My Stats
Weigh Day
Year
Current
Weight
December
1998
350
3/24/01-03/05/05
303.8
Sept 24
-2007
264.5
Oct 25
2007
250
Dec 27
2007
224.5
Jan 27
2008
216.5
Feb 27
2008
208.5
March 27
2008
202
April 30
2008
192.5
May 27
2008
187
June 28
2008
178.5
July 25
2008
174.5
Aug 24
2008
172.5
Sept 20
2008
168.5
Oct. 24
2008
161.5
Oct 30.
2008
161.5
Nov 12
2008
158
Nov 17
2008
157
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Jan 20
2009
156
Total
Loss
-194
To view previous weight loss charts, click here.
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Thursday, March 26, 2009 I have been so busy that I almost forgot about this thing! So what's up? I have done so much in 2009, where to start? I did at least 4 or five 5Ks, at least two 10Ks, a half-marathon, a triathlon... For 2010 I have big goals...10K in March and the the Cherry Blosson 10 miler on April 11. I want to do the full marathon in November and at least 1 sprint tri and one olympic distance tri. I can't say it's been the EASIEST year with the weight. I tend to fluctuate betwen 160-165...I CAN NOT maintain below 160, I jet feel too weak and hungry all of the time. So as the saying goes, the journey continues. Happy 2010!
Thursday, March 26, 2009 Things are progressing along nicely with the recovery of the TT...my weight is another issue, not so much problematic, but I had decided to stop weighing myself so much and go by clothing fit. I know if I am wearing my 6 dress slacks I am doing good. When I feel my pants getting snug, I know itr is time to check myself; my eating, my activity level...everything. I am doing a 10K this Saturday, and yesterday I decided to weigh myself, and I was 162, that freaked me out, because my 6s were a little snug, but a week ago I was in 8s, so I thought I would at least be 160 or less. I want to stay 160 and less, and really would like to see 155 at some point, but that is tough. Activity level is great, I did my first 5K since before surgery a few weeks ago and did well, then I did another this past weekend and did even better. I think the 10K will be tough, though. I lost some endurance with the recovery process, but it will be better with time. New TT update pics are HERE. 
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 Happy New Year! I am making great strides in my Tummy Tuck recovery. I have been working out regularly since a few weeks post-op, but was able to kick things up a notch a few weeks ago. I'm 9 weeks out now and I am loving my results! It took a while, because of swelling associated with the surgery, to get back into my pre-op slacks and jeans, but I am now back in my 8 jeans and may go down to a 6 in dress slacks. I also bought a pair of size 9 Junior low-rise jeans, they are so cool! I am pretty much where I want to be weight-wise. Since I was 157/158 pre-op and about 5 pounds was removed, I would like to get down to 152/153, but I am very comfortable where I am. The only place where there is significant fat to come off is my butt and thighs. And I still have swelling at my thighs because of surgery/drains. My arms are OK, though there is quite a bit of loose skin. I figure that as long as I continue to eat healthy and train for these races and work out, then I will continue to change my shape and experience the overall results that I desire. Yes I am entered for a 10K that is March 28, and I think I am going to register for a Power Sprint Triathlon that is on May 31. (300 Meter Pool Swim ~ 20K Bike ~ 5K Run) I just need to borrow a bike! There is another tri on June 28, 750m River Swim ~ 18.8 mi Bike ~ 5k Run. Hmmm. Goals, goals, goals!
Sunday, November 23, 2008 I made it through my tummy tuck surgery. About 5 pounds of fat and extra skin was removed. I have started a page to document my progress with that, you can see it HERE. I ended up volunteering at the DonateLife table on the 14th as planned, but made a very difficult decision not to run the half-marathon on the 15th. I have a lot of reasons, but ultimately being prepared for my surgery and being in the best physical health for that was my priority. I have no regrets.The morning and days leading up to surgery, my weight held steady at 157...I'm eating healthy and interested to see where I am at now and will be in the coming weeks. Wednesday, November 12, 2008 This will probably be the last update I post for a bit. The half-marathon is this Saturday, and then Tuesday morning I go in for my tummy tuck!
