room looking for it, dont and have to stop by the badge office to pick up a temp, another half hour wasted. end up out at the site 40 or so minutes late (my boss was only 15 minutes late, a new record for her). we then proceed to climb ladders and tie clear vinyl sheets on the top of the OTC in the rain (our safety training said nothing about rain or water so that means we can do it, right?). i liked it in the rain, you are only wet and miserable instead of normally in the sun when youre hot, wet (from sweat), and miserable. that goes on for like 4 hours or so, we did get done so that kicks ass. come back inside and it seems that i didnt plan on lunch, fuck, so i try to rally some troops for some magic wok-ing. no dice, others' sleep kept me from s. 'n s.c. so i get some arbys to go eat at home and shower. its one thing to drag yourself out of bed and go to work in the morning but it is even harder to drag yourself BACK to work when all you really want to do is get under the sheets with the paper back you have been neglecting and a fist full of AIM alerts set.
went to see white castle movie last night. good over all, moments of greatness. showed hope to be the next super troopers. but couldnt carry the momentum needed to be a tour 'd force, i would have to say it was more of a tour 'd asian amusement. a certain amount of inebriation could make this an infuckingcreadable movie. fun stuff. "just cus youre hung like a horse doesnt mean you have to do porn"
go and vote. fuck jane miller that bbb bitch...

08/02/04 - did you all miss me? no. i thought not. let us see, there were two sightings of interest in the past week. the first was on thursday night at the show (thank you joan 'n joy, for coming even if i ended up not being the main attraction [the band must get use to this]). none other then chelsea p atterson signing a god damn autograph. now i hold nothing against her saved for the bitter contempt that i hold for all dumb bitches that are wasting air. she said hey to me in the greenroom and i had the briefest of chats. there was something about working on a cruise ship to which all i could say is "gee, i'm sorry" and another thing about touring asia with a sesame street show. i mention that i hoped to get my union card and tour as a roadie instrument tech to which she was "huu?" (subtest:i've been in theater all my life, whats a union and this strange word "card"...). the other sighting was on sunday at the matinee, bundy. yes, it was him, still dipping corndogs and what not. fun times.
hollys 'rents were at the beach so you know what that means. your right. DRINKING! it was a glorious night. there was some crying, some yelling, some spilling, shirts taken off. and that was just the post party trip to perkins. our waitress succeeded to spill our water within 5 minutes of our arrival and then later anna's omelet and hashrounds became out centerpiece thanks to the very same waitress. i thought that this was great (helps that i was drunk and my bacon, pie, and fries were still on their respective plates). it was a great night except for the point of my alarm going off the next morning (it had been set from last weekend and when 1130 wasnt sooooooo early). i'm very disappointed with all that did not attend, you know who you are.

07/27/04 - on a much happier note, guess who i saw at sundays show. jim prodger. he was on a break from what ever tour hes working on. after a short little talk with him i desided to look into becoming an instrument tech on some tour or another. there was something else i was going to add but it has totally sublimated from my head. if it comes to me i will be sure to post it...

07/26/04 - howdy faithless web reader, it is i your cheerful author. hope everything is well in good in your'lls end and what not. personally i am ready for summer to be over. i need a break. i miss the people down in tally, its a damn shame that some wont be there when i get back. as with high school, so many that i will never see again in my life. its ok for the most parts, so many assholes cant be missed. but then there are the two or three that i try to keep in touch with. hell, same is true with these here webmonkeys. fucking marshall, chelsea, corey, soon to be jesse, etc etc supplimented by aurora, martin, emily, helan, and the rest von tallahassee. i guess i'm just not in a good place at the moment. i could use a drink, but i'm at work so i guess tree respiration will have to do rather then the good ol' ETOH.

07/21/04 - been very busy as of late (for fuck sake, when have i not been) and its getting tiring. let us see, most importantly, i went up to pittsburgh, pa to to see ben mother fucking folds! and guster and rufus Wainwright were there too and were alright. but ben was incredible, he rocked out with his cock out so to speak. though about and looked into recording the concert, but was too lazy to get shit together. this turned out to be a good thing because the venue (chevy amphitheater) had a sign up prohibiting recording devices (thanks for not posting this on your fucking website, you clearchannel assholes) and they were searching (ben is fine with taping, guster too has no problem. rufus is some kind of asshole and so fuck him i wouldnt tape him anyways). i had a hard enough time stashing my knife. so the line up that night was guster, ben, rufus respectfully (they switch the order around night to night on this tour). so during the guster set, they mention that ben had told them the story of how when he was at this venue last with bf5, he and some others had scaled the hill on the other side of the street (mount washington) and ended up in some ladies backyard. so they (guster) told the crowd that if ben start to tell this story that we should all booo out of the middle of nowhere. when the guster set was ending ben came out and sat in on the drums for a jam, then switched it up on bass then on keyboard, then finally ending up on the piano. just casually walking around and picking shit up and playing for a couple of phrases. then his set was going and it was fucking great. well crafted songs, excellent stage presence (jesus h. christ, sound like a comment sheet in string rep class). so then ben starts off on the mount washington story and low and behold the crowd erupts in boooing (it was a great crowd, responsive, energetic, and attentive). this takes ben for a throw but catches on seeing guster laughing it up just off stage. so he then starts into a song (spontaneous or prepared, i dont know, mostlikely a bit of both) called "this is for those that died... ...climbing mount motherfucker" and guster comes out and helps out. rufus steps out having just come from a nap for a single "mount motherfucker" which came out more as "mmm mmm mmm fucker!" this single song is what i have ben searching for on tape trader sites for the past week (got a copy ben's set in boston, but no ones posted pitts). later on in the set rufus came out (hehe, like he really needs to "come out" he wore a judy garland tshirt for fucks sake) and did a duet with ben on "careless whisppers" which was fucking amazing. the set was only an hour but it was, ran out of adjitives, amazing! rufus' set was good (not into his music too much see as i like girls and all) but i did really like his version of "hallelujah" and his song "cigarettes and chocolate milk."
after the show we walked the four miles back to the hotel (we had taken the hotels shuttle bus there and it had stopped running at 10pm, all of the others had left their cellphones in the room and we were just too apathetic to payphone a cab). so that way i got to see some of downtown and a bit of uptown too. i like the town, good architecture and lots of empty warehouses (and a good symphony so this may be a good spot for my bass shop/bar/loft idea). 8 hours up and down, we ended up driving two hours less then we spent there, but it was very worth it!
so the show ("bye bye birdie") has started for me. so bye bye social life for me. not as though i really have anything to say bye bye to, my attempts at getting a date going have all be thwarted by busy schedules. if you like young girls screaming, this should be the show for you, i'm looking into earplugs myself.

07/09/04 - in an oddity for mypage, i will now post a somewhat uplifting message not having to do with how politics, movies, bands, and double x chromasomes piss me off. i got a call from the doctor office in clinton that i go to (i had to stop seeing my pediatrition sooner or later and i could wait the 6 week it takes to get an apointment in the ridge) telling me that my lyme tincture was negetive for antibodies. this could mean one of three things: 1) i dont have lyme, 2) i have contrated it with in the last 6 to 8 weeks, in which case said test is useless (much as i am), or 3) i have had lyme for a while but my immune system it too fucking lazy to do any work and make antibodies. my bet is on number one with three in a close second. either way, i will be finishing the script he wrote me for the amoxicillian to air on the safe side. another happy note is that i have been ask and have accepted to play in the pit for "bye bye birdie." some have said that the show will suck, to them i say "honey, its being put up by the ORCPH..." it will give me a chance to put another show under my fingers and give me a leg up in future gigging. anymore news? no, not really. how come i come off as an ass all the time (holly, joy, snarks)? oh, and sign the guestbook.

06/06/04 - proof that the democratic party is centering itself down to appease the dumb fucking moderates that are to blame for the stagnation of american politics in the past century. if there were a third party that wasnt made up of FUCKING LOSERS (thank you nader for putting the forth reich into office), i would ditch the dnc. god damn it i hate this fucking culture of ours...

07/05/04 - yay, just got done comeoration the day some white dudes mailed a letter. shit i do that atleast one a month, and do i get a national holiday, no. fucking masons.
but i did get to go down to sewanee and see ms. punter (my bass prof. in tally) and edgar meyer (fucking greatest bassist to touch the stage). we drove down and brought edgar's mom (yes, theyre ridgers, though edgar now lives in nashville). watched a master class. i could ramble on about the pieses played but none of you guys would care, but i will say this: one of the kids brought up the minuet from bach cello suite no. 1, started playing and i had to hold back the laughter. not that it was bad or anything, but because i was thinking to myself "that poor fucking baster, dosent he know that edgar just put these out on an album?"
took punter and mrs. meyer out to dinner at my sister in law's sister in law's resterant and then went to that evenings concert. edgar play his double bass concerto (really damn good) and an oncore pickles (also really damn good, and hard to rind being that its from his stuff pre sony classical). then some trumpet player from the canadian brass played rhaposidy in blue.
as for the forth, eh what ever, i can not see why it is some people's favorite holiday. alittle bbq at gina's (no hurling this year, yay!) and a little pingpong at the fat kid's and i turned in early. ah well, at least i have today off...

