I'm looking at Sophie Dahl pages because I thought I'd replace my Crow 2 picture (with the beloved Mia Kirshner!) with one of her. The Sophie pages keep reminding me how much weight she's lost, and I get sad because she was so beautiful as a size 14 or 16. Now she just looks like Blondie, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it isn't a Sophie Dahl thang! I had thought awhile back that I came across info that her father wrote Charlotte's Web, but, IN FACT, her father is the writer of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, James and the Giant Peach, and these other books I used to read when I was little whose name escape me...a girl's name with an "A" at the beginning maybe? Or could it be Matilda? That sounds familiar. Would look up, but too lazy. Anyway, that's crazy...my favorite model (well, I don't know about anymore since she resembles Kate Moss more and more each day) has a father whose book is the basis for one of my favorite movies--Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory! What a small world. The models I've been finding, termed "plus-size" models (which I think is a laugh) are so gorgeous. I wish they could be in the media more. My eating has been disordered again the past few days, so I'm looking to these pages to remind me of why I don't want to have food problems. I've been doing so well the past month. I wonder what triggered my relapse. It may be the stress I have right now in school, what with finals week being next week. Hmmm.

I'm really sappy and cryish right now. I don't know why. I'm not sad, and I'm not incredibly happy either. And I'm not on my period or near it, I don't think (though I have no real cycle to mark on a calendar). I've been real bad about not studying today. And I so don't care. I wish I had self-discipline about not putting stuff off until the last minute. I'm just so SICK of this godforsaken class...it'll be over in just a few days, unless I fail and have to take it again. If that happens, I will no longer think there is a God, I guarantee.

I thought I had so much to say, but I guess I don't. I'll end this then. More in December.