5:50am
Mood:  irritated
Well I do have much to write about what happened yesterday (friday). It was really a miracle. God really intervene in things. He helped me out of a sure-trouble when I didn't deserve it. I'll save it for later when I have a clear mind.

Its 5:51am now and I just saw some stuff written by some people that really pissed me off. Well to make it more precise.

1. I hate it when people do wrong and they just can't see that they are doing wrong.
2. I hate it even more when people do wrong but try to compromise the situation with shitty lame fucked up excuses like "but we're not hurting anybody"
as if like as long as it doesn't involve other people around them (to their awareness) so it makes it okay.
3. and I hate really hate most of all, people that do wrong, know that they are doing wrong, but continue doing it anyway.

I know a fellow christian who does this.
When I asked him why, he said "because I am being disobiedent"
And when I asked him why he was disobidient, he says there is no reason why, it was just because he is. Its like he just admits openly that he is doing wrong and doesn't care about it. He assumes that he can do whatever he wants and expects all his wrong doings to be forgotten just with a few words.

What is the use if a person says he is a christian, says he does all the christian stuff but personally he doesn't live it. What is the point of talking the talk but not walking the talk? Who are you trying to kid?

A tip to everyone out there, if a person tells you he/she is a christian. Don't assume they truly are until you witness their true behaviours. They may go to church, they may pray (at least when others are around) they may talk about being good and all but that might just be it nothing more.

What ultimately angers me is that I am in position to do anything about these people.

When Will It End?
Now Playing: Eufonius - Bokura no Jikan
so its 5:34am and I've finished my part of the documentation for my now 2-man project group.

I have done 3 documentations within the span of 2 days. Although it might seem to other people, an easy job as to just updating/modifying current documentations to submit, it is very very tedious.

My project mate is still working on the making sure the website functions properly as well as create the user manual on how to set up the whole system once it is handed over to the clients. I don't dare say to him that I'm going to go sleep now, because it would seem like I am abandoning him to complete stuff on his own. So I guess I shall sit up and wait for him till everything is finished.

I am at home and him at his. We're working and communicating via msn messenger.
We have to handover the the product and documentation to our clients at 12pm and a copy of those stuff to our subject convenor at 3pm.

After today, it will all be over!
All I can do then is wait and pray that I don't fail this subject

Donkey
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Joey Yung - Ngo Dik Kiu Ngou
Well where do I begin, today I was suppose to meet up with my project mate to complete a whole lot of documentations for submission on Friday. Now, we have to complete it sooner as well so we would be able to make corrections if need be as well as submit a copy to our clients and get them to acknowledge that they have received a copy from us, otherwise submitting the documentation and product to our subject convenor on Friday would be pointless.

I guess it was my fault. I was doing some quests with my friends in World of Warcraft and lost track of the time and I postponed it to like 4:30pm when it should have been 3:30pm. Then he goes and say he won't be able to make it through the rush hour and suggests to meet at night. So I went to sleep. Sure enough, he said he had to make it later. This isn't something new with him so I just gave up altogether and said we would meet tomorrow at the university at 10am in the morning. Hopefully he doesn't come late with excuses. YEAH RIGHT.

Oh dear God, please help us finish our documentations by end of tomorrow.

Okay enough of that. Now its time to rant again.

I'll be honest with you, I can tolerate alot of things, but there are small things which I just can't. Like seeing some people come online my msn messenger's list. Now you may be thinking "why doesn't he just delete them off his list?"

You know what? Maybe I should! In fact I will do it now.

Also I'm somewhat unsatisfied at times seeing people all happy with their lives. I guess there is still a part of me where I would like to see people miserable because thats what I am most of the time. Yes I am aware that it is wrong of me to be this way but hey, there are no good reasons for me to not be.

There will always be a time when I just am tired of being nice and patient. I would revert to my normal self where I do not care about anybody or anything, and people could just go die a horrible slow painful death for all I care. Being nice and patient is not easy. It takes alot of self control.