07/01/04 - same old shit going on, working too early and staying up too late. not enought poker being played. since the last post i have seen two movies, first of which was Fahrenheit 911. when and saw it on opening night (got to do my part in braking box office records). it was packed, couldnt get in on the 750 show because it was sold out (good thing in general, but i would have liked to go drinking after the show) so we went to the 1010 show and it was one by they time we left the theater. the first half of the movie was the feel good move of the summer. all it was doing was making fun of bush (one of my favorite past times). then it turns on you, the second half would have been funny to me i my sick a twisted way if it hadnt be all fucking true. by the end all your nerves and emotions are raw and you say to yourself, "good god, we got to vote more."
so on a lighter note, i saw spiderman II last night. good movie, just not my taste. the first half of this flick is peter parker getting shit upon, boy looses girl, boy has no money, boy not doing well in school, all things i can relate to very easily (superpowers aside). to the annoience of my compatriots, my favorite part of the movie was the back ground music, back here, beethoven there, and they did my favorite schubert's the trout! this make me all gitty like a thei whore dressed up as a japeness school girl. the other high points were willim defoes apperence, the opening were the stoner from the chappel show say"hey, he just stole that dude's pizza" and the subplot girl next door (if she would just eat a little, shed be hot).
so the other thing i've been wasting my time with has been reading up on biodiesel. the concept fascinates me. collecting waste cooking oil from some local establishment, doing a little simple chemistry and bam, a fuel ready to pour in the tank of any diesel auto costing you around $0.60 to the gal. (not taking your cost in labor or the start up cost of equipment). i could totally see myself stopping by magic wok once a week to collect all the oil shes been annointing wontons with. but this plane will have to wait till i have a place of my own with a garage or shed or something. and in all the recipies online then never point out the extream hazards of some of the chemicals involved (lye mixed with methanl = sodium methoxide, it will burn your skin yes, but it kills your nerves so quickly that you dont feel pain. image spilling some on you and youd never notice till it was too late). anyways heres the best site i found on the topic here. had to let a little of that environmentalist show in me some time

06/20/04 - so the show ends in some hours, its sad, kinda, but it hass eat sooo much of my time (yeah i know it ate some other's time more, but i have a 9 to 5 so i dont sleep in till 3). i'm real disapointed to all of you who didnt come out and see the show, i was trying soo hard up there just for you. and another sad note, erin had gone for the summer. i'm sure shell have a great time and will educate us on sea turtles next time we meet, but god damn it, its hard to find good bar buddies. havent a clue when i'll see her next , christmas i guess. that is if i make it into town and she doesnt jet off to some place far south of here. other news, i'm tired of drama and works the same. i need to know whos left in town for the rest of the summer and what we're going to be up to (adam, climbing; mike, jamming; spo, roadtripping; everyone else, drinking)...

06/16/04 - sign the new guestbook or i will never speak to you again. well i never keep those types of promises anyways. so do it. any suggestions of what to do with the site are always welcome...

06/15/04 - so i've done a bit of housecleaning here at my cyber abode, its still as cluttered as ever and still nothing of note. the zonkboard was cool but underutilized and costs more then when i got it, so sooner or later the guestbook will reappear to be underutilized. i will be writing another "how well do you know me quiz" soon and have thought of putting on another game. violinist erin, you ever going to claim your prize form last summer's championship?

06/14/04 - well shit god damn on a pogo stick, its been an interesting two weeks since the last post. the first week of june was spent in columbus, GA at fort ben ning helping collect lots of data. got back to do the show ("best little whore house in texas" for those of you who suck so much as to not know what i'm up to, though you may be redeaming yourselves by reading this...). the show is fun, easy music but i wish we had a really drummer (read spo or john), as fucking annoying as percussionist are, by god its good to have good ones around. being back stage is like being a diabetic in a candy store though (theyre all married, minors or fucking crazy). so yeah, this weekend, after a week of rehursals till 12:30 we finally got to unwind (with copious amounts of help from CH3CH2OH [thank you adam for letting me try your 10 year old]). saterday had to be one of the most uniqe parties i have ever been too, the combo of rum and bungee run was increedable. two days later and i'm still sore. played both of the weekend shows a bit hung over (still did better then the drummer, thaqt aint saying much). then hit the driven last (sunday) night. the movies themselves blew (garfield and day after tomorrow) but with good company (including said hydrocarbon) i had a good time. i am dreading the sequels: next day after tomorrow and the day after next tomorrow. so, in summation: come see the show (you should have fun), damn it erin, what do you always get jobs out of the country, and lets go out and do something fun....

06/01/04 - dude, the wedding when off so well. john and andrea looked great, happy, cute, happy, good, happy. there was no drama, no scenes, and no catastrophies. i can only hope that if i ever get hitched (poor girl), that i am lucking enought to have a service that calm. the reception was good, seeing jacoby and senior and then seeing my preist brake it down on the dance floor. then the post party with the leftover liqior from the bachelor party, good god, there were some great pics (that i must get copies of, erin). it is still kinda weird thinking of my friends as married but that will change soon enought i guess. so today i leave for columbus, GA for about a week (work week that is), i will be there collecting samples and data on weed disterbence patterns at fort ben ning. it will be hot, buggy, long, hard work, but i get a per deium and a hotel room to myself. so that means i got a spare bed, so if any of you guys want to come and hang out, you are more then welcome to (encouraged may even be the right word). just call up the columbus la quinta (706 568-1740) and leave a message for me and i will call you back. i'll be back in the ridge at some point friday or saterday, fun fun fun...

05/19/04 - oh fucking shit on a stick! i just figured out the funniest fucking shit ever! so you know six degrees of kevin bacon, i think holly posted about how she was like 5 degrees away? i've got her fucking nailed to the wall! i'm only three degrees away. get this shit: i play in the score for "the general" for jeff beal who did the score for "pollock" staring ed harris who was in "apollo 13" with kevin bacon! "the genreal, "pollock," "apollo 13" god damn!
oh, last night was "night of the overshare II: arts and crafts" hehe, i want those pics...

05/15/04 - man, i've been meaning to update every day for the past week and a half, but every time i find myself in front of this machine, all i do is check my email, check the ebay, and see whos online. so first off, shouts out of congradulations to all those who got to walk these past two weeks, notibly alex, tiffany, syrah, rebekah, and erin (even though she had all ready graduated). you lucky bastards! two other major tidbits for news: i'll be bassin it up in the next production at the oak ridge community playhouse, "best little whorehouse in texas" (24 hours of lovin' looks as though it may kick my ass), and some one finally unblocked me. this means nothing to the rest of you, but fuck you, this paged is all about me and this meant alot to me. hit up the drive in this evening, with "mean girls" and "godsend" (gods end?). the former was very good (tina fay) and sorta made me miss all the meaningless drama that was high school, whereas the later sucked. it was formulaic and kinda trite with a bit of bad acting thrown in the mix. it had no redeaming qualities, dont was your time nor money. so tomorrow mike and i are going to jam and then we'll drag the/a crew out to sassy annes, hopefully to play something. all of you that are 21 need to come on out, fun time should be had by all. thats about all, work is the same as the past three summers, got my first tick on friday, fun fun...

04/28/04 - in the course of writing this damn english paper about shakespeare and how he shows his ideals of leadership in his plays i had to write the word rhodes and it sparked a memorey... "what ever happend to sarah rhodes?" and that sparked the question, "does she still want to jam some time?" and that lead to "who else wants to jam over the summer?" i know mikey does, i'm sure spo is if we ever cross paths. how bout the rest of you? i hope to play for the playhouse again and hit up sassy anne's for wednesday night blues jams and what not. all i want to know is whos coming with me?

04/26/04 - is everyone running into the "line overflow message that plagued holly?

04/21/04 - new pics for you to look at.look at how i have been spending my time this semester and what i hope to be doing on a larger scale (ie, basses) for the rest of my life...

