I don't know what happened or changed, but I am suddenly either in love or on the verge of it. I really think that all those doubts I had were caused by myself...because I put a big wall up and didn't let him in, thus causing the uncomfortable-ness that I experienced with him. Today was just had the most wonderful day. Well it really wasn't any different than most of our other days have been, but I perceived him differently...he suddenly became this prince to me, whereas before he was just this guy who was kind of there whom I wasn't sure I cared for or not. I think he could tell I suddenly cared for him the way he's been caring for me this whole time...and by discovering that, there was this spark between us that was so powerful and amazing. A few people have told me this whole time, "If you're not gung-ho over him, let him go." But something has kept me from letting him go; something has made me hold on to him. Maybe I knew deep down that he's the right guy for me...I don't know, but I'm so glad I didn't give up on us. Because now I love this guy...I miss him already and we've only been apart 4 hours. He didn't want me to leave. If I didn't live with my mom, I'd be staying there all the time...I just can't get enough of him. We are like two giddy teenagers in love. We were just holding each other today and saying things like, "I don't know what I've done to deserve you" and "I've never met anyone like you." He just makes me feel so alive...and now that I'm falling for him, he has suddenly become the most studly guy. It's so odd how someone looks different to you once the feelings are there. I've always thought Nathan was kind of cute...but now I look at him and just want to hug him so tightly...because he's SO cute. I just want to be touching him all the time...and he always wants to be touching me. We can't get enough of each other. My life is suddenly the way I've always wanted it...if it were to go away, I think my heart would be broken. I get to see him again on Wednesday. Wednesday isn't soon enough. Jessica and I found some apartments/homes we're going to look at this week, so hopefully I'll be moving sooner and won't be having to make 45-minute drives. I discovered today that his new apartment is RIGHT by Bobby Mackey's. He and I will have to go some night and visit the ghosts...hehe. After I left him tonight, I was in my car crying...just thanking God for giving me him. I met his mother today. She is pretty looney, but I actually kind of like her spirit. She and Matt got into a shouting match. It was the most childish thing I've ever seen. Matt was throwing around horrible 4-letter words at her. I don't think I'd ever be able to disrespect my friend's mother that way. I don't know...she's crazy...she can be annoying...but something about her makes me like her. She adores me. I could tell she was getting "She would be the perfect daughter-in-law" vibes. Moms can be cute like that. She HAS done WAY too many drugs, though. She took pain pills for so long that her speech and face are relaxed...so she constantly speaks and appears to be drunk. Anyway, enough. I need to find him a Clockwork Orange poster for his room...he wants one badly...so I shall check ebay or Amazon or something. Toodles.