I am raising funds for Donate Life, click on the link if you would like to contribute. I am working on a web page for the surgery progress updates, with before and after photos. I'll post a link as soon as I am able to. My surgeon assures me that I will have a swift recovery thanks to being in good health and physically fit, I sure hope he is right! I have been very diligent about my eating in the past week or two, I'm not doing much different, I'm just writing down everything I eat and making sure that I drink A LOT of water and that I eat plenty of veggies and fruit. When I skip the veggies, the weight loss slows down, even if I am following everything else correctly. I am now 2 pounds below my race day goal of 160 and I hope it sticks through the next 6 days, too!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008 I almost forgot about updating!
Just a little update on things...I have been working very hard on my half-marathon training, I'm processing everything in my mind and I now am starting with the 2 week pre-race jitters, trying to combat the self-doubt and talking myself out of not doing it! I'm forming my race morning strategy, from asking people to not call me or text me after 8pm for the next couple of weeks so that I can sleep more, to charting my pace plans for each mile, and making sure I have what I need the morning of, for before (disposable sweatshirt, cheap hat and gloves to toss, tissues, chap stick, sportbeans, gum) and after (change of clothes, powerade zero, quality recovery food). And as always, I sress about the parking. Silly, I know. I don't think I have anything to worry about, I have put in a lot of strength and endurance training, done my longest training run of 10 miles and will do a few 5Ks between now and the half, to test the gear and make sure my race day attire is comfortable. Nothing like doing a long run with a shirt that wont sit right or with pants that give you a wedgie. I have also been bracing myself for what's to come after the half. I'm having a tummy tuck on the 18th and have made it through all of my pre-op labs and visits with the nurse and surgeon for my pre-op and post-op instructions. I'm ready for both the half and the surgery to be done with. Thinking about everything is almost as exhausting as the physical training. I just want to move on to the next goals, I don't think I will be ready for the Shamrock marathon in March, as I will be unable to train for at least 6-8 weeks, but I am certainly going to be ready for the Monument Ave 10K and am looking forward to running it with increased confidence and setting a PR! Most people don't think I need a tummy tuck, but I am almost 40 and with the exception of the last 5 years I was really fat throughout my adult life and youth, and I also have some bad genes going against me. It's not a vanity issue, but an issue of comfort. While I have mostly enjoyed my training for the half, I still think that 10K is the perfect distance for me. It's more fun training for it, and it's not as mentally daunting.
I am raising funds for Donate Life, click on the link if you would like to contribute. Donate Life is the official race charity of the SunTrust Richmond Marathon, working to increase organ, eye and tissue donation in Virginia and across the United States. Through educational efforts, Donate Life encourages all Americans to say “yes” to donation and document their decision to become a donor. Today you can make a difference by signing up as an organ and tissue donor. If you are a Virginia resident you can register to be a donor at www.save7lives.org or at the DMV. If you live outside Virginia, please visit www.donatelife.net to find out how to sign up in your state. Together we can help save lives. Nearly 100,000 people are currently waiting for a life-saving organ transplant. On average, 18 people die each day waiting for a transplant that doesn’t come in time. Thousands more await needed cornea or tissue transplants. One organ donor can save 7 lives and one tissue donor can help more than 50 people. Join us in saving lives by recording your donation decision today. To learn more about organ and tissue donation and how you can get involved at the local level, visit www.donatelife.net. Saturday, September 27, 2008 -4 in a month, I can't complain. I have had some off days with my eating and I survived the trip to the beach, so all is well. My half-marathon training has hit a bit of a lull, little things keeping me from doing as much as I should be. With 7 more weeks to go, I'll be OK but I need to regain my focus and ambition. It's not easy training for something, you hve to manage your work and life outside of training. I'm not an elite athlete and I don't have anything really banked on this except my own committment to starting and finishing. I still have to train and get my body and joints and muscles and brain used to long-distance running. I think my body has done well, it's the brain I need to work on.