04/20/04 - so i was told i should update and lord knows i dont really want to be writing about how the LP was the greatist invention of the 20th century. uh, what has happen in the past 8 days... oh yeah, my computer was nearly roylely fucked by some god damn worm, loaded 82 bogus files in every tiny ass folder on my machine. that all added up to several thousand files to deleate. the fucking worm when into my window office regusistry and fuck shit up. it took nearly 4 hours for dicking around and i still dont know if its intirely fixed. i just now that months down the, my ass will stumble across some residule effect and it going to bite may shiny golden ass. saw kill bill vol.2 last night, i will watch that movie over and over till all the little things seep into my pores (like the oak ridge coffee spit can...) such a pretty movie, the slight over exposure in the opening sequence. there was only one point that i didnt like (not that i didnt like it, rather that i didnt thing it live up to the reast of the movie). in that last chapter, bill has his superman mythology monologe. the entire thing is way tooooooo quintino. i mean this not as it is tooo much like some thing out of one of his movies, no, that it is as though in the script david carradine read a note "dude, read this think like it was a really bad impression of me on mad tv or snl." it is the only point in the flick where it drops a beat and, to me, it sticks out like kunta kinte at a merle haggard concert. i'll be back in the ridge in two weeks, prepair for my arrive. i must not be disappointed. no if i can just make it that long, any one out there like writing papers fopr money?

ps: happy 420, i doubt if i'll get to celebrate for like a couple of weeks, fucking school..

pss:new pics going up soonish (i work tonight, tomorrow, private recording tomorrow night, test thursday, and friday, paper due soon after, dont be suprized if they dont go up till the weekend)

04/12/04 - oh good sweet mersiful god, let this semester be over and done with (with me intaced). i am sooooooo busy, this week alone i have three concerts and plenty o' dress rehursals. and theres so much else going on. so yesterday was interesting. when to work a 2pm concert my 4 was canceled so i got to a bbq at yessi's. that was great, but then i hat to hop on my bike and get back to school for another concert. only to find out that its canceled. so that was a total of 5 miles on my bike awayfrom a good time to find out that i didnt need to be there. the hours will still go on my time card so thats $25 or so of compentsation but still its all about principal. on another note, i have two goals for this summer, get a motercycle licence and write about 20 minutes of stand up. stand up intreges me, and i want to try my hand at it. i have a theme, social lubricents... ask me some time or give suggestions.

04/06/04 - ok, what is it with younger women and me? of the last six sorta flirty encounters that i have had, four of them have been between the ages of 16 and 18. what the fuck. is there a sign on my forehead that i cant see? dont get me worng. that are all very cool people and i thought this before i ever learned they age. it is a shock to me to find that substantial difference in age (for fuck sake, i can remember 1988). is this wrong of me? is age really just a numbmer? how big of an age gap is ok? i knoow i dont want to go to jail. well, its off to dohninyi to work some damn trombone recital for me.

03/29/04 - so i took care of my bike, its now pimped out. teal tires and purple/black/white grips. by far the sexyist bike on campus and hopefully no more spills onto my face. so yeah, late weekend took a trip to new orleans to see joan baez and erin macquean. calie and her friend bobby when and hung around in the french quarter befor the show (note: there are a shit ton of one way streets in new orleans, and you really cant tell which ay to got till you see a pair of head lights staring you down...). the show was great and they had my new favorite beer, abita amber (which is allso on tap at barley's).

03/05/04 - dude, its been a hell of a week. let me start off with a week ago last night. so i'm riding my bike, and i need new tires like its nobodies business and i'm booking it home after my envionmental econ. test to grab a bit to eat before the dress rehursal that night. so i'm going down this hill and checking both way cuase i'm about to run a stop sign when bam! my front tire slips out from under me and i roll out. fortunetly, my face broke the fall (side note, did you know that if you get hit in the temple, you can get two black eye. man, its like a fucking blue light special!). so, yeah i stumble my ass home, clean the road rash on my arm and face, and book it to the dress. so i'm standing on the loading dock with my stand partner sean and i'm thinking to myself "gee, i feel kinda funny, prehaps i have a concussion" when none other then our guest conductor shows up. mister ten time grammy winner bobby mcfarrin. sean and i shake his hand and say "hello mr. mcfarrin, how do you do?" it was all fairly sureal. the next day, bobby has a Q 'n A in oppermann and i go to that between classes. it fucking kick some ass. we talked about the industry, views on music, what do you read, he did alittle singing, call some random people out of the audence to acompany him on pieces. after that, the had a lunch up in the mezzinie for him but the dean took him out to lunch. i was up in the sound booth doing a little work and bobby's sound guy was like "hey guys, help yourselfs to whats here" so i sat down with the sound guy, shot the shit and ate bobby mcfarrin's lunch. then we had the concert on saterday night, we played the overture to candide (bernstein is the only american composer worth shit[unless you consider kussivitsky american...]). we rocked that bitch. granted i only looked up for two down beats, it was more like chamber music with 90 some odd people on stage. so yeah, that was cool. then sean and i head out to this party that his bands playing at. the house was fucking incredable, i discribe it as a villa with a fucking groto in the courtyard. so the party takes a bit to fill up and in the mean time the band is doing a bit of jamming. sean has his baby bass there and his slab so martin and i do little fills on the electric upright. so some of the party goers help out with the vocals. one of whom is GC3, mr. george clinton the third, and this cat could freestyle. it was bad ass. on to sunday, aurora's recital, kick ass, but kinda difficult on my part. then te week blah blah blah, thursday night, i go see ken's production of hitchhikers guide to the galaxy at brothers (walk in and said, "hey thats a transvestite"). it fucking rock. you loosers who werent there, yeah the ones now avoiding eye contact, you know who you are. you suck and better make it out april 20th-ish for resturant at the end... i am so looking forward to that. the casting was fantabulious, girls playing guys and all, i though it rock that bitch. when to the party after, everyone was as cool in person as they were on stage. i cant say enought ho much it rocked. now i'm off to SEEC though the peeps that were to be there both ditched out (why should this suprize me, its the story of my life). fuck work, do the words "open bar" mean anything to you? then in das ridge till the 12th-ish. if your there you had better call... then back in tally round about saterday to submit myself to this torture they call school...

02/21/04 - first off, i'm sorry that i never updaye. its just that i'm always busy. unfortunetly its all work stuff and i have no time for myself and less for anyothers that i want to hang with (if there are any out there, by now i have forgotten what its like...). classes suck, save for the one with the hardest sounding name (econ. of nat. resorces, energy, and the enviroment. think davis and gangly leading a discution with tons of S vs. D graphs. mmm, guns and butter...) i really dig this class but it's always at the end (and sometimes the middle if i got to work that night) of a long day. um, the other day i took the belly off a violin for the first time (the top part mand of spruse, if that helps any of you). and i also reset a neck on a viola. lets just say that taking apart glued wooden joints is patients trying (taking the neck off the viola took the good part of three five hour days in the shop). i did my first professional recording on VD (valintines day, you see the irony?) for the Tallahassee Symphony Orchestra. $15 dollars an hour and i get to keep the rug, man. fuckin a. you og to love VDs that you spend wearing blacks all day. other news, next week i'll be playing a concert with seven time grammy winner bobby mcfarrin. i'm only on one piece but it should still be a pretty cool fucking experence. the concerts sold out, but i can get you into a dress rehursal if any of you morose motherfuckers are in town. my spring break is comeing up (march 5-13), first traveling to ATL to present a poster at the SEEC (see "poster" and "abstract" at the top of the left hand colume) then to the ridge monday thru friday. i hope to see all and do some hard core chillin. bass, alex, erin, rhys, spo, holly, daria, jesse, etc? are you going to be in town? any up for some sassy anne's? ah, thats about all i can ring from my brain at the moment. busy, tired, alot...

01/26/04 - damn, its like fucking christmas, alex AND erin posted. we're (that is the proverbial me , myself and i that is) are happy that erin is stateside and without some rare tropical flesh eating protozoian. good luck to here with that whole "i'm not in school right now, what the fuck to do..." and as for alex, he posed some good questions:

Who remembers their dreams?: ha, i havent remembered a dream since the third grade (that is other then daydreams, you know the ones you can kinda manipulate) it was a rather scary live action scooby doo sorta dream. scared me shitless at the tender age of 8. but none since, i really think i have a sleeping disorder (says the guy posting at 3am on a monday morning with a 9am class).

Who is scuba certified?: not as of yet, would love to fix that...

What are you guys doing for spring break?: i know i'm to see dr. bob DDS in the ridge some time in march, ask me closer to that...

Who all is graduating in May?: hahahahaha, though december of this year it may just happen...

been thinking alot about that whole what to do after graduating thing. it seems to me that i got four paths. 1). stick around tally working in the string shop 2). boston for the North Bennett Street School of Violinmaking 3). Univ. of SD for their MM in instrument history 4). get a job with the environmental studies thing and start paying off the credit union (this would most likely mean working at ORNL for a year or two...). they all have their ups and downs; opertunity cost, shity local, etc etc. any input would kick some ass. theres also the outside chance of finding an apprentiship in some shop, but that oppertunity would have to prsent its self seeing as i havent a clue how to make that happen on my own.

