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to speak with certainty about their authenticity. My decision to include
them here is based on the fact that I believe that they will touch you in
a special way like they did with me when I first read them. Enjoy!!!
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my walk with the Lord.
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December 3, 2008
For Milo
It was 8:00 AM on a cold September morning at our
home in Edmonton, Alberta, Canada.
My wife had just opened our front door to pick up her
daily newspaper that was lying on the porch, when I heard a very loud bird
scream followed by her concerned cry "Milo, Milo".
Immediately, I rushed to her side to find out that
our young sun conure bird had flown away over our garage and across the
cul-de-sac to another neighbor's back yard. Still dressed in our pajamas,
we ran towards the direction where we thought he might be, yelling out his
name: Milo [pronounced Meelo ].
In a matter of a few minutes the bird cries had
ceased and our efforts to find him were marked by extreme desperation and
panic. We went back to the house, put on some warm clothes and continued
our frantic search as we begged God to help us find him.
Milo had joined our family about a year ago when our
daughter had moved back home for awhile. He was Joanna's bird that
eventually became our bird also. When she moved out again, my wife and I
became heart-broken and missed him terribly. He was gone only for about
three days before our daughter who sensed our love for him agreed to let
us keep him with the understanding that he would still be her bird.
Up until Milo came into our life, we did not have any
pets besides the occasional gold fish, even though the kids were always
pushing us to get some. I was allergic to most cats and dogs plus I knew
that our kids, like most children, would not take care of their pets as
well as they ought to once the novelty of having them would wear out.
Joanna was elated to discover that finally she had a
pet that I would not be allergic to and that I would actually enjoy having
around. Not only myself but Teresa, also, were love struck and really
taken by this little creature. In a very short time, Milo became a full
fledged member of our family and taught us the meaning of unconditional
love better than any book or most humans we had met over the years.
I remember spending many hours with him in our back
yard or on our deck enjoying the summer sun with him perched on my shoulder
or walking up and down on the deck rails. So, from our perspective,
Teresa, my wife, was not doing anything different than she had done before
plenty of times: picking up the newspaper from the porch with Milo on her
shoulder.
Something had startled Milo that eventful morning to
the point that he had flown into an uncharted territory away from his home
and the people he loved. After searching for over an hour and a half,
we were unable to locate him and came back home devastated and empty
handed. Even, my search in other possible locations with my car had not
produced any results. If anything, I felt certain that some magpie or crow
would have eaten him by now or he may have frozen to death with the
temperatures so close to the freezing mark. [Sun conures are tropical
birds and are very susceptible to colds and low temperatures which can
result in fatal bronchial ailments for them.]
As we were pondering our next step of telling the bad
news to our daughter amidst the "Please Lord", "Why Lord did he have to
fly away?", "Thank you Lord for the time you let us have him", "But why
now...we miss him so much", the thought to call a radio station and tell
them about a missing bird crossed my mind. But, then, my wife came up with
the idea that maybe we should put up a sign about a missing sun conure on
the corner mail box. Right away, I found a nice color picture of Milo on
our computer and printed it out for Teresa to make up the sign. While she
was writing out the info, something told me in my mind to print additional
copies for some more mailboxes that were further down the main boulevard.
We were placing up the last sign on the mailbox about
five streets down from our home when Teresa asked me if I had been down
that road before. I told her that I had and that there was no Milo to be
found. She insisted that we look one more time and said: "Milo knows my
voice, open the car windows and drive and I will call out for him, he
knows my voice...he knows my voice".
Before we reached the end of the cul-de-sac, she
asked me to stop and she started calling out his name: "Milo, Milo..." and
to my surprise I heard him answering her back in his familiar sweet voice.
We could not believe our eyes when we saw him perched
on the rail of a front porch across the street. I watched in anticipation
of the moment when he would finally be safe in her arms as she gently
proceeded to cover him with her sweater.
A young girl came out to meet us and tell us that he
had been out there for a long time but she was afraid to go out to get him
because she had a big dog who was barking at him and she was also
terrified of birds in general. Apparently, she had called her boyfriend
who was contemplating to leave work and come over to catch him knowing
that this was obviously a special bird and somebody's dear pet.
