First, some background info. I asked Nabil out online one day and was shocked when he said yes. that was on a sunday. the whole week, i waited til he got online, he didn't, and i carried his picture around and showed anybody who cared to listen. when he did get back online, i got his cell phone number and the number to his parent's house. the next three weeks, thanksgiving was involved in there somewhere, i didn't talk to him at all. i called him at least five times a day and no one answered any of his phones. once in a while his mom would answer at his house, but not often. then, he did get back online and i found out we were both going to be at the same acadec tournament together and it would be on our one month anniversary(i don't know why its anniversary if its only a month and not a year, but eh) but when i got there, he acted like he barely knew me. i saw robbie and clauja(a.k.a claudia) there cause they go to his school, but i spent 95% walking around, a month before i get my foot surgery, looking for this guy. it was not cool...the following is a combination of the conversations we had a few days later, i was going to ignore him,but its hard when i barely talk to him to begin with.




shamika says:
you know nabil, there was something i was supposed to tell you saturday when i saw you...but as you know i didn't
Nabil says:
what was it?
shamika says:
my friends said that if their bf/gf would have done what you did, they would have broke up when them then and there. i tried to defend you by saying, oh he's like that sometimes. real shy. its alright. that was when you first walked in the cafeteria.
shamika says:
after friday and going home crying about it, i came to the tournament saturday saying, if he doesn't talk to me today, i am gonna break up with him. i have enough to worry about and deal with and he is supposed to be helping, instead he is adding to it all
shamika says:
but its obvious that i haven't done so
shamika says:
i figure that you have plausible reasons for being who you are and i shouldn't fault you for who you are
shamika says:
i mean, i like you, i wanted to be with you and be your girlfriend. i should accept you for who you are and nothing less
Nabil says:
You are way to nice to me
Nabil says:
But that makes no sense, it is impossible for you to like me for my personality, and i definitely am not rich, so why would you go through all of this
shamika says:
i do like you for your personality. and i am poor and cheap so money would have absolutely nothing to do with anything in my life but my obligations. its a bonus that you are like the best looking person that i have ever seen in person, always a perk, but there is just something i find in you that keeps me here
shamika says:
i saw it at camp and wanted to be around it
Nabil says:
I dont know, i am a lot of trouble
shamika says:
so are you trying to convince me to listen to my friends?
Nabil says:
No, im just trying to figure out if the only reason you seem to like me is for my looks
shamika says:
hell no
shamika says:
i think you are really smart, and you have things sort of in order more so than a lot of ppl i know
shamika says:
i find you interesting and i really want to get to know you more than other ppl probably do
Nabil says:
you definitely deserve better then what i can provide
shamika says:
lol, a friend of mine and i, we are best friends and usually find ourselves in the same problems, had a discussion about guys saying, oh you deserve better and stuff like that. its sort of irritating, obviously, its you i want. i don't care what you think i deserve, all i want is you. so sue me if you aren't the perfect guy nobody is
Nabil says:
yes, but i am far far far from the perfect guy
shamika says:
i could find a guy here in san antonio that would maybe see me everyday or something like that, but nobody i've ever met will be like you
shamika says:
and i am far from the perfect chic
Nabil says:
yes but you are better then I
shamika says:
says who
Nabil says:
says me
shamika says:
you don't know half the crap that i have done in my life so you have no way of judging that at all
shamika says:
i try to be as nice as i can to everybody i know, because i usually treat myself like crap or do things i shouldn't do to myself
Nabil says:
im not talking about your life, im talking about your commitment to this relationship
shamika says:
do you ever watch malcom in the middle?
shamika says:
there was an episode about the parents, the dad loved the mother more than the father and she was upset about it. he explained that if she loved him as much as he loved her, nothing would get done in their lives because they would both be totally devoted to each other. so to scale that down to real life, there is always going to be someone in a relationship that does more or gives more or even
shamika says:
there was an episode about the parents, the dad loved the mother more than the father and she was upset about it. he explained that if she loved him as much as he loved her, nothing would get done in their lives because they would both be totally devoted to each other. so to scale that down to real life, there is always going to be someone in a relationship that does more or gives more or even
shamika says:
loves more
Nabil says:
all i can say is that makes no sense
shamika says:
there is always a person in a relationship that feels or tries more than the other
Nabil says:
what if one tries, and the other doesnt at all
shamika says:
are you saying that that is what you are doing?