01/21/04 - first off, happy birthday holly. the big 22 is completly worthless aint it... and this shout out to alex: yes you are fucked up in the head, last i hear that engagement was off. uh, nothing else here. i had three things to do this long weekend, and not a one of them got done. maybe this is the reason it going to take more then 4 years to grad-gee-me-ate. had an interesting talk with the arab gas station owner across the streat. he was watching the democratic responces on al jazer (sp?) and he and i got into how dean should be the next president. it was fairly surreal to see the dumbass we got in office on the teeV with an arabic voice over...

01/19/04 - blah, blah blah, nothing is happening so i'm not updating, i really want to revamp this site, but as of yet i havent a clue what i want to do with it. total lack of insperation on all fronts, hopefully that will change tomorrow when my router is due in (power tool, not over glorified hub). yeah, in sumation, bored but lazy... i'm assume this is the case with everyone else seeing the lackluster posts as of late. i'll do it if you do it... holly and nick are now rooting for clark, i am for dean, any thoughts? direct some towards the zonkboard and or my AIM. bored, well at least i go to the bar tomorrow and i should mossey in to the piano shop to get some work done seeing as i can get some alone time in on the holiday, wish me luck.

01/13/04 - so yeah, i've now been to each of my classes at least once (all but piano restoration, but i'm just taking that one again to finish what i started last year). so yeah, take a look at mysemester if you like. i think i might have to solve that insomia thing i've been having a problem with.

oh, and alex you're in atlanta, you,re not aloud to bitch about winter. and you and i got very different veiws on the lady folk. yes, guys are stupid, but women are completely fucking crazy ( rebekah says its so...).

01/11/04 - blah blah blah, its a new fucking year and i promtly got sick. that was fun, yay. so that last week in the ridge was a complete waste time spent hugging the toilet. i'm sorry to all those i had wanted to see more of, but i doubt if you would have wanted any of what i had. on to school, i'm back here in this fucking drag of a town pushing the fucking pencile again. finally got my schedule done today, it's kinda interesting , but the hours suck. oh, yeah my birthday came and past too, thanks to all that remember and the (minda, holly, rebekah, daria, tiffany...) the rest of you can burn in hell for all i care. i went out to an improv show that night and got volenteered to go up on stage. this skit was me reading lines from an ibsen play and one of the troop was my daughter asking for the car. it worked out well, it turned out i was really the type of father that liked to have sex with my daughter's boyfriends. mmm.
11/28/03 - happy belated thankgiving to all, yesterday me and my folks cooked up a bird and all them fixins and now i have copious amounts of left overs. if any one is hungry for bird, you welcome to stop by. uh, i got some good news and some bad news, i will be heading back to la ridge on the 12th, but will be out on travel from the 24th till the evening of NYE (ie: i will miss out on happenings on NYEE). i hope you can figure which is the good and which is the bad. and on that, what is the word on NYE? all i care is that i am with the people that... to be continoued...

11/19/03 - so nyc.com has shot the shit out all the stuff that was in there (all the old emial i had horrided there and that nice simi complete address book) so heres the dealio, email me so i can add you to the new address book...

11/18/03 - ahhhhh! too much school too much work and not enought time, 40 odd pages to write before dec. 2nd. i cant wait till winter break. all i want to do is chill. heres a little something something for the music dork in us all what key signature are you?. bass has mentions camping, when where? put in sugestion up on the zonk board...

11/14/03 - finish with bandsawing and its looking good. unfortunetley, paduk wood is toxic and the dust mask aint worth shit when you got a beautiful beard as i do. so every time i make alot of dust i walk away with a sore throat (think smoke a case of unfiltered cloves in one sitting). ah, the sacrifices we make for the things we love. pics soon...

ps: it kicks ass that people are updating

11/07/03 - well gee golly damn, i am having a tuff time with my internet as of late. the last two were writen on the day that they are marked but were finilly posted well after. so the EUB is coming along, the next step is bandsawing the body and routing the neck and control cavities. those will be the last structural things to be done. all thats left after that is a little shaping, outfitting, and finish dressing. hopefully all be for christmas. anyways so last night i go out and hang with friends of a friend. we go see an improve show and then to party with the cast. all very cool. the problem is that over the course of the night, what with loud music in the car, the club, and the party, i never got some of the name (some of whichi would be very interested in learning). its not as though i cant go "hey ken, who was that we were with that time..." but its ver frustrating to be walking to class with a beer-ie feeling in the morning with "what the fuck was her name, agness, andji, i think it started with an A..." and for anyone who was wondering, yes, music history did suck, beer did not help baroque opera...

10/31/03 - its about damn time, i've been trying to post that last post for the past 4 days but the internet was down (yeah, fuck you FSU office of telecomunincations...). so i'm looking at 5 differnt alternitives to ORNL for summer employment this up in coming summer. the first 4 are trying to get internship in the interment collections of the met. museum of art, the boston museum of fine art, the smithsonion, and the library of congree. the 5th is in the keyboard restoration laboritory at colonial williamsburg. they are in the starting phase o setting up an exhibit of early keyboard intruments of the americas. so if i get a gig out in the world you all got to come and visit me (exspecially if your name starts with an A, an E, M, N, or H [etc...])...

10/27/03 - well at least the yankees lost, anyways, did you see home movies tonight. damn it it ait the best one i ever saw, holloween special. oh and i have a concert on the 31st, not that any of you losers will come. unculture slobs. you'll be missing a little brahm's a bit of beethoven followed with some britten. 2nd symphony, 2nd piano sonata, and school of scandal respectively. other then that stff here hasnt changed a bit, whos up for hitting the bar tomorrow (monday) night? pour paul's at about ten... oh, and the party this weekend, wow, its not every day you see two people get engaged. congradulation to devon and her boyfriend.

10/16/03 - yay red sox, one more win and we play florida for the world series (i needed an upbeat post here...) now i'm off to a methods of social science research midterm that i forgot about till 3 hours before hand, good thing i couldnt sleep...

10/15/03 - this would have been three years...

10/14/03 - man oh man, school blows, working blows, people blow. so what is the point? this weekend was uh, interestingly boring. we had a field trip with my environmental field methods class to a nature concervency site on the apalchacola bluffs (must a been some fucking south florida fuck toname this because the topograph didnt speak bluffs to me at all...). this field trip must have been in the spirt of troop 220 because it was cold and raining, not hard enough to call of the trip, but enought to make things uncomfortable. we called it a day at lunch even though we were slated to stay till 4ish. nobody complaned. the rest of the weekend was spent avoiding a paper by soing nothing at all. this paper due at 9am monday was finally started at 4am monday because i couldnt sleep. then, after the music history class, i sleeped the day away.
so its monday night and i'll give you my standard course of events for my mondays. 745pm-945pm university symphony rehursal, thought the times for this class varies alot depending on the liturature we're playing. 10pm head down to the strip starting with pour paul's for the free pizza and a pitcher with my stand partner. then to the irish pub for free pool and some more beer. then if its not too late and theres someone good playing we head to bullwinkels for live music $0.25 beer and $3 well pitchers (think nalgene of liqior). then its off to bed because i got methods of social science research at 8am on tuesdays...

09/26/03 - so yeah, life is the same as ever, but some stuff has happend in the past week or so that could stand to be written here. first off, my brother michael got married this past weekend. i when out there ass early on friday. meet up with eoin, larua, john, lois, and marie (brother, sister, brother in law, aunt and aunt respectfully) in the phenoix airport about 11am local time and we rented a pair o wheels and headded up to flagstaff. the rehursal dinner what a bunch of "i dont know who the fuck you are..." but the beer was good (it was at "the beaver street brewery") after that eoin, micheal, some of his friends from college, and i headed to micheals house for a little informal bachlor party, which intailed shots, some other stuff that i didnt think my brother still did, "who from college has been to jail in the decade since we graduated", and bitching about how phenoix sucks. then next morning eoin and i ran some errans i had to do. first was to get a rubbing of a geodetic bench mark for my environmental field methods class. we drove about 15 miles east of town to the middle of nowhere (fortunetly the truckstop at the exit had crayons) and we hiked up this small hill (1300 feet up at 7000 feet when i'm use to sea level, and jesus h christ i'm out of shape). so i was the only one in the class to turn in a rubbing outside of tallahassee (and the only one above 150 feet in elevation). after that i had to stop at target for shoe polish (volcanic cinders and the shoes you are wearing to a wedding later that day dont mix well). and the to bards and noble to get my brother in laws christmas gift from last year. over a year ago i bought my sis a puzzle at the dali museam in st pete, then never sent it off. so i gave both of them there gifts only 9 months late... so then there were pics, fun fun. but the place, the clayton house, oh my fucking god. the theme for that day was "so when can i move in to this place?" it was the house of the museam of northern arizona's founder. stone, adobe, and log mission ranch style house. with lots of cool tiffiny lamps and vintage furniture. an game room with pool and chess was hidden in a nook upstairs. lots of bedrooms and fireplaces. this place was sooooo cool (pics to come). yeah so the ceramoney was outside, beautiful weather and a view of the san francisco peaks as a back drop. i was the animal handler as there ring bearer was my bothers dog, courage, whom he brought home on the day that he meet beth. courage was the star of the event. yeah. good cerimoney, good reception, great bar. towards the end of the evening after dinner and all the toasts, i think the bar tender wanted to see funny shit and the drinks got stronger (ie white russin = 2/3rds vodka, 1/3 kaluha, and a teaspon of milk in a big glass, magretia = taquila with color...) then the next morning we headed back to the clayton house for a breakfast. eoin and i had to head on out after a bit of bacon to catch our flights out of phenoix. yay for small fucking sets for too many damn hours. i get back to tally at 11pm sunday only to be forgotten about by my ride (thats why i ask a dependable person first, but she shot me down as usual).the rest of te week was on par of the course. i may have picked up two gigs as a webmaster, now thats some funny fucking shit, more on that later. well i think i'm going to hunt down my piano tech teacher seeing as my latest ebay chunk of wood came in and we need to talk resawing and bookmatching.

