Avery,

From the day you were born, our lives have been changed dramatically. Most people think that I would be talking about the fact that you were born with cancer. And, yes, that is part of it. We learned all about a whole new world that we once knew nothing about. Never once in my dreams did I imagine having a child with cancer, but then again, I never once dreamed of having a daughter as special as you. I watched helplessly as you suffered through surgeries, Chemo, hair loss, sickness, seizures, fevers, weight loss,and tons of other things a baby, or anyone for that matter, should not have to go through.

I also watched as you amazed doctors and nurses with your strength, your laughter, your fiesty nature and your ability to overcome all odds they placed against you.

You have proved yourself, my little angel, like no other child should have to. You are here. And in that statement alone tells all about your personality. It takes a special kind of person to come through what I watched you go through, and a true angel to come through so gracefully and full of life.

I prayed so hard for a little girl and God answered that prayer. Therefore, I am blessed. And though you may not be what others consider a perfect little girl, you are perfect for us. I could not have dreamed of a prettier or sweeter little girl. You have brought us so many gifts. Your unconditional love and acceptance. Your laughter and even your fits are special to us. At least we have you here to throw them!

Yes, our lives have changed. I think for the better. I have learned so much from you. I have learned to cherish every minute that I have with you three kids. For we know like no other mom and dad how short life really can be. Any one of you three could be gone in an instant. Most parents agree with this, but we know it in our hearts and are reminded of it everyday. I have learned that a person can endure so much more than any one could imagine and still come through healthy and happy. I am learning patience and trust for I do not know when or if the cancer will come back but God does and He will will hold you in his hands and give us the strength to make it through whatever we must face, just like he has for the last two years. He has yet to fail us.

I would never trade a day I have had with you. I love to watch you dance and sing and turn flips. I love it when you come and give me kissies. I love it when you make a mess! I love to watch you enjoy life. I love to look at your beautiful smile and watch your precious blue eyes twinkle. My heart melts everytime I hear you call me Mommy. And I know your Daddy feels the same.

So I thank God for having so much faith in me that he trusted me with you, one very special angel, to watch over for a time. And no matter how long that time may be, I will cherish every moment I have with you.

I love you with all my heart and soul.

Mommy