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008 172.5. Yep. I lost 2 whole pounds since last motnth. And prtty much stuck there. I was 172 for a day, that was about 2 weeks ago. I admit though, my eating has not been quite as consistantly clean as it has been in the past 11 months, I have been testing the maintenance waters. You really can't run 10, 15, 20 miles a week and still eat whatever you want and expect to lose weight. It does not work that way. And of course the less you weigh the fewer calories you expend when running/walking/swimming...so to lose weight you do have to work that much harder and or continue to cut back on calories consumed, but still be able to properly fuel for those workouts. It is a challenge. But I can't and do not want it to be any other way. I also firmly believe that sleep-deprivation has a lot to do with hunger issues. As soon as the Olympics began, that is when I started staying up 3 hours later than usual while waking up at the usual times the next morning. I felt sluggish, slacked on water consumption, and that would lead me to overeat. You can overeat healthy foods. If you eat more of a good thing, it does not matter, you might as well be eating a Snickers Bar because calories are clories no matter what package they come in. Now that the Olympics are over, I am getting back to my regular sleep routine (slowly) and I have more energy and feel better. I'm not in a hurry to lose more weight, but I still would like to be at 160-165 by November 15 and all of a sudden September will be here, and then November will get here in a flash!!! I have a big challenge coming up, I'm going to the beach on September 9 and managing my food away from home is tough in that environment. (Why restaurants at the beach have to be so unhealthy I will never understand!) I'm trying to plan ahead and will take a cooler with some hard-boiled eggs and I'll try to eat breakfast and lunch in the room using foods brought from home, I will dine out at night and will try to be as smart as I can when ordering, and I will stick with my half-marathon training while there (5 days) but I have to manage my meals and fuel, too. Wish me luck!
Sunday, July 27, 2008 Another month gone and another 5.5 gone, too. Tomorrow starts my 16 week half-marathon training program, I'm a mix of emotions about it. Can I do it? Will I do it? How am I going to manage my time? How will me eating change? Well, I have all the answers: Yes I can do it, yes I will do it, time is imaginary, and my new motto is eat to train. In fact, I'm supposed to go to 20-25 Points with Winning Points, but I'm not too phased by that. Some days I eat more than others, either because I need to, or because I'm actually hungry. Some days I eat less. I eat more protein when I do my strength training, and I eat a more balanced mix of carbs and fat/protein when I do cardio. It's not all that difficult when you just simplify things. Emotionally and financially I'm a little freaked out. Having lost 90 pounds since September, having lost a total of almost 130 since 2001, and having lost a total of about 175 since about 1998/1999; I have decided to get a tummy tuck. Yes, just a few days after I cross the half-marathon finish, I am going to be getting a tummy tuck. The date is set. I have had some bouts of tears this week coming to term with the fact that this is going to forever change my life in many ways. And the fact that it's $6275!!! That's a lot of money in a time when the economy is not great and I'm not exactly in the best place financially. But I can't stand it any longer. When I run, it's with both joy and sorrow. I can run, my body can move, and I'm in great shape and healthy. But it's sad that I have put in so much effort and to have a result that leaves me feeling like I carry a sandbag around my waist. I'm trying not to let the emotions get to me, and to be happy that even though I will have to make some rather large sacrifices, I will have this forever and it will help me for the better. My goal for August is to neither lose or gain weight. If I lose, great. Awesome. If I stay the same, awesome. I feel really good and fit. September is another story. I have a 4 night beach trip planned and being away from the conveniences of home will be a challenge. I am going to have to carefully plan my eating while I'm away and stay clear of the temptations that are everywhere at the beach. I'm not fond of not being in control of my food, I like things cooked a specific way and I like to see and know exactly what I'm eating. I've got it down to only having to really worry about dinner meal, I'm sure it will be fine. Plus I have the boardwalk to run on. Since I'm "just" 10 pounds from my half-marathon target weight, I'm not pressuring myself to lose weight at this very moment. I am pressuring myself to perform well during training, though. 16 weeks to go...