09/17/03 - well, god damn, it's like christmas. not one but TWO new posts on pages i at one time read every day. not that i have much room to speak, i would like to post more, but god damn it if my life and the same ol' shit every damn day. this weekend looks to be a nice break in rotine. friday ass early i hop a plane zu arizona where mine bother (michael, the older one) will be getting married (two down two to go...ha). funny thing is that she (beth, his bride to be) hails from farreget and here mom works in ESD at ORNL (i hope this make sense to some of you). mosure??? i think thats how her maiden name is spelled. so yeah, i will be in flagstaff this weekend. in my environmental field methods class, we're suppost to get a rubbing of a geodetic benchmark (he assuming we'll us one of the 4 arond campus or one around town), wont he shit his pants when he gets one from northern arizona. um, i thinks thats about it. oh, the cable when out, funny how that happens when you dont pay the bill. fortunetly it didnt happen till after the last episodes of cowboy bebop and trigun (both, rather uneventful). everthing else is the same, i wish some of that would change, and i will keep on playing it all by ear...

09/09/03 - well fuck, i'm sitting here at work (opermann music hall) pushing play on a tape deck for a bunch of dancers. its cold as the way some people are treating me up here and the internet has gotten boring again (no new emails and finished with ebay). this work machine cant do AIM (they have it blocked, i could get around that but it would be too much trouble) so i am redused to doing what i always do when i'm this bored infront of the computer (no not that!), writing to you poor saps that may or may not read this. damnm it i cnt write with my ork glves on, i was hoping theyd keep my fingers from turnign all shades of periwinkel. bored bored bored, and that leads to way too much thinking. ahhh, the top of the monitor is warm to the touch. i wonder if the token male dancer is straight? if he isnt, damn what a lucky guy... jesus, who uses tapes these days anyways, theyre a pain in the ass to cue, they got a bunch of noise, and i had to repatch everything to get them through to the speakers. the job would be so much better if i could drink. speaking of drinking, i plan to hit the liquor store this week, and this is what i figure we need in the apartment:

vodka
(two, one to shoot and one to mix)
rum
amaretto
burbon
(this is for my honey burbon carrots resipe)
kaluha

thats about all i can tink that i'll need, but i am sure i left something out. any help here?

09/08/03 - life is the same as it has been since school started, same ol same ol. theres not much to write about. i bombed the TSO auditions, yay, it was a mix of fate and me not fully prepairing for it, but oh well. after that i found that beer for breakfast at 5 in the afternoon can get you fuck up reather easily. saw my friend (and stand partner for this next concert) sean's bluegrass band play at a party. surprizingly good. not that i have low opinions of them, rather that they are all bluegrass virgins (and they are still to bluegrass what vanilla ice was to hip hop [they will get better...]). um, a urora has shuned me out of her exsitence, with no contact at all. other the overwhelming hurt this causes me, it make for rather aquard (sp?) chance incounters. and that is how my life is, that and watching alot of adult swim (except for blue gender, that show blows hard!) i would have to rank them:

1. trigun
2. cowboy bebop
3. aqua teen hunger force
4. flcl
5. harvy birdman
6. family guy
7. inhuyasha
8. sealab
9. futurama
8. home movies
10. big o
SUCKS. blue gender

there are more shows (ie lupain the 3rd, space ghost, the brak show, the oblongs, etc) but theyre never on (some should get more time, i mean shit, if the got blue gender, hell, the ripping friend where better then blue gender). i guess that enought for one night, i got class in 6 hours and a lots of shit tomorrow (probably no time for a nap either, damn)...

08/25/03 - so the first day of classes has gone by as has my seating audition. both rather uneventful. still no fucking phone. i paid for a god damn phone and i am sitting here with shit. nothing i can do to contact people that i need to talk to, and i bitched six times to the hall manager and the office of telacomm. well, staying up last night unable to sleep till 430 when i had a 9 oclock music history class i finally worked out my graduation play and it will happen a year from this december. a BA in music and a BS in environmental studies. so thats good news. the "other" aspectes of my life are really fucking stressful. sorry to say that thats the way i see it being for a while. as r ebekah so kindly wrote on my badge at work this summer... "i'm keiran and i'm stubborn"

08/21/03 - well, i'm here in tallahassee, woo hoo... saw aurora last night, it was kinda surreal, i was walking over to te music school and did some mental math and figure that it was the earlyist that she might be getting in, and damned if i wasnt right on the nose. that was a diffucult situation, i helped her carry some of her shit up to her place. oh, and my phone doesnt work, AHHHHH! fuck. well, i now got to fuck with the schedual till it works...

ps: when the phone does get up and running, the number should be 853-2789 and i'm in room 1313b new apartment facility, same old ubox 65437; tallahssee, FL 32313 for mail

08/18/03 - if i'm not signed on to AIM that means i have packed the computer and or have started on my treck to tally. i still havent a clue where my room is seeing as i lost the sheet of paper with such information. this inclueds my phone number so if you want to contact me, use email (and leave your number?). yay for getting out of oak ridge, boo for missing erin, and we'll see how this semester goes..

08/18/03 - i have come to the point were writing here is what i do when i have nothing else to waste my time with (ie: everyone on AIM is set to away) so yeah, the games over, violinst erin won. her early lead served her well once a gereral appithy set in. so she'll have to come collect her prize some time, a dinner at waho i beleave. yes, so i think i may try to do this game thing again, but as short ten round matches and with nice long planing period before each (no more scrounging around at 1:45am trying ot find a suitable quote). so the other night rebekah and i were doing a little bass stuff and she said two things that i thought should be shared with the class, the first was in reference to my explination of the 12 bar blues:

"major triad. i dont even know what that is, it sounds like a charactor from clue...

and the second was in reference to a situation that is in negotiations (even though one party may not be privy to the fact that these negotiations are going on)

" boots are like ankel lingerie..."

i tend to agree though she and i have much different taste in boots. anyways, i leave on tuesday morning, so tomorrow lunch at betty's at noon oclock (though most everyone has left the ridge [or in erins case, not come back from the third world nation]. ah well...ciao

08/06/03 - so heres the poster i did for my summer internship, though that a few of you may be interested. and...

08/02/03 - a whole metric shit ton of nothing going on here in the ridge as of late, so much so that i am looking forward to school starting. this semester is an unknown, class are not set, but i plan on doing lots of work in the piano shop, both for money and for credit. there are these two large grinnell uprights that are dead, i might be doing a directed in depended study project of taking these two dead and making one living piano out of it. and maybe make a writing desk out of the skeleton of the other. socially this semester will prove to be a living hell, but that's life and i've bitched about all that enough here. if you want more just ask and youll get your fill. i'd like to thank amy of california, a friend of rebekah whom i have never meet (in person or online) and most likely never will, for i robbed her page of the java script that randomly puts up the pic at the top of the page. they are all hyperlinked and anyone to figure out the pattern gets a cookie. sorry but i am easily amused by adding to this page. i leave this social death trap of a town for the larger social death trap of tallahassee on the 19th and get there on the 20th-ish. cant find the paper that has my number on it but as soon as that happen i will post it. and as soon as my schedule settles down and set in stone i will update the "info" page. ciao...

07/29/03 - today i will give you the answer to the final weekly theme that ended a week ago, they were all reruns, all movies or artist that have been quoted before in the game. anyways the weekly themes were a bust, and it was all because of this man, you guessed it, frank stallone. the end is fast approaching us, only 14 more, good luck to all. on another note, this up coming weekend (thursday-sunday) gypsy will be playing at the oak ridge community playhouse. i hear they have an excellent bassist playing in the pit for this show and i think you all should come out and see it (to bad i, er i mean, he doesn't get a cut on the box office take). blah blah blah, not much else, i'm wanting to do some major construction on this site but i still have no idea what to do with it, any ideas would be most welcome (sorry, no kiddy porn, that idea has already been shot down by the FBI)... note to self: fuck the RIAA!