We had just finished thanking the young girl for her
concern when I was overwhelmed by great emotion. Right there and then, in
the middle of the street, I almost collapsed and full of tears I
turned towards heaven and loudly thanked Jesus for helping us find him.
I was shaking uncontrollably, crying and thanking God
for saving his life as we made the joyful short trip back home. I remember
asking my wife for some private time of prayer as I proceeded to a room
downstairs for a talk with our Lord.
I cried many tears that morning. But these were tears
of joy not only for Milo's deliverance but for mine also. You see, it was
not that long ago when I was lost. However, the good shepherd knew that I
would know His voice when He searched in the wilderness to find me. Milo
and I were lost and then found because our Lord and master did not give up
on us and found us.
The more I spend time with Milo the more I realize
how special he is. As I rub the back of his neck very gently, I remind him
and myself that he was created just for me. I believe that God wanted to
teach me the meaning of unconditional love and that is why he brought Milo
into my life.
Milo has brought our family a special appreciation
for God's creation and a unique understanding for all loving relationships
between pets and their owners. And, as I look at other pets, I can't help
but think of Milo. I see the love in their eyes which reminds me of him. I
see their dependence on us their masters and I long to feel that same need
for our Lord.
Teach me oh Lord to be dependent on you always and if I
ever lose my way, please do not give up on me and call out my name for I
will know your voice and I will answer the call.
John Costouros
The smell of
rain
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A cold March
wind danced around the dead of night in Dallasas the doctor walked into the
small hospital room ofDiana Blessing. She was still
groggy from surgery.
Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselvesfor the latest news.
That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forcedDiana, only 24-weeks
pregnant, to undergo an emergencyCesarean to deliver the couple's
new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing.
At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces,they already knew she was
perilously premature.
Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs.
"I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindlyas he could.
"There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through thenight, and even then, if by
some slim chance she does makeit, her future could be a
very cruel one."
Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctordescribed the devastating
problems Dana would likely faceif she survived.
She would never walk, she would never talk, she wouldprobably be blind, and she
would certainly be prone toother catastrophic conditions
from cerebral palsy tocomplete mental retardation,
and on and on.
"No! No!" was all Diana could say.
She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had longdreamed of the day they would
have a daughter to become afamily of four.
Now, within a matter of hours, that dreamwas slipping away
But as those first days passed, a new agony set in forDavid and Diana. Because
Dana's underdeveloped nervous system wasessentially "raw", the
lightest kiss or caress onlyintensified her discomfort,
so they couldn't even cradletheir tiny baby girl against
their chests to offer thestrength of their love.
All they could do, as Danastruggled alone beneath the
ultraviolet light in the tangleof tubes and wires, was to
pray that God would stay closeto their precious little
girl.
There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger.
But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce ofweight here and an ounce of
strength there.
At last, when Dana turned two months old her parents were able to
hold her in their arms for the very first time.
Andtwo months later, though doctors
continued to gently butgrimly warn that her chances
of surviving, much less livingany kind of normal life, were
next to zero, Dana went homefrom the hospital, just as
her mother had predicted.
Five years later, Dana was a petite but feisty younggirl with glittering gray
eyes and an unquenchable zest forlife.
She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental orphysical impairment. Simply,
she was everything a littlegirl can be and more. But
that happy ending is far from theend of her story.
One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near herhome in Irving, Texas, Dana
was sitting in her mother's lapin the bleachers of a local
ball park where brotherDustin's baseball team was
practicing.
As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother andseveral other adults sitting
nearby when she suddenly fellsilent.Hugging her arms across her
chest, little Dana asked,"Do you smell that?"
Smelling the air and detecting the approach of athunderstorm, Diana replied,
"Yes, it smells like rain."
Dana closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?"
Once again, her mother replied,"Yes, I think we're about to
get wet. It smells like rain."
Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted herthin shoulders with her small
hands and loudly announced,
"No, it smells like Him.
It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest."
Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down toplay with the other children.
Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed whatDiana and all the members of
the extended Blessing familyhad known, at least in their
hearts, all along.
During those long days and nights of her first two monthsof her life, when her nerves
were too sensitive for them totouch her, God was holding
Dana on His chest and it is Hisloving scent that she
remembers so well.
"I can do all things in Him who strengthens me."
