My Works

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"UNTITLED"
Why do you look so sad?
Your eyes frown
As you look at your surroundings
Do you wonder where life went
And if it left you
Does anyone listen as you speak
Or do your words float into space?

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A glimpse in the past
a glance at the future
sky's the limit
My wings have grown
I now fly
above and up high
New people to meet
more places to go
pretty butterfly
in the sky
no cares in this world
cut out the lies
my pain gone away
happiness is nice
I understand
what most people dont
I know myself now
better than before
I anxiously await
the arrival of a new release
to break the mold
and take me to a place
of peace

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Kissing sweet
Kissing soft
but my kisses werent enough
You were gone
You went away
You left me on that day
My heart, it broke
My heart then healed
But when you spoke
It all became real
I was left alone
I had to deal
There was no one for me to kiss
You became the one I missed
You kissed me sweet
You kissed me soft
Somehow it was
my kisses
that werent enough

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WANTING
And I'm caught
like a deer in headlights
frozen
and I need you
need you to be with me
but I dont want you, but I do
Does that make sense to you?
Do my thoughts confuse you?
And I wish I knew you better
sometimes less.
And I have to catch my breath
when I see you
and I want to grab you and kiss you
then I want to hurt you
becasue you hurt me too.
and I want you to
feel
what I went through
what I go through
whenever I saw you
and now that I see you
and I want you to feel
confused
and I want you to feel
wonderful when you see me
when you're with me
and I want you to miss me
when I'm not near
and I want you to feel betrayed
because I felt that too
and i want you to hurt
feel sad and ignored
and I want you to look at me now
and feel powerless and to
feel hate
and I want you
simply because I still like you
I want you

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PRETEND
I sat there
pretending
Oh, how I hated pretending!
Life was always good
or so it seemed
And people thought I was crazy
thought I was depressed
thought I was diseased
because I did not smile.
My thoughts kept private
for the saftey of others
And I have so much energy
And I could jump all around
but no one would notice
Simply because I could not jump as high
as them
And I seemed weak
compared to the strength of others
My mother taught me not to stare
maybe they didnt have parents
because I can feel the daggers being
shot at me
People wonder why I act the way I do
Am I that mysterious?
Are my good qualities overlooked
as people judge me because they dont know
me
I smile weakly and walk away
while my anger burns up inside
setting aflame my heart and destroying
the love I have
for the moment
I join the people I know
the ones that know me
the people that dont judge me
because they are like me
I sit and pretend
And how I hate pretending
beacuse everything is wrong
but I pretend that eerything is
alright
Save my anger for another day
and pretend
smile and pretend
pretend

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IT WAS...
It was the way you made me feel.
It was how you helped me
It was how you stopped my tears
and cured my pains
and that was how I fell for you.

It was those words you used
It was the compliments you gave
It was all the hugs and that kiss
and that stare that made me feel alive
and that was why I loved you

It was that day you stopped calling
It was those non-existent arguments
It was all the pranks and space
and all the feelings never told
and that was why we ended

It was our love for each other
It was the friendship we managed to have
It was the times we talked after school
and played around
and now that you're gone I miss you more.

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UNTITLED
My mind is wandering
I'm so confused
Nothing I hear makes sense
and I'm thinking of you

I have to concentrate on my work
But instead I concentrate on you
And no one knows that I do
Are you thinking of me too?

And nothing makes sense
And it's killing me to know nothing
And it looks like you're having fun
but I'm not with you

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UNTITLED
And then I saw him
for the first time
and I fell for him
my knees went weak
and I said hi

while we dated
we were truthful
we were lovers
friends
life stopped
together never seemed so good
and I loved him

He said goodbye
no more
cry at night
replaying the past in my mind
He'll hurt me more than I'll know
and I love him still
and I'll love him still