Sunday, June 1st, 2003 12:19AM

Oh the start of a new month. I love new months. They're just so... new, ya know??? And besides, I only have 3 and a half more days of school so June kicks ass.

I just spent like an hour writing a 94 line poem for school. I'm hoping to get a section started on here of my writings because I do write a lot. And I do have a good collection built up. Mostly poems. I don't know why but sometimes ya just wanna write a poem. Ya know???

I got lots of new toys for the site yesterday. You can now join a message board and just have general talks with people or reply to something I say here. And I also have a mailing list so you can just sign up and be notified when I update. And still no one has signed my guestbook!!! Rarh.

There's also a new "Me" section so you can find out whatever about me.

I want this site big. I want people all over the world to find this site and care and just be interested in my life. That is what I want.

I'm still nervous about hearing about tryouts. I know I made a team. But I just don't wanna be told I got put back on JV. I loved Varsity. I worked hard on Varsity. I worked hard these past two weeks. But I'm just scared that the new coach is looking for totally different shit than what I got.

Over at Kiwibox I got enough signatures for a Clay Aiken Postboard there so WOO!!! Now I have another place to talk about Clay. No one petitioned for a Ruben board. Shows who has the dedicated fans now.

Ya know what I just realized??? My clock on my computer is wrong. It's still Saturday. Oh well. This is still Sunday's entry. It's actually 11. Well who the fuck messed with my clock??? Rarh.

I think I'm gonna go. I wanna try to organize all the new shit I added.

Monday, June 2nd, 2003 4:21pm

I ended up getting put back on JV. I was upset. But I'm okay now. Still upset but I can deal with it. It'll be okay. I get to dance at Nimit's games, I get to be on a team with some of my closest friends, I don't have to deal with the snotty seniors, and I don't have to deal with the stress of varsity. I'll just use the next few months to improve and just show them how much I kick ass for winter. I'll be okay.

Thursday, June 5th 2003 3:57pm

I've been busy the past few days. Last night especially. I puffy painted the covers of 8 photo albums for my friends as an end of the year gift. AND I had to puffy paint a shirt for my friend Stephanie. Then I baked a cake. And I also got my hair cut. It's very cute.

Anyway, yes today was the last day. I'm sad. I loved freshman year. We had so much fun. We got out at 1:00 but we all hung out and partied in Mr. Shield's room until around 3:00. We had lots of food. 2 cakes, cookies, popcorn, chips, pretzels, fruit, brownies, just a lot of food. But we were running around so it's all good. Worked it off.

I just asked "Does Mr. Shields know Nimit???" just to see if he did in which case I wouldn't talk about him. Mr. Shields hears and goes "Why??? Are you in love with him or something???" And Holly goes "YES SHE IS!!!"

It's so funny when teachers know who you like. I don't know why, it's just funny.

Then we sent Jerod out with my camera to go stalk Nimit down. He left with the camera but I don't know if he got one. He said he did but that doesn't mean he did.

We got our scheduals for next year. Mine's all fucked up. Then we went to the office to see when we could change some classes and they said that there were a lot of problems and these are just "rough drafts". They'll be mailing us final ones in a few weeks when they get the problems figured out. I DO NOT want nor did I sign up for US Geography and Global Studies. I didn't get 2 electives. I need Biodiversity because I can't just get into college with my Intro to Biology. Mrs. H said if I go make the case that I need that class they'll give me that in place of one of the other two. And there's another class I didn't get but I can't quite figure it out yet. And I got stuck with the lesbian PE teacher. That I am changing. Mr. F has a class the same hour and I'm just gonna say I don't feel comfortable being in a PE class with the other teacher and I want to switch. They can't not let me. It's not like it's that huge to switch someone from one PE class to another in the same hour.

It's weird. I feel like I should be doing homework and I'll be getting up in the morning to go to school. I'll end up waking up anyway.

Friday, June 6th 2003 2:57pm

Today was my first day of summer break. It's been... boring. I woke up at 9. Worked out. Was dressed by 10. Then I just have been on the computer since then. I'm thinking of going and starting a book I've been wanting to read. Tonight's graduation for the seniors but I don't wanna go anymore. I mean the 2 I know I'm going to their graduation parties so it's not like I'll never see them again. Plus we're going out for a family dinner so it'd be a time crunch and I just don't wanna deal with that.

Yes, I worked out this morning. I did 4 miles in 15 minutes on the bike and I did buttkicks for 4 minutes straight. I used to hate buttkicks but I love them now. Weird.

It is freezing in this house!!! It's not hot out but it's raining and so we have the windows closed so my dad turned the air on. I'm SO cold. I have on long pants and a big old lady sweater and I'm still freezing. My fingers like barely move enough to type this.

I got like 11 hours of sleep last night. I was tired because yesterday I still had to get up at 6 and we were running around after school. So last night I fell asleep at 10 and I woke up at 9. That's nice. I love it. By next week I'll be in summer mode. I love staying up late. I just like night.

