| Project Fourteen - The January Project
Freewrite (choose one or more of the following
words and go with it): |
She
She would be
34 years old today.
She was so
full of light and potential when she entered the world.
She was an
angel from birth.
She never got
the chance to realize who and what she could have been.
The reasons
she’s not here in body no longer matter.
Her spirit
will live on, through me, and through those who love her.
Always
She never got
the chance to see so many things.
- Man walking on the moon
- The taste of her first birthday cake
- The confusing war in Vietnam
- The joy of her first day of school
- The questionable antics of Richard Nixon
- Being picked on, and subsequently protected by 2 older brothers
- The 200th birthday of a nation whose morals have been in steady decline ever since
- The warmth of the sun, and the jubilation of summer vacations
- The birth, and guilty pleasure, of cable television
- The silly fun of dancing to cheesy 80’s music
- The smell of fresh baked cookies, and the taste of hot cocoa on a cold winters day
- The mystery and pain of a fathers abandonment
- The family bonding that ensued because of it
- The first days of middle school and high school, big brother always watching
- The horror of Jonestown Guyana, presidential assassinations, and the Challenger disaster
- The feeling of a first kiss
- Falling in love, and having her heart broken, being consoled by an understanding family
- Ringing in New Years, and new decades, with promise and hope abundant in each one
- The worry, turned patriotic jubilation of celebrating one brothers return from Desert Storm
- Watching with hopeful pride as one brother overcomes a handicap, while another strives with potential to find himself
- Family reunions and get togethers
- The amazement at learning and seeing new things
Her life cut short, but her
spirit lives on, inside me, forever.
She is inside
me, above me, watching over me.
Through me she will see, feel, touch, taste, and love those things which she
never got the chance to.
This
realization is a new beginning.
This new year, century and decade begin with her where she’s always been, but with me now realizing.
There is an
angel in my life, who will always be there.
Failure, or
success, happiness or sad, feeling things she never could, seeing things she
always wanted.
The past, I
will recant through my letters to her, the future, she will live, see and
breathe
through me.
Every future
is potential; the key is not in realizing, but in doing something with it.
The path to forever is predestined, invisible and unveiled only upon each
step
Everyday, I
think about what could have been, but also realize what can be.
Eyes that
never opened, will see the world through mine.
Ears that
never heard, will absorb reality through mine.
A soul that
never felt, will live forever through me.
She has guided
me, sight unseen, through life’s travails and will continue to.
She will watch
over me, guiding me when necessary.
She will let
me learn painful lessons, when they benefit me.
As payment for
her being my angel, she will live the life she never got, through me.
Her soul has
left a permanent imprint on min.
I awaken to the realization that her touch
has always been on my life.
I miss you
Alicia, I miss my big sister.
Happy Birthday
She
would have been 34 years old today
(click on pictures to enlarge)
She
may be the face I can't forget, a trace of pleasure or regret
May
be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She
may be the song that summer sings
May
be a hundred different things
She
may be the beauty or the beast
May
turn each day into a heaven or a hell
She
may be the mirror of my dreams
She
may be the love that cannot hope to last, may come to me from shadows of the
past
That
I'll remember till the day I die
She
may be the reason I survive, the why and wherefore I'm alive
The
one I'll care for through the rough and ready years
Me
I'll take her laughter and her tears, and make them all my souvenirs
For
where she goes I've got to be, the meaning of my life is
she
