Her Master had once taken her
fears away and made her submissive resolve strong with a simple parable
of an Olive tree. She had served him for many years and everyday
something that happened to her or her Master brought her back to the
simple but instructive story he had related to her. Life was as he said,
he was the strong immovable Olive tree, majestic and powerful, but in
the end totally dependent on her for its optimum health. She, its
devoted gardener, always gained the sweet fruit from her tree and the
comforts of its shade, the heat of its dried branches, and the loving
strength of its massive trunk. She had learned the lesson that without
each other they survived life, but did not live life to the fullest.
It came to be, as with any
relationship of increasing enlightment, that she reached a point where
she needed to commit her entire life to the devotion of her Master. In
order to grow at the same pace as he was growing her submission needed
to grow to its natural conclusion. She needed to give up all control,
however small, to her Master. Although they were very
close and had very few diverging goals in life, they had some
disagreements from time to time and she was allowed to hold on to her
limits and decide when she was ready to push them. Her Master was very
understanding and allowed her such freedoms. He had never pushed her
limits until she was ready and she was very trustful of his intuition
when he decided it was time. He had gotten her over so very many limits
and made her happier and freer after each and every one of them! But
now, the moment of truth that every submissive wishing the ultimate gift
of submission must face was here—it was time to relinquish all her
power to her Master. No longer could she hold her limits, she must hand
them over to her Master to hold. She could no longer allow herself
certain liberties that she jealously guarded; she had to hand them over
to her Master. In short, she was to be a complete slave, with no rights
and no limits of her own. The mere thought terrorized her. She had danced around this subject with
her Master for many months now and she could not bring herself to this
pivotal point in her submissive devotions. She was afraid to lose
herself in the submission, she was terrorized that as she could no
longer say "no" and he would force her to face all her limits
and force her to abandon them before she was ready. Even if he had been
so good at knowing when she was ready to face and challenge her limits
before, it was always she who decided to release them from her store of
limits, now he would hold them and they did not belong to her. She was
alone without any walls, without any privacy, she was totally naked
before him. Her fears started that flight response that lead her to the
Olive Tree parable before as she thought that giving up all control was
unbearable and she needed to protect herself by running away. Her Master had been quite patient and
explained that sometimes in life we had to be "forced" to face
a life altering change as fear and other factors often held us back from
improving our lives. That sometimes we simply could not stall anymore
and had to take a plunge of faith into the unknown—very often to find
out that our fears were unfounded and that our new elevated state of
enlightment was such pleasure that we could imagine what held us back. When we are forced into a corner by
life we either sink or swim, and sometimes when we do not think we can
swim, we become Olympic swimmers as our taste for life is so strong, and
in swimming so hard we discover a new passion for what it is we were
trying to avoid. And so that point had arrived for her, she needed to
take the plunge of faith and relinquish even the most insignificant
control issues to her Master. She needed to become a complete slave. He also explained that although it
seems so stupid to argue over something so intangible and seemingly
trivial as who holds on to her limits the mere thought of her holding on
to her limits is in itself a form of control and holds her back from
completing her submissive devotions. But, her biggest fears of losing
these limits were really unfounded. When a Master holds something as
potentially devastating to a sub missive's mental well being as her
limits, he must himself show the strength of his complete power over her
life by knowing and judging when, if ever, a limit will be pushed or
dismissed. His care over that which she cared for before, has to be even
more than hers. Since in a consensual D/s relationship the submissive
holds on to the most important power of all, the Master must assure that
she does not dethrone him if he abuses his powers. Her Master’s
holding her limits did not mean that they would be violated without her
consent, but it did mean that the burden they created in her are
released from her shoulders and her life is free to devote more of her
soul and mind to her submissive devotions and therefore complete her
journey of enlightment. With her keeping even one gram of control, she
is not as light and free to focus enough to rise in submissive levels. Even with all this care and the
incredible trust she bestowed upon him, the submissive was still ready
to bolt in terror of the unknown even if every gram of her soul and mind
and body wanted this freedom and this final step. And so the Master,
once again patiently made her kneel before him and as the memory of the
first story flashed instantly in her mind, he began to open his arms as
before to appear as the majestic Olive tree she adored……. My gardener, in the bad season that has
beseeched us this year you have been so loyal next to me. You have
toiled so hard to keep me vibrant and alive in better condition than all
other trees around me. You have proven your devotion beyond your
own expectations. But now that the water has dried out, now that I am at
great risk of dying, you must trust me more than ever. You must walk
blindly and trust me to help you find the water I desperately need to
live and feed you the golden fruit on my branches. You are tired, frustrated, and dejected
by the difficulties that mother earth has brought upon us. You are
holding back a little water reserve to help yourself in case the worse
happens. You have the water that I need saved for yourself and you are
so afraid to let it go as your fear of death is so strong. But my love,
I need the water to give you all that I give you. I need to hold the
water in my roots so that my fruits are healthy and nutritious for you. I need to receive the sacrifice of all
that is you and all that you own. I need your complete and unwavering
trust. Together we will make it! When the thirst ravages you as the
thirst ravages me now, I will teach you ways to quench it from what I
provide you. When the sun bakes your skin, with the water that you
surrender to me I will be able to offer you the shade you will need.