At the same time, a feeling of uneasiness is about me, I do not know if are evil intentions discouraging me, battering me down, trying to have me think that I would have to stay back another semester to retake some subjects. It makes it all the more difficult have confident that I wouldn't have to do so.

Also... the part where I have to move out really really soon and hoping that the place which I want to move into would be available. Which originates from many other more complications. Sigh... complications.

I try to deal with them step by step, but its all entangled. If I remove one, something else will come along or it would be dependent on me doing something else first and so on and so forth.

ARGH!

I Don't Know About Tomorrow (But I Know He Holds My Hand)
Mood:  not sure
I just got off the phone with my friend; Irwin.
I was talking to him about the plans of sharing an apartment. Well the situation is, come 24th of December, my current housemate Shawn, will be flying home for good, and I won't be able to afford rental for this place alone because its too costly seeing it is a 2 room apartment.

A couple of weeks ago, Irwin said that him and his girlfriend were looking for a new place soon with her friend and boyfriend. He offered me to share an apartment with them, and they were okay with it. You had no idea how happy and relieved I was when hearing that. Thank God.

So anyways yeah, their current choice of apartment was not too far off from my current one. Okay its further away, but I can always take a tram to uni (if I have to resit anymore subjects T-T), its one straight road away but that stretch of road is long. That apartment is nice and I'm totally sold. The only thing now to pray is that it is available to us, and that I can move in before 24th of December or the very latest before 13th of January. Also to hope that they don't change their mind about wanting to get another apartment somewhere else (meaning somewhere inconvenient for travelling to campus for me). I also need to confirm everything as soon as possible so I can make plans to shift all my furnitures and stuff over via hiring a shipping truck or something.
My uni-mate suggested www.bluecircle.com.au, it looks professional and stuff, I might just give it a go, seeing that I do not know of any other shipping businesses.

I feel excited with the thought of moving in with another friend. I have to admit, that I fear living alone in a foreign country. It is not that I am afraid of being alone in a house, it is the fact that I have nobody to communicate or interact with that would eventually drive me crazy, or make me do stupid things. Also I think it would be a more exciting friend to share a place with, not that I'm bad mouthing anybody (hush hush) but yeah I could have better comparisons, but I also have to say that I am fortunate and grateful for having the experience with my current housemate, for living with him has taught me so much and also given me much experience in these type of situations.

So yeah all I can do now is pray and hope that we do in fact get that place, and that the transition of stuff moving would be smooth and without problems, or damage.

Still working on presentation items for tomorrow.
The subject's presentation is called Multimedia Project 2. It is like the final boss in the final stage for my Bachelors course. I am currently waiting for my project mate to come over and contribute his share and finalize it for tomorrow.

After that, all I can do is enjoy myself until I get results (hopefully) indicating that I passed all my subjects this semester, so I can quickly proceed to applying for a "Last to Complete" exam for a subject I failed last semester, and pass that too.

Then and only then I can go home back to Damansara Utama, Petaling Jaya, Selangor, MALAYSIA!!! for good!
Otherwise... ugh, I would have to spend another semester here. Either way, I still managed to secure a living place for end of this year. I feel excited and worried at the same time, though I know God is looking after me, I just can't help feel anxious about the whole situation.

Okay got to get back to freaking out over tomorrow's presentation.

Peace out.

Daylight Savings (yesterday)
Yesterday started the day of Daylight Savings for Melbourne, where we adjusted our times to 1 hour ahead.
So now I am 3 hours apart from Malaysia, as oppose to only 2 hours.

Family
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Boy & Medy - Crying In The Rain
I have been rather busy with university assignments this whole year seeing that it is my final year. I hope it is my final year, meaning not failing any subjects in order to retake them in further semesters. I really want to go home. I miss my lifestyle back home so much. Oh yeah, not to mention my friends too. Being hungry at night with no friends, is just sad.