Nabil says:
Its true isnt it? I dont really do anything
shamika says:
but i aksed if you weren't trying at all. if you were not trying at all, you wouldn't sign on to your msn thing so we could talk or you wouldn't have emailed me back the first time i asked you a few weeks back
shamika says:
i tried asking you what you wanted out of this relationship for a reason
shamika says:
you don't need anybody
shamika says:
you are more comfortable or used to being and doing things on your own
shamika says:
i have yet to know why it is you said yes to me in the first place
shamika says:
since you sort of asked me, i feel its only fair that you answer that question
shamika says:
and if you aren't trying, it would mean you wouldn't want to be in a relationship with me at all, so you should just tell me that right now. otherwise, you would let me suffer in vain until i gave up so you could get off the hook and let the burden drop from your back
shamika says:
just for the record, i am no burden, i am a privelage, or so i was going to tell you saturday. i had a speech planned out and everything, better than what i did for the meet
shamika says:
but i aksed if you weren't trying at all. if you were not trying at all, you wouldn't sign on to your msn thing so we could talk or you wouldn't have emailed me back the first time i asked you a few weeks back
shamika says:
i tried asking you what you wanted out of this relationship for a reason you don't need anybody
you are more comfortable or used to being and doing things on your own
i have yet to know why it is you said yes to me in the first place
since you sort of asked me, i feel its only fair that you answer that question
shamika says:
and if you aren't trying, it would mean you wouldn't want to be in a relationship with me at all, so you should just tell me that right now. otherwise, you would let me suffer in vain until i gave up so you could get off the hook and let the burden drop from your back
shamika says:
just for the record, i am no burden, i am a privelage, or so i was going to tell you saturday. i had a speech planned out and everything, better than what i did for the meet
Nabil says:
well its hard to explain
Nabil says:
its how i define a relationship
shamika says:
alright...i don't have nabil's unabridged so you are gonna have to explain what that is
Nabil says:
well when you first asked me out, you seemed really cool about it so i thought you were like a lot of my other relationships
Nabil says:
meaning that we are together, but can do other stuff, but we are like sole to eachother
Nabil says:
if that makes sense
Nabil says:
and i continued to think that way until last time i talked to you
shamika says:
the very last time?
Nabil says:
the time before this
shamika says:
hmm, have a horrible memory, what happened?
Nabil says:
i dont remember honestly
Nabil says:
but do you get what im saying?
shamika says:
i was talking about my sister running into the bathroom...what did that have to do with anything
shamika says:
and i guess you weren't taking this as seriously as i thought you were if you thought we could see other ppl
Nabil says:
yeah
shamika says:
your definition of "as seriously as i take anything else i do in my life" is obviously not as serious as i take everything i do in mine
shamika says:
did you just assume that i thought the same way?
Nabil says:
yeah, with the way that you kinda just forgot about zach and like guys so much, i just assumed
shamika says:
lol, zach and i broke up after camp cause we figured it would be useless to continue the kind of relation ship that we had outside of its original habitat
shamika says:
we are just friends now
shamika says:
ugh, so you have been seeing other girls...
Nabil says:
see
Nabil says:
yeah, i thought you were too
shamika says:
no...i am not a lesbian
Nabil says:
i mean with guys
shamika says:
but i wasn't seeing any guys
Nabil says:
i figured that out after a while
shamika says:
great
shamika says:
i guess i was being too serious for you then
Nabil says:
yeah
shamika says:
and how long were you going to let this go on...until i gave up?
Nabil says:
well i just figured this out a couple days ago
Nabil says:
i was trying to figure out a way to tell you
shamika says:
fine
shamika says:
just say it and be done with me
Nabil says:
say what
shamika says:
that you want to break up with me
shamika says:
i am not going to do everything
Nabil says:
well i mean i dont feel any different, i just felt i should tell you
shamika says:
what do you mean you don't feel any different
shamika says:
how did you feel before?
Nabil says:
I didnt, and still dont know how you are going to respond
shamika says:
just say it
Nabil says:
say what
shamika says:
whatever it is...unless its this whole serious thing
Nabil says:
all i wanted to tell you is that i was seeing other girls at the same time as seeing you.
