mRO is a disease
Mood:  irritated
Well, there are times where a person can express his happiness, sadness, worries and now its time for angriness. If there is even such a word. Well I am not really that angry but irritated and significantly annoyed.

Well it all started when I was still oblivious to online games. Yes you know? Online games where you play with a bajillion other people online probably from all over the world. One fine day, I went to my cousin's house and watched him play mRO (malaysian Ragnarok Online). I thought it might be interesting to try it after all it was free for that time. Then I slowly got hooked on it making me neglect everything else that needed attending. Everyday playing this game with my cousin online was kind of boring because I had to wait for him to actually be free and sometimes he would rather go adventuring with his own friends and leave me alone to play by myself which of course defeats the whole purpose of playing these kind of games online. I had a rather smart plan to actually get more of my own friends to play with me this game. Little did I know that it would actually cause so much damage and eventually backfire on me.

I first introduced this game to Shawn. Yeah that's right. The guy who I'm sharing a house with here in Australia who is studying the same subject as I am at university. He did not seem really keen on playing it so I got ahead of myself and introduced it to 2 other people from my college. In the end all three of them were adventuring with me. Little that I know that these people have been spreading the information of the game around when I had suggested them not to.

Well I do not know about them but for myself, this game slowly took control of me, the way how I think and affected my daily life severely and even turned me into an anti social and somewhat rude person. Anybody that would have disrupted my time playing this game would have been told off in a rather loud and rude way. I saw them as disturbing my concerntration as well as not giving peace but in reality I was being controlled by the game and to repel anybody who would potentially release me from this bondage I was suffering unconciously.

Hours turned into days, days turned into weeks, weeks turned in months. I was almost constantly playing that game neglecting my friends, my family, my college work and even God. I was under a spell I could not break free from. While being under this hypnotism I even lost my girlfriend. Well it was not directly us breaking up because I was too addicted to the game but more rather that I kept making up excuses not to spend more time with her or anybody else. I always had arguments with my mother over me spending too much time on the computer. Little did she know that the game had its endless pull on me.

But God did not let me drift away just like that. Somehow someway He made kept drawing me back to Him. Towards the end of this bondage, I suddenly became busy and occupied with other works that just could not be let down for the online game. The more work I had the less time I would have for the game. Eventually enabling me to lose the obsession for the game and I would only play it once in a while. When I was finally free, I could see all the damage that I had done to those people around me, the people whom I spreaded this disease to.

Two of my classmates constantly had arguments and ruined their friendship over this game. One of those two classmates failed some subjects and could not graduate the same time as the rest of us for she had to retake some subjects. One of my apprentices in music became moody, short tempered and anti-social while under the control of the game. He was even anti-social online! He did not want to share his problems to anyone. Keeping his anger to himself and thinking that playing that game would make him feel better. It is like a drug. You think taking more of it will help you feel better but it is actually destroying you.

The final blow that made me quit mRO forever was the unethical conducts that the players were practicing and they were so rude that I just dropped the whole thing and forgot about the whole game.

Shawn is still ever loyal to the game because he claims his friends are still playing as well. He does not realize or remember that I introduced the game to him and actually I helped him alot in the game and actually helped him formed a guild which he quietly self appointed himself as founder and head of the guild and just forgot about me like I was a nobody.

Today I found him playing mRO in his room. On our shared DIAL UP line. That really was like a slap to my face. He is the kind of guy who would keep himself in his room for hours just to play games and shuts himself off from the rest of the world not caring what is happening. Now he is starting to play the game after more than a month of us being here without internet. He is going to be in his room a whole lot often and I will be like living in this apartment sort of like alone because he will not interact with anything besides that game.

It also pisses me off when I hear people complain about the game and the unethical players in it, when they still go back into the game playing over and over again and complaining when they dont.

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Our friends dropped by while I was typing this blog. They wanted to see how we were settling in this place and also passed me Doom 3 installer. NYAHAHAHA. What a temptation to play it now when I have a design to submit tomorrow. Nah, I have strong will power. When I set my mind to do something it will stay on that course till its finished.