Friday, June 27, 2008 Current weight is 180! I have had a great month! Actually, a great past week. For most of June my weight held at 184, but I worked on cleaning up my diet a bit by adding more fruits and veggies and taking out all diet soda and 100 calorie snack packs, and it must have helped a bit? I also did the Scramble 10K on June 14, it was awesome! I usually gain a few pounds after a race (oh the irony) and I was up that week and then suddenly the past week I have let go of a lot! I'm taking 2-3 weeks off from running to rest a strained hip flexor, but I am walking, swimmming, biking, lifting. Life is good.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Current weight is 187. I'm on target for my new goal of losing 5 pounds a month. This is the point where it does start to really get tough to shed more pounds. But that is OK, I have a vested interest in losing this weight, half-marathon training starts this summer and I need to be in good for by November. The Carytown 10K was on the 18th and it was awesome! I knocked over 4 minutes off my 10K time and it was a perfect day. I'm doing another 10K on June 14. This one will be more difficult because it is part of the Adventure Games and it's done partly in a trail and there is even rock-hopping to be done. My goal is to have fun and to finish without injury! Friday, April 25, 2008 Current weight is 193.5, I am steadily losing. And it is not the running. Though it helps shape things up. The Monument AVE 10K went great! I beat my goal time by more than 3 minutes and ran the whole 6.2 miles. Well, I think I shuffled the final mile. I am now training for another 10K that is May 18, and then I will do some 5K races put on by the running club, and then come July/August, I will be in full throttle half-marathon training.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Current weight: 202 pounds. I'm plugging away and have been training hard for the 10K that is on April 5. I have also signed up for a November half-marathon to keep me on track once this endeavor is finished. I have read that training for a running event is not a good way to lose weight. And I agree. The harder I work, the more my weight stays the same. But my body changes and I get a lot of comments about my appearance and every once in a while my body gives up a few pounds. I just read a book about a woman who trained for and ran a complete marathon (26 miles) and she did not lose ANY weight at all. Life is funny. Wednesday, February 27, 2008 Current weight, 208.5. Current activity: Getting over the flu. I came down with it on Friday and have not been able to work out since Thursday, I'm hopefull that I will be back to the gym tomorrow. Just over 5 weeks until the 10K and I have improvements to make, still. This sickness was a set back that I did not need. Onward I go.
Saturday, January 27, 2008 It's been 2 years since I updated this thing. Where to begin? Well I guess with what everyone wants to know, thankfully I have not gained back all the weight.
I have fluctuated a lot, though, and it has not been easy. My current weight is 216.5 and I am following Weight Watchers Winning Points at home on my own. I did a 10K on Thanksgiving day and I am registered for another 10K on April 5. I am walking 4.5 miles a day five days a week at the gym and am walking an additional 1 mile every day seven days a week in my neighborhood, sometimes 2 miles on Saturdays and Sundays. I have begun a running program based on advice from a book titled, "No need for Speed," by John "The Penguin" Bingham. I also want to say that I finally had my tonsils removed in October 2006 and that was by far one of the best thing I have ever done. Monday, January 23, 2006 Happy New Year and all that jazz. It's been a while, but ya see, this little thing called LIFE has just taken over and updating this site has taken a big ol back seat. Taking care of myself and watching my weight and all those other things have not. I just don't have the time to keep up with this project anymore. I'm not saying I am completely abandoning it, maybe I will TRY to start a monthly update. Not sure though. I'm happy people still come here and find it inspirational and am grateful for your support. But after nearly 5 years of doing it, I just am not feeling it anymore. I don't feel like I have anything more to say or to give. If you are reading this, just don't give up. Don't give up. And don't pressure yourself into believeing that you have to be perfect or to be something that you are not. Be yourself, take care of yourself, eat right and move your body. Be healthy. It's not what