FRIEND?
Friend
Best friend
Is that what they call them?
Impregnable wall built of lies
To hide the secrets
Hidden so deeply beneath the surface
With a plastic, permanent smile
Just to avoid the issues
Hearts aching with the truth
The truth that has lost its voice
Engulfed in an endless sea of patronizing embraces
How?
How does the world so easily slip through?
Through the hands of those that we care most for
The gossiped words haunt me
As they repeat and pound and scream in my body
To the rhythm of my own heart
Cold ice that it is
Where?
Where did the time go?
That marked the bond of two souls
Meant to be in that moment with each other
Until one crumbled like dough with too much flour
So sweet at a glance, one quick lick
But the eggs go bad and the sugar spoils
As this 'friend' is lost
In the misshapen mind of a confused and tormented soul
With my voice
I will sing
As if the 'ff' at the top of the page will heal the wounds
That I could never even touch
And yet I am the weapon
I lose
Why?
Why would he still smile at me?
Why would she insist on offering a hand?
To help erect the battered and shattered image
Of a girl at the looks of her
It's hard to tell as the only evidence left
Has been chewed up and spit out in too many pieces
How?
Where?
Why?
answer?
None…
I don't deserve it.
2000,Katrina Rose
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