07/24/03 - so i'm dabbling a bit more in to html and i dun learn me how to make this site suck a little less. there should be some more on the way, like how the fuck do i set the margins on this frame i'm writing in now so the lines dont bump up to the black frame to the left. um, yeah so more to come, yay...an
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i had to write about the work i've been doing this summer...

07/23/03 - so yeah, you all should take the "how well do you know me" test i have up on my AIM profile...

because i like to make pretty graphs, and i don't yet have enough data to do any statistical analysis...

07/18/03 - ok, so i when to the sister hazel concert last night, and it was ok. we hit up barley's before hand (crowded and lots of annoying people) and saw lauran ham whom i haven't seen since she and i when to nova scotia together the summer of 2000. lucus try to get the waitress' number for me, that's what i get for hanging with people with no tact. so yeah, the concert was ok, the sounded sucked (too much bass drum, not clear vocals, bass too low) and i find that sister hazel like a lot of band lack dynamic contrast and stage presence. there were two high points to their set. one was when the came back for their encore, they started it off accapella with the intro to "seven bridges" with five part harmony (four really because the bassist couldn't hold the low notes), its a shame they didn't finish the song, just did the intro. so the other high point was when they did their song "i'm happy" which is an upbeat song with a "put on a smile even though life is shit" sorta message. in this song they had a break down to just the bass, lead guitar, and drums, then just the guitar with a fill here and there form the drums and bass. this when on for like 10 minutes (you could see the clock on the amsouth bank building over the drummer's head). then the guitarist threw out this reggae riff, and that built up and the drums jumped in and the bass too. then the back up vocals came in with the police's "so lonely" (and a very good sting impression to boot). at first i was like, "man, who do they think they are, the police?" then the vocals came in and i was like shit yeah. then seamlessly the transition back to "i'm happy" and this was the best part of the show. that and the lead singer looks like dave cochran with his head shaved.

07/15/03 - don't watch "high fidelity" if you are in any way going to empathizes with it (shit i have no idea if i spelled that right, i know this page is full of it, just bare with it), youll just end up piss off and jaded.

07/14/03 - andy "mother fucking" spore has gotten on the wagon and put up his own little site. i give it an -A at the moment but it shows a lot of potential improvement (note to readers, the site you are reading at the moment got a -C with the curve). click it. read it. like it.

07/09/03 - i am soooo sorry that i am such a slacker, i have done nothing with the game and i feel bad. so tonight it will return. other news is minimal, uh, susan gets back in the ridge todayish from being on some ex penal colony. yeah, so she should give me a holla. so this summer seems to have hit a rut, theres nothing going on, we need more poker! and this time lets play for real money, not a lot, i figure $3.50 buy in (6 quarters, ten dimes, and 20 nickels, everyone would have to be responsible for bringing their own chunk of change or we would need a banker to get lots of change and bring it to the game). so everyone agrees that they are aware that one of the people in the room will be walking out with everyones money and that we are all cool with that. the more peolpe in on this the bigger the pot is (four people would be $11, not a bad night). so we play texas holdem and past the trash (and any other cool games) till some one has it all. sound like a plan? oh, and before i forget, i gots to give a shout out to alex, thanks for the update (some peeps that shall remain nameless [111 tempura] could take this as an example of what to do...)

07/04/03 - happy forth o' july, i'm all about commemorating the time we kicked all the damn brits out of the country. man i had planned to have a massive update, but it just aint coming to me, so i guess that will have to be next time, see you all later...

07/03/03 - a belated hallaula to the passing of strom thurman! the world is a better place with the passing of this pliers of the right wing.

06/27/03 - well, tomorrow morning i'm heading to some family reunion thing in pennselvana, shit, i didnt know that i had any relitives there. so i will be gone from the ridge till the 3rd of july. so i will be in town on the 4th (god damn it, i will be the first time in 8 god damn years) so whats going to happen? anyways hopefully by then i will have something of intrest to post. wish me luck, and wish minda luch tomorrow too. heres a preemptive congradulations going out to her!

06/22/03 - so after getting back from my business trip to fort benning i had an email waitng for me. in it was the secind worse news i have recives all year. due to the cancelation of a new york bonaroo festival the tom petty concert in knoxvegus has been cancelled too. this is the concert that i had 11th row center tickets for three days before they when on sale. fuck ass. man... that burns the whole summer... in other news the games back, uh and if no one tries for the bonus, this will be its last week. i miss all of you oversea or soon to be overseas alot (aurora, daria, erin, rebekah...). this summer seems to be hitting a rut, need more to do.. so you guys fix it...

06/16/03 - well, it seems that a can of something has been open, and nows my chances to grab a spoon. jesse: i didnt mean that one should turn on ones friends , just dont give a shit about their opinions if caring will cause a problem. we all know that shit goes down and that we all talk about it, for exampe, our facination with nick and holly, when will their egos collide and will it for a black hole in our social group or will they fuse into some quasar becon for the rest of us to home in on? we must all learn to take each others shit and deal, the ones who couldnt take it are the ones we never see anymore, or atleast the ones we dont try to keep in touch with (present out of country peeps are with us in cybersperit or some shit like that). any ways i forgot the point i was trying to make, it had something to do with status quo and partying like its 1899...fuck, again i have failed...

oh and for thoughs of you who might be interested here is a little something something that i am working on this summer one of the four projects...

06/10/03 - I'm a generally unfuckwitted, liberal, tight as fuck, pathetically simple-minded, dribbling child!
See how compatible you are with me!
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

06/09/03 - i'm surprized that i havent heard about this knowint the company that i keep but holly, jesse, nick, etc... need to see this...

06/03/03 - so theres not much to say about being in the ridge. i work from like 8/830ish till 430/530ish then come home eat and hang with people, come home hang out online of a bit, then crash. i never end up getting enough sleep, but what else is new. been down loading music from "cowboy bebop" show and movie (good movie, go see) and i found this japaness artist thats great, yoko kanno. jazz, bebop, big brass blues, electronic samples, and world music all wrapped into it. i'm generally snobish about mixing musical forms but this stuff pulls it off with class. but its for downloading, being that the import cd run about $45 a pop, and the box set is like $147. even i dont spend that type of money on music. if anyone out there has records (classical and or jazz) that they want to donate to my collection, my library might even count as tax deductable...

05/27//03 - so it took a week, but once again the nternet had grow tiresomly boring. they need pill for boredom . oh yeah, they do. theyre call codine! just kidding (kinda, god bless left over prescriptions). any ways the world narrow web has finaly graced my room with its presence. the game is up and running again after a too long pause. an tom petty tickets go on sale on saterday! concert is august 9th!!!!so that means i must be the first one in line for tickets. um, i also added bonus points into the game (for breaking ties, see game page for details). other then that work is work (and too many ticks, they suck) and i miss people. congrates go out to malinda and her hubbie to be. uh, i think thats it. if you in the ridge, call and lets get bore with the good old OR together....

05/19/03 - dude, it will be soon. the 75 foot cable is one its way and then the machine with the scores will be connected once again and the game can resume. sigh, if only every thing were that simple. uh, cards, we need to have some more cards nights. maybe play for some real money? all input is valued...

05/12/03 - ahhhhhhhhhh! i still dont have any internet in my room, this is why the game is still not up and running. fuck ass. anyways in other news, i bought a bass. an upright bass. its a old cheapo, but is has a great tone, and lends its self to amplification. also i got into the dorm that was my first pic, brand new, i get to break it in (hehe). its not my first pick of where i wanted to live, but thats another story. other then that nothing new. i miss some people a whole lot, and others not so much, i guess you can figure that out and if you cant it really wont mather to you. um, yeah, camping and climbing, get in touch with me..

05/04/03 - happy almost cinco de mayo, damn my spanish sucks. anyways, made the trip up to tennessee in one piece, and it was as mucha pain in the ass to unpack as it was to pack (i have so much shit to move in my room so that i can move in). the game may be down for a while while we resolve the networking in my house (we may be going wireless, this could be interesting).i could keep the game going on the web page, any probleme with that? get back to me with any ideas, other then that not much to say. had dinner with marshall as he headed back to boone, bounced some ideas of doing some model rockets (on steroids) this summer, more on that later. start work in the morning, fun stuff, i'm really looking foward to doing all the training over again. to those of you coming into the ridge, TELL ME WHEN! oak ridge is really boring with out you...

05/02/03 - the game will be down for the weekend of may 3rd-5th due to the fack that i will be travaling up to tennessee and the computers will be in the back of a car... sorry, you'll have yo get your fix somewhere else...