me or anyone else thinks of you that matters, it is what YOU think that matters. When you tell yourself you are OK, then you will be alright. But you have to believe it. Do it for yourself. Not for your WW leader, not for your S/O, not so that you can wear sexy clothes. Do it so that at the end of the day, you can look yourself in the mirror and say "THANKS!" Monday, August 29, 2005 With the exception of the past few days, my eating has continued to be very good. Clothes are fitting better than they have in a long time. I have been doing a lot of walking, so I have splurged on some ice cream made with fig and some of that fresh Turkish brad. Last time I was here it was the cold and wet winter and I did not get out as often. Istanbul is a great city for walking, especialy in the mild summer evenings. Friday, August 19, 2005 Istanbul update - 3 weeks. 33, 17, 22, 32, 22, 36, 28, 15, 21, 30... No, they are not lotto numbers, though feel free to give them a whirl. Those are the Points I have eaten for the past 10 days, one day I ate as low as 13 points. Crazy, huh? Well, that's what happens when you cut out 3 staple Turkish foods (bread, rice, pasta) and eat just fruit and veggies all day, did you know they are crazy for green beans, cucumbers and tomatoes here? all zero Points! Very little meat, if any some days, and more on others. I wonder how much weight I have lost- today is the 3 week mark of my being back here and all of my clothes are fitting better, in fact my blue jeans are quite loose, I pulled out my black jeans (size 14) and they are not nearly as snug as they were the day I bought them, in fact I'd say they fit just right. Maybe in another 3 weeks or so I'll be ready to get back into my size 12s. Yeah! Monday, August 1, 2005 Greetings from sunny Istanbul. I am keeping with my good eating and am feling very determined. My boyfriend and I went grocery shopping and we filled the cart with fresh fruits and veggies. I am enjoying snacks like cool watermelon and fresh feta cheese, cherries, apples, graps, ...I have been here since Friday and I have managed to eat just 1 slice of yummy bread, which is a major milestone! Yesterday I ate Lahmacun, but I am tracking my points and it worked into my day. I am determined to make this work here this time! I have a completely new attitude and I am feeling very good and healthy again. Sunday, July 17, 2005 Heh. Well, I took a lil break from here, doing maintenance on myself, not the site. I'm still around, just trying to live my life. Not weighing every other second is working for me. I'm working out less. (As in, like, maybe a few times a week and mostly using Walk Away the Pounds. Because I may be going to Istanbul to see my honey very, very soon, I don't want to sign a LT contract at the gym when I won't be here to use it.
Monday, June 27, 2005 I'm getting a lot of hits from folks searching about chronic cryptic tonsillitis again. In case anyone is wondering how my case of it is going, it's under control. If I slack off of my rigid oral hygiene regimin for a even a day or two, I can tell a difference. I brush my teeth and gums and all around the inside of my mouth at least 5 times a day (when I wake up, after meals, and before bed), scrape my tongue after brushing, and then rinse and gargle with Listerine. Fun, eh? Sunday, June 26, 2005 I just want to say thanks to the people who have left messages in my guest book in the past few weeks. I guess I'm not surprised that some gutless wonder decided to leave me a nameless and unmotivating message
Oh, I also want to say that people can say whatver they want to say, good, bad, ugly. I'm not so much into the ego-stroking thing, but at least sign your [real] name and give an email address. My goals are ever evolving, and I have stood by my goal to exercise and to eat right and not weigh myself. I feel so much better. My gym membership expired and I'm not signing a new longterm contract because plans are in the works for a visit with my handsome boyfriend. Tuesday, June 14, 2005 Okay, so I have calmed down from my little tantrum (could you hear my stomping and jumping up and down?) and am in a slightly better mood. I do feel less pressure from within at the idea of not weighing myself. I have not even glanced at the scales in almost 2 weeks and I think I'll give it another 2 weeks and see what's up. (Or down?) By the way, who are all of you? I'm getting lots of visitors to my site from all over the place and would just like to know who are you and how you found me? If you could sign my Guest Book, I'd appreciate it. Friday, June 10, 2005
