Suicide
Suicide ¦ Stress ¦ My changes ¦ Death ¦ My Best Advice ¦
Boy do I have a lot to say about this subject. Suicide is one topic that I don't like to hear about but I love to argue about. It frustrates me when someone tells me they want to kill themself, and in an other way it makes me sad and hurt because as hard as I try to help they wont listen, they wont take the time and think.
When suicide is on your mind, life isn't going as you planed, everything bad is happening, someone died, you feel alone, hurt, sad, depressed even stressed. Life is not an easy path to go threw but killing itself is the most easy thing we could do. This is why people evne think about it they rather leave the world thinking the pain will end. Maybe it will but i don't believe that way. We were brought here for a reason and the reason only God knows, We all learn lessons some the hard way some the easy way. We can't control that but we need to deel with every situation as easy it may sound it is not an easy task. We follow the path of hell everyday since good deeds are harder to do then just swear and be angry. Everything should be easy for everyone (isn't that what you may think) but that wrong, life would be borring. We need things to make us learn, accident to make us think, death to make us realize that life is a precious thing that you can't just let go.
If you had read some of my bio you have seen that I did eventually tried to kill myself numerous times, embarest as it is to say now. Earlier in my life I had a lot of stress ading to the stress I was depressive, anxious, shy without much friends to talk to. My pain showed on my skared body. Wanting someone to help me, to talk to me, the hear me talk. I was hurting so much, I remember night sitting on my bead going back and forth rocking my body and crying, crying until I couldn't cry anymore. Waken up at night only hoping to see heaven. Every morning regretting that I haven't left this world. In other words I know what people may go trew before thinking of suicide, but as for now, I would have regreted if I had eventually killed myself. It's your life and if you want to change your path in life you can but it wont come the next day. You will see heaven but have patience.
Everyone need someone there for them, and that is hard to find when you are not an open person a popular person. There is always a way to find help as on the net or someone ells you can relly on. Help yourself, and then you can help others.