04/27/03 - man, i never get to see aurora any more. it sucks! its like my last three weeks with her and i can count the number of times we've hung out on one hand. sorry but i havent been a very happy camper. on a good note, the music for my jury is coming along rather well. working with a pianist has helped more then i ever would have beleived. i'm torn, i want this week (finals week) to be over sooo bad, i want to be in oak ridge were i can just go to work and come home an chill with people, but saterday will be the last time i will see the woman i love for four months and in parting she will break off our relationship. so i'm sitting here wanting this week to last forever and to end at the same time. all i can say is that one in the ridge, i will be able to shed some emotional baggage and vegge for a while.i'll need to lubracate my soul with a little c2h5oh. in other fucked up news look at this

04/23/03 - well, i still havent had a "stumped everyone" day in the game yet (thanks to rhys, rebekah, and tampa erin). i reall though that john prine was going to do it for me. even though i heard it sitting next to bass at cypher's mine, i knew he wouldnt remember that. well, paridice was my little earth day tribute. you should all go download it because it is a beautiful song (and thatalot coming from an instrumentist about a vocal piece). in other news, i want to do some backpacking this summer. i was thinking of two trips in my head today. one to red river gorge for some climbing, camping, tubing, swimming, and general what not. and the other was to hike all of the AT that runs through the smokies. its 70 miles of ridge running, i think it could be done in 4 days but five might be a safer bet. other ideas are welcome. i just bought a new harness, sleeping pad, and water pump and i want to use them sooo bad.when do any of you get back to the ridge (sign the guest book and give dates). i wll be at the lab and livin at the 'rents. you all should know the #, if not call me...

04/17/03 - well tonight was the most enjoyable night in recent history. a great dinner at a quiet little italian resterant in a rich subdivision. good company, pleasent conversation, good food (sencond best chicken parm i've ever had, to bello's on 42nd st and 9th ave in NYC, mmm). it was a lovely reprive to the crazy go nuts that has been my life as of late(best night of my whole life). more good news i sign my appointment papers for the summer at ORNL. another summer slaving for carla but the pay is goodish. bad news, i play my gjury a week from monday and play a mock jury for the stodio on this up coming monday (lets just say "holy shit, i am sooooo not ready!!!!!"). a well, the worst thing that can happen is that i'll have to take it again in the fall. for those of you unframilure with the way music schools work, at the end of the year you play a final for six or seven professors, in my case, the entire string faculty. fun times! ughhhh!looks like i'll be in the pratice room a llittle this weekend.

04/15/03 - honey, happy 2 and half years. and on to the rest of the rant. why is it when something is hopeless, its always the things that you cant give up on. like you cant because it would be to turnon everything you hold dear in your life. and why is it that i am always the one that get screwed. i have in the past always kept my emotions to myself. but has gotten me nowhere, so now i turn to you guys because i have try EVERYTHING and it hasnt work and having nothing else, this is where i end up. so heres the story: my girlfriend has stared into the future and doesnt see me there. she feels that there must be more where i feel i have found everything. i have done everything to work things out, everything, and she still feels that we must part at the end of the semester. i cant hate her, so that means i'll end finding somewhere else to lay waste to with hateritude. i try to see things from her point of view but it makes no sence. i dont know why i'm writing this, it is not like me at all, but as i said earlier, i have run out of choices. what the hell am i to do? she says to move on, but that just should how much she doesnt understand. that would be the death of me emotionally. to give u all hope would be to snuff out the candal of my sanity. so that is where i am coming from in this post, i look forward to this summer bucause i will need the time to regroup and i will need all the help i can get. this may all seem like i am trying to force myself on her and i can see that too, but i cannot give up on something i know to be the best thing to ever happen to me and i will do anything to make things work. but what ever, i have done all i can for now. i promice no more sappy depressed post for a while, i'll let it all build up inside till it over flows as it did tonight.the only thing that keeps me going is the idea that there is some sort of fate, a god like figure cant work, it gives you someone to blame, and nothingness give one no reason to go on. so it must be fate. all we can do is try...

04/13/03 - so the game has started, and only one person got the last one. give its some time though and with the questions being mixed up, everyone had an equal chance. i also put a post to the anwsers on the score board/rules page. again good luck to all. oh, i disided to make the end date august 13th. four months of play. anyways, back to the grind.

04/10/03 - check out the GAME (also there's a link above). rules are posted, play starts on 4/12/03...

04/09/03 - yes i know i am a horrible person, and i have negleceted all the webpages of those i hold near and dear to me (those that have them). so i have spent the last hour two or three reading around the webring. and i have responces for some of you (in no perticular order):

alex: i know just how you feel, the need for a stable relationship, but hows is your new found priestly exsistence going to help you in this endevor? and why blow off lefty and righty, theyve always been there for you, can you return the favior?

erin: thanks for the kim jong ill link, it made my day

nick: congrates (send me a pie from pizzarie raggina's)

chuck: good for you, fuck 'um!

rhys: i think chucks on the right track with the indoor plan, which in itself holds enough variables. outside is just asking for a headache. also i think the grove is not the best spot either, it is sooooo dirty in there and would take a massive effort to clean. anyways, i offer my help in what ever undertaking you set off on.

holly: we miss you (well, i guess i can only talk for myself). i was pondering why edward's parties seem to work very well. i could only think off three things. 1.) i have noted that there seems to be an element of drama that is lacking at edward's place that is the death of a good time else where. 2.) the close quarters force the people in attendence to interact and cuts off routes of social excape. and 3.) the ratio of alchohal to people is to the extream at his place. also think off how edwards's draws an exslusive croud where most every one know everyone else at the party where as in OZ your lucky to know whos living at the house that month. just some thoughs. and big party when you get dirtside = good idea.

a urora: i wanted to inclue you so as not to have ridge sausage party on my page all the time.i hope you are hanging inthere with all your concerts, projects, and rehursals this week. and to remind you that we finally get to do that dinner thing on thursday the 17th (two months after i had the original idea).

i also am taking steps to make a "guess where the hell my away message came from page" where i will keep a tally of who gets the obscure quote i put up as away messages.

04/05/03 - yo, sorry its been soo long but i've had lots of shit happening (hell, i've been in ruby dimoand auditorium every night this week sept on monday for concerts and dress rehursals). anyways, i'll be workin at the labs again this summer, and i hope to to have a shit load of fun. um, not much more to say, um, early may? nothin else here. take it easy.

03/23/03 - so jo, one of aurora's friends from back in stl stopped y on here way home from spring break this pas friday night. and this was in need of celibrating. needless to say, we broke out aurora's not nearly as big as edward but still fuck big bar. and we got shit face (all but the chick emily [i think that was her name...]) a good time was had by all and there was a nice fun game of "i've never, have you ever" (better the the st.mary's version...). the pics are on the way, including more girl on girl action.

03/19/03 - kiss you UN good bye. our undermining of any sort of world athority has screwed it FUBAR. and fuck that sell out leibermann, i will vote of bush before i vote for him in 2004, at least bush wheres the wolves clothing! not to mention that he is the worst thing to happen to the first amendment sense j edger hoover. AND hes a god damn zionist (and some f you know what i think of them). uh, i live with discust and all i can do is walk out of class at noon tomorrow to a gathering on landis green. fuck...

03/17/03 - yay, well be going to war soon, its about time that i get to see the world in mass histeria, i mean come on , we missed out on the first two world wars, we missed out on the vetnam war, and most of the cold war (all of the good parts anyways). so now is our time to witness history happen. to see the UN and all its lack of power disolve due to our presidents pig headed, arroget, imperialist agenda. fuck, i really have no idea how he thinks this is right. jesus h christ, there are no conection between iraq and the so called war on terror. most all of the people implicated in the events on 911 and al qeada are or were saudis, the saudi queen paid for the housing of two of the 911 hijackers for months before the attackes! why dont we bomb them!!! fuck!!! someones need to give our president an ultimatum. or send him a bit of copper coated lead in .308 with love. jesus fucking christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

03/07/03 - well, as you all should know by now, i well be making my tri yearly migrathing to the greater marlo metropolitan area come tomorrow. this means many things, one, some old school carrying on, hope fully some bbq-ing and betty's (monday), and no post on this site for a week. i'll have the ability but dear got i hope i dont have the time. i want to see peeps and do shit. not sit infront of the computere like i do down here. so your mission should you choose to accept it is to keep me too busy to post. thats an order!