Next week really is my only week of true summer though. We start dance practice on the 16th 3 times a week. They aren't mandatory but I still should go. They start at 9 and go until 12. But then if I'm really tired I can just come home and sleep for a few more hours.

I think I will go start that book.

Monday, June 9th 2003 3:26pm

First really good day of summer. Friday my dad was home all day so that was no fun. Today I woke up at like 8:30. Then I did buttkicks again (gotta build up the stamina) and rode the bike for 20 minutes. Then I went and showered because I was gross. Then I decided my dog stunk and gave him a bath. Ate lunch. Then Shannon came over and we took my dog for a walk.

It was a good walk. My dog looked like he was gonna pass out.

I have to mow the lawn later. BOO. I hate mowing the lawn. I just did it Saturday but it's supposed to rain the next 2 days so my dad wants to do it now because after it rains it'll be longer and harder to cut.

I start dance practice next week already. Double boo. I want more time of just me at home.

Saturday night there was this HUGE ass bug in the bathroom. It had like 80 kagillion legs. It could've ate me. Anyway, by the time I got my mom to come down to kill it, it had crawlen under the boardering. Last night I was sitting here watching TV when my sister screams. I was like "She found the bug." She put a bottle of shower cleaner over it. It didn't kill it but it kept it in one spot. My parents wouldn't come kill it so finally I went in prepared with a bottle of detergent. I figured that was big and heavy enough to kill it. So with a "If I'm not back in 10 minutes, come it after me" I went in. I was lifted the bottle and it started to book its way across the floor again so I just slammed the detergent bottle on it. Then I lifted it and the bug was dead. It looked a lot less scary and carnivourous when it was dead. But I did it. I killed Mr. Scary I Could Eat Allison Bug.

You know what commercial I hate??? The Hanes commercial with the girl singing on her bed and then her mom joins her. SOCKS DON'T MAKE PEOPLE DO THAT. They just don't. I don't care who you are or what kind of socks they are.

Now that that has been said...

Wednesday, June 11th 2003 3:33pm

Oooh, magical 3:33, MAKE A WISH!!! *wishes REALLY hard*

Let's wait until 3:34 and see if it comes true...

*waits*

OK 3:34 it is.

*looks behind her*

DAMN. No Clay Aiken rubbing my shoulders. Phooey.

I've decided I'm madly in love with that man. I got his single and for the past 18 hours or so I have been listening to those two songs over and over and over. Well... I threw in my MP3 of "On The Wings of Love" too. It's a Clayfest up in here!!!

Just for the hell of it... a list of why I love Clay. Let's do 16 since 10 is so overrated. (And I wrote the list before that last sentence and just happened to end up with 16.

16. The way he can just be a total goof (ex, his little shimmy from the clip on Oprah).
15. He shows respect to everyone.
14. He's gorgeous inside and out. And I've always thought that since I saw him audition. Uh huh. That's right. I LIKE NERDS.
13. "I've become a shoe whore. Can I say that on air???"
12. The first time he met Simon he had enough balls to say "I could've been up there. Top 2." and PROVED IT.
11. He always said thank you when he got a compliment from the judges.
10. How on the cover of his single you can see chest hair. Just enough to show that he has some.
9. Those hips.
8. "It's a British song."
7. Even though he knew he wasn't the "image" of last season he went and auditioned anyway.
6. He cried on TV. Enough said.
5. He lets other people beautify him. Only a real man will admit that.
4. The fact that he's gonna be bigger than Ruben (in a fame sense, not size-wise. Ish) but he doesn't go and let everyone know he knows that's how it's gonna be.
3. His voice. Seriously, I've been a Backstreet Boy fan for over 5 years and I have NEVER heard any of my Boys sing like that. That high note in "Unchained Melody"... only Clay does it like that.
2. His personality. He's just fun and dorky and he knows he's dorky which makes him not a dork.
1. He helps children with special needs. That shows right there that he cares about other people more than himself. And I love that.

That was fun. You know what... that gives me an idea. I'm gonna add a lists section to this site. Because I wanna add to that. I'll work on that later.

I love this layout. But I still wanna make more. But I love this one. But I wanna make a new Clay one. Maybe I can combine this one with more Clayness... I'll look into that too.

Friday, June 13th 8:13pm

Oooh, Friday the 13th. Spooky. I better watch out before a giant cat falls on my head.

But then again, I don't have a cat. Which is good because I hate the damn things with a passion.

I have decided that as far as BSB goes, I'm still a fan. I love the Backstreet Boys. I always will. I support them and and dying for a new album just like other fans. But it's different now. I'm no longer obsessed with them. It's like... that was just a stage and now that I'm past it I can really be a fan. I was sitting there thinking about this yesterday and I just couldn't stop thinking about it. For 5 years I've seen myself as obsessed with BSB. But now I'm not. And I like it better this way. Being obsessed with something or someone is just too hard.