It's been a while... I have to admit I am going through a rebellious stage right now. Where is it coming from, you ask? I think I have this "I'm not good enough," thing going on. There is a difference between feeling worthy, and feeling like I'm good enough for something, okay. I know I am worthy of taking good care of myself, eating right, exercising, I am worth all of that. But then I feel like, no matter what I do or how hard I try, I am not enough...my efforts are not enough. I will eat clean and exercise for a whole month and not lose any weight. I will lose 125 pounds and that wont be enough to make me enough to be a WW leader, because by their standards I'm not good enough because I have not reached their weight ranges, and fat chance of that ever happening since I have gained back some weight and feel absolutely like I have no idea how I ever did it (lost so much weight) in the first place and have no idea how I'm going to ever get back down to 179 pounds, especially with the way things are going right now and the fact that I just have a very bad attitude right now. Was that a ramble? I'm sick of it. All my life, I never felt like I was good enough. I was made to weigh-in as a kid, I've been on and off of diets for as long as I can remember. I mean, isn’t it a shame that so many of my most vivid childhood memories are of being told what I can and can't eat and how much and you lost weight this week or not, no don't eat 2 hot dogs only eat one... I feel like I am a prisoner. I am in a permanent jail of not meeting up to the standards of what other people, and unfortunately even myself, think and feel I should weigh and look like. I can't even acceptably FEEL the way I feel for fear that someone will say I'm being too hard on myself or that I'm being unrealistic, when it does not get any more "real" than the way I feel right now. I'm not going to weigh myself for a while. I have not been to the gym in a week, but I'm going to start back tomorrow. I need to get my eating back on track, I need to take better care of myself. I do put a lot of pressure on myself, more than anyone will ever know. I am my own worst enemy when it comes to this weight stuff, and I've always known it. Thursday, May 26, 2005
Yesterday I sent an email to a DR at the big medical university here to inquire about having my metabolism tested. They used to have a somewhat well known weight loss clinic that did the whole thing of weighing you under water, as well hooking you up to a fancy machine (metabolic cart) to calculate resting and active metabolic rates. Apparantly their equipment died and with the growing trend of people opting to chose weight loss surgery over clinical weight loss and weight management through diet and exercise, they now only have a device called "Body Gem," that is used in combination with some software called, "Blanace Log." He gave me a link to see what that stuff is about, and there is a lot of really cool information there. I just emailed him back to ask if the Body Gem thing is something I would have to make an appointment to come in and use, or if I could just pop in, since it does not seem like a very complicated test. Resting Metabolic Rate Calculator (estimates my RMR is 1690) "Metabolism is the body's process of converting food into energy to keep the body running and fuel daily activities. Your resting metabolic rate (RMR) or Metabolic Fingerprint™ is the number of calories your body burns to maintain vital body functions such as heart rate, brain function and breathing. " Frame Size Estimator (I have a large frame) With a large frame and height of 5' 5", they estimate a heathy weight range od 132-150 pounds. Of course there is a reason why I am really curious about this stuff. A few days ago I read Fred's latest entry and it really motivated me to look into the whole metabolism testing thing. And then during my quest to find information about metabolism, I ended up finding out about this book. I ordered it and at best it will make for interesting reading. But then again, after reading the section from the HealthTech site about what metabolism is, "Metabolism is the biochemical process of combining nutrients with oxygen to release the energy our bodies need to function," maybe the book will make more sense than not? I'm really dissapointed that Bertucci's never responded to my inquiry about their nutritional information. At least they could write back and say "no" we don't give out that information. I had really complemented them on some of their good menu choices for us weight watching people, so I'm a little sad to have not heard a peep out of them.