Nabil says:
I kinda got the wrong idea
shamika says:
i feel like such a damn fool
Nabil says:
you shouldnt
Nabil says:
i am the one who did the stupid stuff
shamika says:
well at least now i won't be in your way anymore
Nabil says:
you were never in my way
Nabil says:
you were never a burden to me in any way
shamika says:
i feel just like my mom
shamika says:
but you weren't here to beat me so at least you didnt' do that
shamika says:
or get anybody pregnant
shamika says:
but you are all the same
shamika says:
you take advantage of someone or you just use them or ignore them or what the hell ever an d have no sympathy or comassion or common decency for anything
Nabil says:
i am 16 years old, how can you expect any 16 year old to take relationships serious? Men will never take relationships serious until they are around 20 something years old
Nabil says:
Most people my age do the same thing i do, i mean i thought everyone my age did until i entered high school
Nabil says:
These are the only years of a persons life where they can do this, after this you are either a loser, pimp, whore, etc....
shamika says:
you don
shamika says:
don't think you can't be those things now?
Nabil says:
no, its just plain fun right now
Nabil says:
while we are in high school
Nabil says:
after that we have to grow up
shamika says:
so you thought that this was some joke
shamika says:
;'(
Nabil says:
not a joke, i just thought this was the regular high school relationship
shamika says:
what the hell kind of high school do you go to?
Nabil says:
So your telling me that people in your high school get married to their girlfriends that the meet there?
shamika says:
not all of them
shamika says:
but they are at least MONOGOMISTS
Nabil says:
probably 1% or less
shamika says:
so you are actually tryin to justify your self
shamika says:
unbelievable
Nabil says:
how can you be monogomist with someone who lives 5 hours away
shamika says:
by not sleeping with anybody else
Nabil says:
its not like i went out of my way, things just happen and it would be kinda stupid to turn it down
shamika says:
i can't believe you
Nabil says:
your telling me if some movie star asked you out on a date yesterday you wouldnt go?
shamika says:
what movie stars asked you out?
Nabil says:
just answer the question
Nabil says:
Lets say some really really really hot guy asked you out yesterday, you wouldnt go?
Nabil says:
just for coffee or something
shamika says:
then that isn't going out with someone, that is coffee, what exactly did you do and how many did you do it with?
Nabil says:
that is irrelevant
shamika says:
no it isn't
Nabil says:
then what do you define as something i shouldnt have done
shamika says:
sex and coffee are a hell of a lot different and it makes all the damn difference in the world
shamika says:
did you kiss any of them?
shamika says:
better yet
shamika says:
did you do anything with them that you have not done with me?
Nabil says:
yeah kinda
Nabil says:
what if they kissed me?
shamika says:
its a yes or no quesion
shamika says:
did you kiss back?
Nabil says:
would you not if the guy was really hot?
shamika says:
not if i had a boyfriend, or at least believed that i did
Nabil says:
i mean really really hot?
shamika says:
i have been there before, once i had a relationship with a guy at another school and two guys from my school were trying to get me to go out with them, they ended up suceeding and i lost the best boyfriend i probably ever will have so i learned my lesson early and hard
Nabil says:
see you can understand
shamika says:
its obvious that you don't want to be in the kind of relationship that i was anticipating, but for me to let you go would be to let you off the hook. i can't believe what you did and how you feel but if anybody is going to end this its not me
shamika says:
this is exactly why i don't go for guys who look good. i knew there was a reason
shamika says:
this proves it
shamika says:
i can't believe i trusted you all that time
shamika says:
he doesn't have time for me, i am sure he wouldn't have time for anyone else
shamika says:
stupid
shamika says:
stupid and so very naive
Nabil says:
im not going to end this
shamika says:
why not
Nabil says:
cause you would have done the same in my situation
shamika says:
so you don't think there is any reason for us to quit
Nabil says:
well do you have a problem with the seeing of other girls?
shamika says:
hell yeah nabil its obvious that i do
Nabil says:
but just as little meaningless things
shamika says:
what do you mean little meanignless things
shamika says:
i can barely get you on the phone, try to do something with you, hell i can 't even see you and these other ( i am not going to call them anything cause i don't know for sure) other girls do what i have always wanted with you
shamika says:
you gotta be kidding me
shamika says:
you are just like my dad
Nabil says:
im totally confused
shamika says:
well i am completely hurt
Nabil says:
why, these girls meant nothing
shamika says:
then why did you do it
shamika says:
did they know that they meant nothing to you?
shamika says:
if it isn't me that you are hurting, its them
Nabil says:
yes they did
shamika says:
did you pay for them or something, i mean, unless you explained that to them i doubt there was any way for them to know that
Nabil says:
its because we are friends with privledges



If you read through all of that, you must have really been bored. but let me know what you think. email me and let me know what you think of the whole thing. i don't know how it happend, but me and him are cool now. i did get some pics out of him though.
Back to my mugshot pics.