Now to keep myself entertained at home when I am not working on assignments and projects, I play World of Warcraft. For those of you who don't already know what it is, its another Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game. check out

now it is rather new to me finding out that some of the players in this game have their parents playing the game as well. I mean, wouldn't you find it awkward if your dad was playing the same game as you, you will feel weird and out of place. Thank God my parents dont like computers to begin with. I know this twin brothers have their father playing the same game as well and its rather weird. The funny thing is their dad sometimes skip work to stay home to play the game. This is not good at all and will prove to be a bad influence to the twin bros.

Another funny incident I discovered were in the official forums where some guy was like talking about playing the game sometime early in the morning like 3am or something, and his mother saw that posting on the forum and replied to that thread saying that he was grounded and the they won't be seeing his son in that game for a while. Apparently his mother played the game as well.

Just wanted to say, you know sometimes you wish that your parents would understand the things you do and also sometimes hope they know what are the things you do? I implore you guys to reconsider...

Sith Happens
Now Playing: Kylie Minogue - Chocolate
What a day.

Spent the afternoon till evening at university again. I've been at university for most of the days this week trying to finish up on documentations and presentation points for my Multimedia Project 1 subject. The presentation is this coming Monday and we have not completed what we need to do yet. Its just tying up loose ends, but its sure a heck lots of loose ends.

In the evening Attila came to pick me and Shawn up to go watch Revenge of the Sith, but he had a flat tire upon arrival at our place. So we went around asking strangers if they had a tire iron we could borrow to change the tire. To our astonishment, all the people who had cars did not have tire irons stored in their car, let alone tool box. I'm like thinking, sure even if you don't know squat about changing a tire for your car, at least have a tool box in the trunk incase of anything. In fact I thought that all cars should come with a tool box.
That was just plain whacked. Attila called RACV to come over to help and thank God it only took less than 20 minutes.

So after it was done, we were off to the cinema.
It was the Rivoli cinema at Camberwells. Funny because all this while living here, I never realized Rivoli was there. It had those sort of nostalgic 50s cinema style look going on for the place with fusion of modern designs. I thought that place was good. It was my first time coming to such cinemas.

The interiors of the theatre was awesome. They had those theatrical typed designs like carving sculpture like designs on the ceilings and walls and they had like golden curtains covering the screen before it was time to play.

The show was good. George Lucas really redeemed himself by making the third episode up to par and being able to connect with episode 4.

After watching the movie, we went to Sofia's for dinner. This time around I wasn't up to having the spinach fettucine cabonara because I knew I could not eat much of it. So I went for pizza margherita. Shawn did the usual fettucine but this time he could not even finish 1/3 of it.

Talked about Star Wars through out the night after watching it and found out that Attila has alot of other shows which "fills" in the gaps and holes of the Star Wars story. This I have got to see.

Kinda tired from the few days I have. I will be so happy when the presentation this Monday is done with.

The Selfish World
Mood:  don't ask
Yesterday I was playing an online game with my housemate. Somewhere along the line he suddenly started showing signs that he was not happy about something. I chose to ignore that because I do not tolerate people who have something in mind but do not wish to say it out.

When we went out for dinner, he was quiet the whole time. I tried to start conversations but he just would not say a thing to reply. At this point I was already quite angry. I hate such behaviours as I think it is impolite to other people. I still kept my patience and let it go.

When we were back home playing the same game, he kept dying and all of a sudden yelled "FUCK THIS" and left without saying a thing and went off somewhere in the game and did his own things.

Now most people might not really care about what I just wrote because they would blindly assume "it's just a game". I ask you to think about it deeply. If that was his behaviour in game, imagine how it would be in real life. I do not believe people can have seperate totally split personalities online and in real life. Unless of course it would be a facade to hide something.

This is not the first time he behaved like this and I am including real life situations.
From my point of view everything is about himself. If he does not get what he wants, he would criticize people for their faults.

For example one time, he wanted to go out to buy food, he told me he was going to. I said to him "can you buy back for me as well?"
he replies with "don't be lazy"
but when its a reverse situation he never gives a shit. I would always ask if he wants to come along with me when I go out to get food. He would just reply "Malas-la" which means he is lazy to.

Everyday he stays in his room playing the computer game nonstop. He only stops to eat, go toilet.

