Midnight Remembrances

I sit here and I think about you often
Every night in fact
I think about what you would be like
had you been given the chance
What color eyes would you have?
what color would your hair have been?
would you have been a boy or a girl?
what kind of hopes and dreams would you have?
I pray every night now that God forgive me
for allowing him to take you from me
I don't know if He will
or if I can ever forgive myself
but a friend told me that God can forgive anything
I hope she is right