BE PROUD OF YOUR SCARS
Some years ago, on a hot summer day in south Florida, a little boy
decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole that was behind his
house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back
door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into
the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the
lake, an alligator was swimming
toward the shore.
In the house, his mother was looking out the window. She saw the two
as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, she ran toward
the water, yelling to her son as loudly as she could. Hearing her
voice, the little boy became alarmed, and made a U-turn to swim to his
mother. It was too late. Just as he reached her, the alligator
reached him. From the dock, the
mother grabbed her little boy by the arms, just as the alligator
snatched his legs. That began a very incredible tug-of-war between the
two. The alligator was much stronger than the mother, but the mother
was much too passionate to let go.......A farmer happened to drive by,
heard her screams, raced from his truck, took aim, and shot the
alligator. Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the
little boy survived. His legs were extremely scarred by the
vicious attack of the animal. On his arms, there were deep scratches
where his mother's fingernails dug into his flesh, in her effort to
hang on to the son she loved.
The newspaper reporter who interviewed the boy after the trauma asked
the boy if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs.
Then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, "But look at my
arms. I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my Mom
wouldn't let go."
You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too. No,
not from an alligator, but the scars of a painful past. Some of those
scars are unsightly, and have caused us deep regret. But, some wounds,
my friend, are because God has refused to let go. In the midst of your
struggle, He's been right there, holding on to you.
The Scripture teaches that God loves you. You are a child of God. He
wants to protect you, and provide for you in every way. But,
sometimes, we foolishly wade into dangerous situations, not knowing
what lies ahead. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril and
we forget that the enemy is waiting to attack. That is when the
tug-of-war begins. If you have the scars of His love on your arms, be
very, very grateful. He will not ever let you go.
Never judge another person's scars, because you don't know how they
got them.
A candle is not dimmed by lighting another.
BEAUTIFUL PENCIL DRAWINGS
A
friend of a friend sent these drawings to me and I love them as much as
they did.
Christ
laughing and grinning.....a concept rarely seen before.
It is these images of
Christ that touch my heart as I ponder about the future of a loved one
who was just like the little boy in the drawings
below.
As he is going
through some growing pains and he is facing a crossroad of adult choices,
my thoughts and prayers are focusing on him once again.
I look at the images
of Christ and draw power and hope. Power...because I know that Christ is
in control. Hope...because our God is compassionate and wants the best
for His children.
To him , I say, have courage and faith! No
matter what troubles may come your way, do not forget that your greatest
enemy, Satan, is a defeated foe! Your God and Savior Jesus settled that
issue two thousand years ago on the cross. Jesus will never leave you nor
forsake you!
Who packed your
parachute today?
Charles
Plumb was a U.S. Navy jet pilot in Vietnam. After 75 combat missions, his plane was
destroyed by a surface-to-air missile. Plumb ejected and parachuted
into enemy hands. He was captured and spent 6 years in a communist Vietnamese
prison. He survived the ordeal and now lectures on lessons learned from
that experience.
One day, when Plumb and
his wife were sitting in a restaurant, a man at another table came up and
said, "You're Plumb! You flew jet fighters in Vietnam from the aircraft
carrier Kitty Hawk. You were shot down!"
"How in the world
did you know that?" asked Plumb.
"I packed your
parachute," the man replied. Plumb gasped in surprise and gratitude.
The man pumped his hand
and said, "I guess it worked!"
Plumb assured him,
"It sure did. If your chute hadn't worked, I wouldn't be here today."
Plumb couldn't sleep
that night, thinking about that man. Plumb says, "I kept wondering what he
might have looked like in a Navy uniform: a white hat, a bib in the back,
and bell-bottom trousers. I wonder how many times I might have seen him and
not even said 'Good morning, how are you?' or anything because, you see,
I was a fighter pilot and he was just a sailor."
Plumb thought of the
many hours the sailor had spent on a long wooden table in the bowels of the ship,
carefully weaving the shrouds and folding the silks of each chute,
holding in his hands each time the fate of someone he didn't know.
Now, Plumb asks his
audience, "Who's packing your parachute?" Everyone has someone who provides what
they need to make it through the day. Plumb also points out that he needed
many kinds of parachutes when his plane was shot down over enemy
territory-he needed his physical parachute, his mental parachute, his emotional
parachute, and his spiritual parachute.He called on all these supports
before reaching safety.