I do not know his background of life as to why he is the way he is today. Most of his solutions to disputes are always somewhere in the effects of "you do your own thing, I do mine, we don't bother each other". Like the time when he was complaining that I downloaded files too fast, and he complaint that it was messing with his game's performance. I paid well half for the internet connection and until this very day, I am not getting the benefits of what I paid for all because I have to be considerate to him while he does not care about my life or what I want to do with the internet. All he cares about is his game and nothing should bother him and his game.

I remember a while back, there was a dispute about me "hogging" the internet connection so his answer to the problem was "you go get your own line and internet connection".

He does not even know how to communicate with other people properly. Like there was one time our friends expected to pick him up from the airport while he did not want them to. He never even called them or let them know that he did not need them to pick him up. He just assumed if he did not call, it would have mean nothing. While our friends were calling me and asking when he would reach the airport. I had to try so many several methods of getting in touch with him letting him know that our friends were expecting him at the airport.

I can safely say that I have made more friends since I came here to Australia, and maintained those friendships while he just stays in his rooms until somebody actually has to make him come out.

Some of you might oppose what I have just wrote, I accept that but I will tell you this:
This kind of behaviour will only cause downfall upon themselves they isolate themselves from the people and the world thinking they do not need them but no man is an island. No one can truly live on their own without interaction of other people.
I am very annoyed with these kind of behaviour. All the time I am the one who takes the trouble, to get assaulted with words to mend things between me and him when I should not even care because I do not deserve it.

Good News?
Now Playing: Me - You're A God
Well today was funny.
Some people would cuss at themselves for being dumb but I just laugh at myself about it.

I woke up at 7am today and dragged myself out of bed to go to class. I was quite impressed with myself today because I had actually arrived in class on time and this is very rare! Today was so cold and was so difficult to get out of bed for it.

So I got into class and then two tutors came in to class and they were not my regular tutors which I have for my lab sessions. I also noticed that there were not many people in the class and I did not see familiar faces who took lab sessions with me as well. After the tutorial class, I sms'ed Shawn asking him what time his class would finish to see if we could for for lunch. I was still sleepy at that time and when he did not reply me I walked home.

When I was in my room, Shawn came and asked me where did I go so early in the morning saying that he thought my class was 11:30am. You know what? He was right. My class WAS usually at 11:30am and I was like... nuts. I do not know what happened to me but it was funny.

Later on in the afternoon Tim called and said my video card was ready for pick up. I have gotten a new replacement since the one I turned in was busted. However he said that World of Warcraft was out of stock and he would only have it the next day, so I'm only going to collect my video card tomorrow when I can purchase World of Warcraft too!

I really hope this would be the last of my pc curse.

What A Semester
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Too Phat - Anak Ayam
Well first of, the curse of pc problems never actually left me quite just yet, I had problems with my video card and it tooke me quite a while testing individual hardwares off my pc to determine who was the one messing around. It was indeed the video card so I sent it back for replacement since it was still under warantee.

While all this was happening I had loads of assignments and projects to do. I had to even go to university to do my stuff. It was really inconvenient. My advice to you who have to work with computers in your studies, get your own and make sure it doesn't die when you need it the most.

Since I had been to Renegade Computers so often, I'm sort of like a regular customer there, so the owner, Tim, was kind enough to lend me a video card temporarily while mine was being replaced. I tried borrowing video cards from friends but theirs was all AGP typed video cards while mine was the latest technology called SLI.

I just feel like the load of work I get from university makes the days seem like its going fast, but when during intervals between submitting assignments and receiving new ones, I feel like the days did not really go that fast, I'm still long way before the semester ends. Illusions of life.

Oh yeah a week ago, I was cooking eggs, and one of them was rotten. I tell you... the smell was so horrible. The word "horrible" is an understatment. It was traumatizing. It stinked my whole kitchen for a week and now I don't feel like eating eggs anymore because I can still smell the foul stench of it whenever I have eggs to eat. In fact I can still smelll it in my nose. Somebody please pray that this is only a temporary effect.