03/03/03 - ha, kick ass, 333 ha ha. fuck it i'm tired. well it was brought to my attention that if i post the date of the last time i saw some one else post, i could end up looking like an idiot (holly). when has that ever stopped me in the past? i figure that if there be a keyboard with in my reach and synapsis firing in my head, there should be no exscuss for me not to read each and every one of the pages listed above. it will take me all of 10 minutes, less if no one updates. on to other news, my spring break will be next week, and i will be flying into magee tyson some time saterday evening. i got some work at the labs during the weekdays (need some dought to feed the ebay addiction...) but will be up for the usual evening mayhem. oh, i got a gig to record some one outside of the school setting. i'll be duing a classical bass album. should be fun, i already bouncing ideas around in my head of mic placements and what not. i think thats about it. oh, does anyone know anything about posting music (mp3, wav, whatever) on angelfire pages? and who whats to go to bonnaroo, shit, the hardest working man in showbiz will be there...

02/27/03 - well, i'm glad thats over with, i am now done with all the midterms that i'm going to have. i did well on the sightsinging test, and my spatial data analysis test was easy. so, instead of studing for those over the past day or so, i've been adding pics and fucking with my sleep schedual. all picture realated pages are now listed here. and as for the sleep shit, i need to cut my dependence on chemicals that fuck with my brain chemistry and that also screw with the way my body adsorbs vitamin and shit.

02/26/03 - at last what you all have been waiting for... PICS FROM A URORA'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY!!! so you all know there are like four pages of them. so look at a page, and click on the link at the bottem for the next page o' pictures. anotations to come tomorrow or so (i should be studing, but what ever...its just sightsinging)

02/20/03- damn, being sick sucks. so some chick died last week of meningitis and i was all scared and shit since i had flu like symptoms and the symptoms for meningitis are flu like symptoms. well, i guess i wasnt scared enough to go get the spinal tap to get diagnosed. or was it I was too fucking wiped out from this shit. anyways I feel 100 times better then i did tuesday morning and am up to about 25% of normal capacity. it was a bad week to get sick though. midterm in sightsing/ear training (that class SUCKSSSSS), paper due in world music cultures, oh yeah a shit load of orchestra! with a 4 hour dress rehearsal on monday, a 2 hour concert on tuesday, and a 6 hour recording session on wednesday, all while sick as a dog and sitting on a stool with one check and having to concentrate on twentieth century music!!!! need less to say i�m wiped the fuck out. but, ell, it�s going to be on a dvd! oh, and erin, you know you want to work in the ridge cuz its like crack and you cant help but to want some more!

02/17/03 - man, i'm sick. it sucks, i was worn out all yester day for no reason and then it came on at like 6:30 am this morning. the last 4 hours in bad were all tossing and turn to fuckup dreams of drowning of suficating in some way shape or form. and i got a dress rehursal till 10 tonight and a concert tomorrow. on another note, i did laundry for the first time in 2003, yay! 47 more days of clean clothing! you know what else kicks ass, i get to work in the piano shop tomorrow, for money! my teacher is sub contracting me to rebush keys. fring benifit for this, i'll be able to deduct all tools i buy in 2003 as a business expense. haha, fuck you IRS!!!! uh, this weeks going to suck i need grocerys but have no time. oh, i'll be putting some more stuff on ebay later. i will link it when i do. and last but not least, spring break 2003 in the ridge, yehaw. march 8 - 16, hope to see some of you there...

02/14/03 - haha, dells a bunch of suckers!! get this, i bought a refirbished dell of the ebay, it comes with a 20gb 5400rpm HD that HD is "bad" when i try to load an OSits still on warranty till april, this = i just got a new 40gb 7200rpm HD in the mail for the price of a 20gb referb. dude, i rule,well as soon as i get this HD in.

02/11/03 - so my computer came yesterday. and in fewer then 20 minutes i ran into a poblem. but it wasnt me fucking shit up!!! the hard drive was apparently bad. and get this, the thing is still on the old warranty till april. which means i get a new hard drive. hahahahahahahahaha! well other then that there is nothing new here. did anyone catch the thing about the bin laden tape and about morocco? isnt there where holly is at?

02/09/03 - where the fuck is my computer, i hate waiting, i want to play with it now... anyways the 'rents have been it town over the weekend and so i havent done anything interesting. hopefully i'll do something worth writting about by the next post. sorry...

02/06/03 - i wish i had things to say and i could update with something interesting every day but i dont, my fucking life is boring and its all youalls fault (i was born in tennessee so it is correct grammer). anyways the rents are in town for music parents weekend, fun stuff. at least i get free food that i dont have to cook and tthe togo boxes should set me up for a week or so. anyhow, i cant wait till the cheap ass computer i bought on the ebay gets here, i've already rearanged the cables behind my desk and did some cleaning (i must be gitty if i end up cleaning something). i even bought a KVM switch so i can hook both machines up to the same keyboard/mouse/monitor and every time i hit "scroll lock" twice it switches which machine is in use. its only a 550mhz and it will take alot of work ot get it working good (good/well, there the same fucking word so get the fuck over yourself) but i hope the have a metric shitload of fun fucking with it, hell who really needs to eat... oh, the pic of the party will be up soon

02/02/03 - last night was a urora's 21st birthday party, for those of you that came, kick ass! you must have had a good time, and for those that were not there, you are miserable excuse for peoples. it was a blast, as are most night that accompany nearly $200 worth of alcohol. most every one there made a fool of themselves (some more then others). i some how got roped into bartending, which was fun till they turned out the lights and turned on the disco ball (its so fucking hard to pour a clear liquid into a clear shot glass with only a moving colored dot for light). in the tradition of edward's parties, i created a new shot. i call it the extra absorbent tampon (the name comes from a long story about going to a bar last year with my then roommate and him ordering a really fruity drink and getting made fun of by the bartender). this shot is a simple concoxion (sp but who the fuck cares?!?!) half a shot of triple sec and half a shot of bacardi lemon (there�s supposed to be a little accent mark over the "o" in lemon but i dont care to find it). to this you add half a teaspoon (any fucking spoon will do, i was too fucked up at the time to get the graduated cylinder out and figure out the optimal amount in microliters) of grenadine and pour it down the side of the glass so it comes to rest in the bottem of the glass. its gooooood! anyways there will be pictures up soon. and perhaps more stories as the haze lifts from my memories...

01/31/03 - well the first step is admiting that you have a problem. i have a proble, i am an addict of the ebay. it finally came to bear on me yesterday when i bought a computer. it was a good deal and all but its this kind of spending that will put me on the street sucking dick to meet a reserve price. so in order to turn myself around i am taking up selling shit on the ebay! my first atempt is a pair of speakers i bought last year. they are nice speakers they are nice speakers if you what to get in on it. i think my next item will be my slightly used virginity (i think it grew back this weekend...). other then that not much else happening. a urora's bday party is tomorrow night, and i'm still tired from the past two nights of going out to bars (damn i must be getting old). ciao.

01/30/03 - guess who's 21 now? a urora cassandra brooks z enfell, thats who!!! well i guess that means we getting torn up this weekend and that "happy birthdays are in order...

01/28/03 - ok, well my spring break is march 8-16 ish and i still dont know what i'm doing. aurora wants to get a beach house one st. george island (about 45 min. south of tallahasee). any ideas are welcome. and thank you erin for being the one and only person to sign the guest book, the rest of you guys are horrible people.
early this morning erin wrote "emory isn't totally a haven for shitty people, there are just more of them then anything else." i know what you mean but i am afraid that it isnt just emory, it is the world. aurora had the bright idea of doing grocery shopping this past sunday afternoon and it didnt hit either of us that it was a few hours till the super bowl. let me tell you about the publix we got here in tallahassee the aisle are way to fucking small and the ceiling is 30 odd feet too high for anything useful, over all the worst design for a store i have EVER seen. and it was mob with people that just pissed me off, daddy's little girls with their fucking BMWs and dicks with legs in their gas gusling monuments to the destrution of the enviroment all getting in my fucking way! i just wanted to start swinging.
FUCK!
aside from that, i really want to move on in life, college has worn thin on me. even though this will problably be an easy ass semester, i just want a job. a simple segragation of my duties where once i'm home i aint got shit to do, that would be the life. i'm sure it will never come to that but all we can do is hope.

01/27/03 - there will be a birthday party for the 21st birthday of a urora cassandra brooks z enfell on saterday the 1st of febuary. email for directions.

01/26/03 - for some reason, as i was updating my main html file, angelfire took it apon it�s self to "delete" the file instead of "saving" it as it was a sked. so "fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you and fuck you!" i am now going to start all the fuck over and this will be the first try creating a raw html file. I�m sure none of you will see it for till fixing my third or forth fuck up and that is what we call "learning" alright now say it with me. "L" to the "e" to the "a" to the "give" to the "keiran" to the "all" to the "your" to the "money!" i think it was because the post I was placing was all like negative and shit that the fates fucked me over. but this time i got them beat, for am for now on going to write this shit all out in a word file. hahahaha (evil laugh). not that any of this matters to any of you all, but fuck you, nobody reads this shit anyways.

january 26, 2003 - september 30, 2006

FUCK!