When other plants cannot give you the nourishment you require, the water
will make my fruit still sweet and nutritious. By holding nothing back
for yourself you save two lives and you forge the trust of a lifetime. My gardener, I love you more than life
itself, even if my request may seem as selfish as you are for
withholding the water from me. But understand that what I know will save
us both and bring us even closer. Sure your thirst will not be quenched
as fast as if you drank the water directly, but the struggle you will
endure will let you taste all of me and give you the reward of your
submission to me. What may seem like I am putting myself first will show
you its truth soon enough. You have trusted me many time before, trust
me now when my request seems unreasonable and when everything you
believe and know seems upside down. As you give me all that you own, as you
lay naked, vulnerable, and literally put your life in my branches; know
in your heart that your tree lives for you. That your tree risks all for
you. What seems selfish is only wisdom turning the world upside down and
causing what seems a sacrifice to turn into an eternal union bonded by
the strongest trust! Remember that my trust for you is ever so complete.
I stand naked without holding anything back from you each and every
second that father time breathes into existence. I stand defenseless to
your tools that can cut my roots and offer me a slow withering death or
to your whim that can leave me die without the water I need so
desperately, I am and forever will be at your mercy. Without your
defense insects and choking weeds will eventually kill me and bird and
marauding humans will destroy my branches to get to my fruit. I ask you
to bear all of your trust on me, but it is not without doing the same
things for you that I ask this. I am as bare before you, as trusting, as
completely at your mercy; as I ask you to be for me. No matter how big
and strong and vibrant my life has been with your care, I have always
been and will always be at your mercy. You guide my life as surely as
you breathe the air that fills your lungs. Yet I trust you and give you
my fruit and my wood and my shade and my pride. I am at your mercy
always, trust me and grow strong enough to give me everything—through
your gift we will both survive this drought. Yes, I know that you cannot imagine how
giving me the water will help you. The well where you draw the water is
almost empty and surely the water will not last me as long as it will
last you. But I guarantee you that I will show you how we will both
survive and live life beyond this season and for many more. Trust me and
follow me as you must know now that I will always do my best for you. I
will never take what you are so fearful to give up and turn it against
you. Without understanding what I intend to do, I am asking you to grow
with me and give me your trust. Sure I could explain everything to you
and make sense and you will see that I am right and that I am not being
selfish. You will see how your apparent sacrifice is only a logical
move. I could tell you how your surrender to trusting me so completely
will bring us closer as you taste all of me and love even more of me
than you thought you could before. But, I want to show you all these
things so that you feel it, not know it; so you experience it not think
it; so your entire being remembers it, not just your mind. With a bowed head ashamed for her lack
of trust, the gardener surrender her water and the tree taught her a
love she could not imagine. To conserve the water she toiled long and
hard to expose his roots so that the proper roots absorb the most water
that could be absorbed and therefore stretch the little water remaining.
To her amazement even that little water kept the tree strong and it was
the greenest and most fertile tree in the valley. With his splendor he
had her lick and all the leaves in his strongest branches to gather the
due that laid upon them on the evenings. Then conserve her energy during
the day by shading her with the very leaves her water kept green and on
the branches. His fruit still moist and nourishing fed her well. Her
adoration of his leaves brought her so close to him, he saved her life
with the water he could gather but not drink and he made her so much
closer to him—she discovered parts of him that she had never thought
were there. She had new nooks and crannies to that she loved to squeeze
into and feel all his leaves and branches cradle her as a strong man
holds his woman in his arms. Her thirst was not quenched completely or
immediately as if she had drunk the water from the well, but she found a
new thirst for life and a new appreciation of the tree’s wisdom and
guidance. She was freer by working harder to quench her thirst than by
getting it all at once from the well, since she not only appreciated the
water more but also discovered more things about her wonderful tree.
After the drought was over she still found herself often gathering the
due from her tree to keep her ever so close. She found that even though
she could always take control of the water back when the water was
plentiful, she did not need to. She did not want to. She had a greater
appreciation for life and a greater appreciation for the tree that could
have explained everything to her and made the experience a lesson to be
soon forgotten—but instead risked his own life to teach her a lifelong
lesson and make her trust of him so complete. He taught her with the
deep lesson that only experience can teach that letting go that which
seemed insane to give up, was the best thing she ever did for her tree
lived and provided for her even more, he taught her and got her so close
to him that she could hardly stop back the tears of appreciation every
time she thought about it. The wise tree she chose to follow and care
for, the wise tree that she was one with, the wise tree that she trusted
so completely as to never question nor fear…for he was the wise tree
that always put her first! The submissive did not get all the
lessons of this most complicated parable but she did gain the
understanding that her Master was wise enough to take all her power,
guide her life, and put her first!
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