This is what I know of my dad, this is ALL I think of when I think of my dad, hopefully you don't relate
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When I was eight I sat at a small playschool table in a small room with mirored walls. They watched me from afar, I was like a science experiment. In my fragile hands I held a bunny- it was stuffed with cotton and had a bow around it's ear. I held it for comfort, I was to signal with it if I got too scarred. Across from me sat a balding man too large for the tiny chair but sat there still. He looked at my with admiratation and coxed me with games and candy. It was my father that sat there and for the last time I played games with him. One year previous I fell asleep on the couch, one year previous my mother asked if I wanted to go with her, but I wanted to sleep. I f I could go back perhaps I would have gone that night. When I woke up that night I was in my bed. I had not fallen asleep there, but my father hovered over me. I was seven years old and did not realize what was going on. He had no cloths on and neither did I. I tried tried to roll over causually, but he was stornger than I. I heard the front door open, my mom had returend and my dad leapt from my bed and threw my cloths back on. I didn't think what he was doing was wrong until I saw the fear in his face. Soon my mom entered my room and kissed me good night- I left my eyes closed. After the house had settled, I went to the bathroom- my panties were ripped and I took them off and hid them underneath the toilet paper in the trash can. I cried myself to sleep- I didn't understand what had just happend to me. I had been molested, by the man I ever loved and as he sat across from me I knew that I would not see him until I turned 18... I didn't know what that meant at the time. I left my thearapist's office at eight years old, glad that my father had been punished. Now I sit at my computer at 16 wishing I had left with a struggle. It's been 8 years since I've seen my father I miss him more than anything. I've forgiven him now I realize people make mistakes and I know that he has gotten help. I still have two years to wait until I can see him again, I can hardly wait.