Sometimes in the daily
challenges that life gives us, we miss what is really important. We may
fail to say hello, please, or thank you, congratulate someone on
something wonderful that has happened to them, give a compliment, or just do
something nice for no reason.
As you go through this
week, this month, this year, recognize people who pack your parachute. I am
sending you this as my way of thanking you for your part in packing my
parachute!! And I hope you will send it on to those who have helped pack
yours!
Sometimes, we wonder
why friends keep forwarding jokes to us without writing a word, maybe this
could explain: When you are very busy, but still want to keep in touch,
guess what you do ---you forward jokes. And to let you know that you are
still remembered, you are still important, you are still loved, you are still
cared for, guess what you get ? --- A forwarded joke.
So my friend, next time
if you get a joke, don't think that you've been sent just another
forwarded joke, but that you've been thought of today and your friend on the other
end of your computer wanted to send you a smile.
{ My many thanks to Eduardo, my Mexican friend, for
e-mailing me the above story}
Scripture
Moment
For Kyle
One day when I was a
freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class walking home from
school. His name was Kyle. It looked as if he was carrying all of his
books. I thought to myself, "why would anyone bring home all his books
on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend
planned (parties and a football game with my friends
tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was
walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him,
knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the
dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten
feet from him.
He looked up and I saw
this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him, so I jogged
over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, I saw a tear
in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are
jerks. They really should get lives."
He looked at me and
said, "Hey, thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was
one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his
books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he
lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he
had gone to a private school up until now. I would have never hung out with
a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried his
books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to
play football on Saturday with me and my friends. He said yes.
We hung out all weekend
and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends
thought the same of him. Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the
huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said "Damn boy, you are
really gonna build some serious muscles with this
pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four
years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began
thinking about colleges. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to
Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be
a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a
football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian
of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to
prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get
up there and speak.
On graduation day, I
saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He had filled out and
actually looked good in glasses! He had more dates than me and all the
girls loved him! Boy, sometimes, I was jealous! Today was one of those
days.
I could see that he was
nervous about his speech, so I walked up to him and smacked him on the back
and said, "Hey big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with
one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled and said
"thanks".
As he started his
speech, he cleared his throat, and began.
"Graduation is a
time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your
parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach......but most of all,
your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone
is the best gift you can give them ...... I'm
going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my
friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill
himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had
cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later, and was
carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the
unspeakable."
I heard the gasp go
through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his
weakest moment. I saw his mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful
smile.
Not until THAT moment,
did I realize its depth.
Never underestimate the
power of your actions. With one small gesture, you can change a person's
life without even knowing it, for better or worse.
God puts us all in each
other's lives to impact one another in some way. Let's pray and hope that
our impact is a positive one!
The Birdcage
There once was a man
named George Thomas, a pastor in a small New England town. One Easter
Sunday morning he came to church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and
set it by the pulpit. Several eyebrows were raised and, as if in response,
Pastor Thomas began to speak.
"I was walking
through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging
this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds,
shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, "What you
got there son?"
"Just some old
birds," came the reply.
"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,"
he answered. I'm gonna tease 'em
and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight.
I'm gonna have a real good time."
"But you'll get
tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do then?"
"Oh, I got some
cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."
The pastor was silent
for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds, son?"
"Huh??!!! Why, you
don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds.
They don't sing -- they ain't even pretty!"
"How much?"
the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the
pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?" The pastor reached in
his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand.
In a flash, the boy was gone.
The pastor picked up
the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a
tree and a grassy spot. Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by
softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.
Well, that explained
the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this
story. One day Satan and Jesus
were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden,
and he was gloating and boasting.
"Yes, sir, I just
caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap,
used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em
all!"
"What are you
going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied,
"Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other,
how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill
each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"
"And what will you
do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.
"How much do you
want for them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you don't
want those people. They ain'tno
good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you,
curse you and kill you!! You don't want those people!!"
"How much?"
He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus
and sneered, "All your tears, and all your blood."
Jesus said,
"DONE!" Then He paid the price.
The pastor picked up
the cage, he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.