Saturday, May 21, 2005 Well I have been trying to pick myself up and dust myself off after my latest leap from the clean eating wagon. I peeped at my weight towards the start of the week and it was nearly 217 pounds. It's amazing how fast the weight can come on after having lost a lot of weight. The fat cells shrink but don't go away, and when they are starving to be filled up again, there is no holding back. Today is day 5 of clean eating and upholding mow vow to be honest with myself, my weight is posted. Now I need to get serious about this, I only want to get back below 200 and I'll take it from there. Wednesday, May 18, 2005 I forced myself to go to the gym today. I was not feeling great Sunday and Monday, and I have really been feeling down in the dumps. I fell off the clean eating wagon again on Monday, I don't know WHAT my problem is. I know that saying, "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels," but it just does not work for me, because I'm a food addict and I know that food tastes really damn good. And food feels good. And even though I feel good when I'm in control, sometimes it's not enough. And I hate that it is not enough. I hate all of this. It makes me sad and mad. Anyway, I do not like the way things are going with my weight, I don't know what else to do. I have to stick to Winning Points, I can't starve myself temporarily, and I have to force myself to go to the gym. That is the only way this gets done. Today is clean eating day 2. Damage repair time, get it in gear time, get my ass back in shape time. Friday, May 13, 2005
So I watched Oprah yesterday, all about her Boot Camp and weight loss stuff. It looks like a lot of people are having really good success with it, and that's cool. But I am looking at the food these people are eating and have to wonder if they walk around hungry and deprived all the time. It is easy to get in front of a camera and say no, I am not starving on this program, but when I see a plate with a maybe 3 ounce portion of protein and 2 veggie servings that probably total 20 calories and then someone claims that it is satisfying, I just don't buy it. Especially not when the plan calls for 8 workout sessions a week. Yes, in a seven day period of time, exercise 8 sessions. If anyone can live that way for life, good on them. I'm all for making healthy and realistic changes in diet and exercise, but I don't think I could live that way. I do love Bob Greene and might buy his latest book, though. Maybe I don't "want it" enough to do all of the Boot Camp stuff, maybe I am in more of a rut than I'd like to admit. Maybe I'm resentful because I have to work so freaking hard to lose weight and for some others the weight just drips off. Maybe I'm just bitter because I have to deal with weight issues at all, and have been dealing with it since I was a third grader! Anyway, I found something really good today. I was walking around in Kroger in a half daze, because I had not eaten in a while and was feeling weak but needed to get something that I can only find there, my ALBA shake mix stuff. Right next to it was Diet Canfield's Diet Cherry Chocolate Fudge Soda. A six pack for $1.99. I had never read about it, heard about it, nothing...but it sounded interesting and with zero calories, better than eating some junk. I got that, my ALBA stuff, a bag of apples and some milk and got the hell out of there. http://www.exoticsoda.com/choc.html http://www.beveragesdirect.com/detail-471-Canfields_Variety_Diet_Soda_24_Pack.asp That stuff is really good. I was bothered by not being able to easily identify a familiar taste (albeit very pleasant) without having ever tried this before, but then realized when doing my google searches that it does kinda taste like a cherry tootsie roll pop. Yum yum yummy. Thursday, May 12, 2005 My clean streak lasted a full 26 days, and then I lost it on Tuesday. So yesterday was day 1 and today day 2 back on track. I have not been to work out this week, I just do not have the energy. Sunday, May 8, 2005 Happy Mother's Day!
I had a 7 Point breakfast and then we went for an early Mother's Day "dinner." I got exactly what I had planned. Salad Vivaldi con Pollo & Bello - Salad Vivaldi (Baby field greens tossed in balsamic vinaigrette, with plum tomatoes,