But currently, I am obessed with Clay Aiken. Not just a fan. Obsessed. And I must wait this out too. Just be obsessed and go with it as long as it lasts. I know Clay will last forever and I know that I'll be a fan until the day I die. But it's the obsession that ya gotta get through first. I can't just choose not to be obsessed. I am and for a very good reason. It was supposed to happen this way.

But I love it. I can't wait until he has a whole album out. After playing my single a few times I decided to burn those two songs onto another cd that I've filled with Clay songs I've downloaded. That way my single doesn't get worn out (I know some people say you can't wear out a cd but believe me, you can). I wanted to go by another one but sadly I have no money I can spare and my mom just won't go for buying another one. Hello it was 6 fricking dollars. She was not happy. A single is like what??? 2, 3??? This one was 6. It wouldn't have been that bad except she also had to buy Ruben's for my sister. Because even though she's 24 and lives way on the other side of town and makes tons of her own money, if I get a present, she has to too.

Good thing she doesn't know about the $30 jersey sheets my mom just bought me. Or the ruffle thing for the bottom of my bed. Or the new pillow cases. Or the other set of sheets. Or the curtains we're gonna have made.

I switched rooms a few months ago. I still don't have any curtains. There is newspaper on the windows because I can't stand having uncovered windows when I'm trying to sleep. Even if my room is in the basement there's a window and it should be covered damnit. The reason I don't have any is because we can't agree on a color. I want yellow. She want's white and my dad wants blue. The walls are blue. YELLLOW GOES WITH BLUE.

I think I'm gonna go. I have a book I'm reading that's due back at the library Monday and I'm only on page 112 out of over 400.

Monday, June 16th 3:03pm

Hey Kiddies!!! What's up??? I'm just sitting here talking with Emily about Clay. Today was my first day of dance practice for the season. I'm not happy. I hate the two coaches. The JV coaches aren't there. And well, we're just doing stupid shit. And I HAVE to help with winter fundraisers and I'm not even DOING winter. Rarh.

But I'm trying to be positive. So... YAY!!! DANCE SEASON STARTED!!!

But it's okay. I've decided being moved back to JV from Varisity has good points. Let's make a list shall we??? The last list I made was so fun. Although I doubt this is as fun as "Why I Love Clay Aiken" but let's pretend.

1) I don't have to deal with the stupid Varsity coaches.
2) I won't have to deal with all of the stress from Varisty.
3) I won't have to deal with some of the people that I don't like.
4) I get to be on JV with 4 of my bestest friends in the world.
5) I get to go to football games for free.
6) I have an excuse to go to football games.
7) I get to perform at Nimit's football games.
8) I have a reason to gawk at Nimit for a couple of hours.
9) The overall atmosphere is just more fun.
10) I'm not one of the lower-classman. I'm actually the oldest on JV. Sad really. Being a sophomore sucks.

Did you know sophomore had 3 O's??? When I made a cake for all of my friends I wrote sophomore but I spelled it wrong without the second O. You don't say "soph-O-more" it's just "sophmore". Who thought there was another O???

Oh wait, before I go, ONE last dance complaint. Today we drew big sister/little sisters. It's where someone from Varsity and someone from JV get paired up and are seen as "sisters". Well guess who pulled my name out??? Kaitlin. The girl that took my spot on Varsity. That kinda sucked.

I'm not doing dance in winter. I'm gonna be the adapted floor hockey manager.

Man, I kinda suck at this being positive stuff.

Tuesday, June 24th 10:13am

Wow. Long time since I wrote. Over a week. Oops. I've been working on another site and I just haven't made my way here to write here.

I can't find a Rolling Stone ANYWHERE in this town. I've been to all stores that have magazines and they don't have it. They aren't sold out, they just haven't gotten them in yet. I'm gonna call around later today since the stores get magazines on Tuesday. I better find that thing soon. Yeah I've already read the article but I wanna SEE it.

I downloaded "Cameltoe". I really don't know why. It's a dumb song. But then again, I also have a folder full of dumb songs. So "Cameltoe" will just get stuck in there with Wham! and Milli Vanilli.

Oh it's Tuesday. I have to go to the hospice later. I'd be more enthusiastic but some of the residents there aren't very nice. I don't think they realize we just go in on our own time and don't have to be there. They don't have to be nice but they shouldn't be rude either.

Guys, sign my guestbook. I want to know how many people actually know about my little site here.

I've been reading the new Harry Potter for the last 3 days. I'm on 500 and something. I wanna try to finish it either later tonight or tomorrow. I'm gonna get on the bike later and I usually read something while I'm doing that. Well unless I ride when Regis and Kelly are on. I rode this morning but only for 20 minutes and usually I do 30. So I feel guilty and I'll ride another 20 later.

I'm going to go read some Potter. Cya.