I would LOVE to know the nutritional values of those two! The salad's only caloricaly significant ingrediant was the balsamic vinaigrette, and since I'm kinda new to salad dressings, I have no idea about those calories. There was oil in that dressing, I know that! *edit* found a balsamic vinaigrette for "Au Bon Pain." Probably Bertucci's was different recipe? More oily? More than that serving size? I ended up eating more bread than anticipated. That salad usually comes with a wedge of a thin kind of crispy bread, this time there was a thick slice of Italian bread on the bottom that I could not resist eating. I ate one and a half rolls, their rolls are small, but dense. With my banked Points and banked AP's I think I am okay, though. Only problem is how to make it through the night. I don't like early dinner. To avoid a crowd, I end up eating a decent meal and then feeling like I will starve all night. I'll cut up some veggies later and maybe have a glass of milk an hour or so before bed. But even if I am somewhat over Points, I still feel "clean" about my eating, because I did not just eat for the sake of eating, and I did not eat junk food and I did not have a binge. Saturday, May 7, 2005 Today is day 24 of clean eating. Am I dissapointed that I had a 1 pound loss this week? Yes. Am I proud of myself for sticking with it, because I do feel healthier? YEssssss! Tuesday, May 4, 2005 Today was day 21 of clean eating! It has gotten easier, but it still is a sensitive issue. And today was the 1 year ani of my guy going back to his country after having lived here in VA for 3 years. Waaaaa. I'm not craving sugar at all, but I had the urge to chow down on anything crunchy today. I know it is emotional, I just resisted and stayed out of the kitchen and dealt with the feelings I was having without stuffing them down with eating. Thursday, April 28, 2005 Day 15 of eating clean. I was feeling very weak today, but made it through okay. Lots of people are doing web searches for "chronic cryptic tonsillitis" and "cryptic tonsillitis" and landing here on this page. I just wanted to say "hi" to you all, and that I am using an aggressive oral hygiene routine and it seems to be going good. I brush my teeth after I eat anything! I also use a tongue scraper after I eat, and I gargle with an antiseptic rinse after I eat anything. It's a bit of a pain in the ass, but that's life! Monday, April 25, 2005 So while I was glad to get back to the gym today, I was disgusted by what I was seeing in the wall-to-wall mirrors in the free-weights area. Compared to where I was this time 2 years ago, I am way out of shape! I have a lot of work to do. But my eating has been better than it has been in maybe a year or so! Tomorrow is day 13 of "clean eating" and it feels so good! Saturday, April 23, 2005 Today is day 10 of what I am now calling "clean eating." That means staying within my Points range (yes I am doing Winning Points) every day and no mishaps. Still not back to exercising, but hope to get back to the gym on Monday. Saturday, April 16, 2005 It's been a bad past few weeks, feeling bad, eating bad, everything crazy. I hope I am going to be back on the right path immidiately. Today is day 3 of eating clean, so I hope this is the start of something good. Monday, April 11, 2005 Well, I have not done very well at updating, have I? I have been feeling very depressed and then came down with tonsilitis. I have a condition called chronic cryptic tonsillitis. The tonsils contain many small pockets and infoldings called crypts, which can trap small food particles and other debris. This can produce small, white stone-like particles called tonsilliths, composed of bacteria and dead cells, which are foul-smelling, can prolong the infection. It's pretty gross. When I am at my most stressed, I tend to get a flare-up of this. I went to the DR on Thursday and am taking an antibiotic. Friday, April 1, 2005
I want to keep this real, so I just wanna say that I have really been having a tough time with my eating lately. I struggle with emotional eating, and being 6000 miles away from the love of my life, among other things in life, is just making me crazy! Seeing myself yo-yo with my weight does not help matters, so I am trying my hardest to keep things in line. It is a day at a time struggle. Also, after 4 years with WW, I think my body is fighting as hard to keep weight on as I am fighting to keep the weight off! I am going to keep this "diet" style of journal seperate from my workout diary. I think this will give me a better oportunity to express myself once I post my weigh-ins. Thanks for popping in. Monday, March 21, 2005 I intentionally dodged my Saturday weigh-in. Had a not so great week, which started Saturday the 12th, my birthday. Then Tuesday and Wednesday I was completely off program, but pulled myself up on Thursday and have done well since. I keep saying to myself, if it is to be it is up to me. I want to get back to 180-185 pounds. I have to make it happen.
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| Goal | Weight | Date Achieved |
| 25 pounds | 278.8 | 6/22/01 |
| First 10% | 273.8 | 7/20/01 |
| 50 pounds | 253.8 | 11/02/01 |
| Second 10% | 246.8 | 12/07/01 |
| 75 pounds | 228.8 | 4/12/02 |
| Third 10% | 222.8 | 4/26/02 |
| 100 pounds | 203.8 | 8/23/02 |
| Fourth 10% | 200.8 | 10/04/02 |
| Fifth 10% | 180.8 | 06/20/03 |
| 125 pounds | 178.8 | ? |
| Personal Goal | 165 | ? |
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