Death of a Guru: The
Story of Rabi Maharaj
No matter how
fulfilling life becomes, there are always certain regrets when one looks back. My
deepest sense of loss involves my father. So much has happened since his
death. I often wonder what it would be like to share it all with him, and
what his reaction would be.
We never shared
anything in our lives. Because of vows he had taken before I was born, not
once did he ever speak to me or pay me the slightest heed. Just two
words from him would have made me unspeakably happy. How I wanted to
hear him say, "Rabi. Son." Just once. But he never did.
For eight long years he
uttered not a word. The trancelike condition he had achieved is called in
the East a state of higher consciousness and can be attained only through
deep meditation.
"Why is Father
that way?" I would ask my mother, still too young to understand. "He is
someone very special -- the greatest man you could have for a father," she
would reply. "He is seeking the true Self that lies within us all, the One
Being, of which there is no other. And that's what you are too, Rabi."
Father had set an
example, achieved wide acclaim, and earned the worship of many, and it
was inevitable that upon his death his mantle would fall upon me. I had
never imagined, however, that I would still be so young when this fateful
day arrived.
When father died I felt
I had lost everything. Though I had scarcely known him as my father, he
had been my inspiration -- a god -- and now he was dead.
At his funeral, my
father's stiff body was placed on a great pile
of firewood. The thought of
his body being sacrificed to Agni, the god of fire, added a new
dimension of mystery to the bewilderment and deep sense of loss that already
overwhelmed me.
As the flames engulfed
him, it was impossible to suppress the anguish I felt. "Mommy!" I
screamed. "Mommy!" If she heard me above the roar of sparks and fire, she made
no indication. A true Hindu, she found strength to follow the teaching of
Krishna: she would mourn neither the living nor the dead. Not once did she
cry as the flames consumed my father.
After my father's
funeral, I became a favorite subject for the palm-readers and
astrologers who frequented our house. Our family would hardly make an important
decision without consulting an astrologer, so it was vital that my future
be confirmed in the same way. It was encouraging to learn that the lines on
my palms and the planets and stars, according to those who interpreted
them, all agreed I would become a great Hindu leader. I was obviously a
chosen vessel, destined for early success in the search for union with
Brahman (the One). The forces that had guided my father were now guiding
me.
I was only eleven and
already many people were bowing before me, laying gifts of money, cotton
cloth, and other treasures at my feet and hanging garlands of flowers around
my neck at religious ceremonies.
How I loved religious
ceremonies -- especially private ones in our own home or those of others,
where friends and relatives would crowd in. There I would be the center of
attention, admired by all. I loved to move through the audience,
sprinkling holy water on worshipers or marking foreheads with the sacred
white sandalwood paste. I also loved how the worshipers, after the
ceremony, bowed low before me to leave their offerings at my feet.
While vacationing at an
Aunt's ranch, I had my first real encounter with Jesus. I was walking
along enjoying nature one day and was startled by a rustling sound in the
underbrush behind me. I turned quickly and, to my horror, saw a large
snake coming directly toward me -- its beady eyes staring intently into
mine. I felt paralyzed, wanting desperately to run but unable to move.
In that moment of
frozen terror, out of the past came my mother's voice, repeating words I
had long forgotten: "Rabi, if ever you're in real danger and nothing else
seems to work, there's another god you can pray to. His name is
Jesus."
"Jesus! Help
me!" I tried to yell, but the desperate cry was choked and hardly audible.
To my astonishment, the
snake turned around and quickly wriggled off into the underbrush.
Breathless and still trembling, I was filled with wondering gratitude to
this amazing god, Jesus. Why had my mother not taught me more about him?
During my third year in
high school I experienced an increasingly deep inner conflict. My growing
awareness of God as the Creator, separate and distinct from the universe
He had made, contradicted the Hindu concept that god was everything,
that the Creator and the Creation were one and the same. If there was
only One Reality, then Brahman was evil as well as good, death as well as
life, hatred as well as love. That made everything meaningless, life an
absurdity. It was not easy to maintain both one's sanity and the view that
good and evil, love and hate, life and death were One Reality.
One day a friend of my
cousin Shanti, whose name was Molli,
came by to visit. She asked me about
whether I found Hinduism fulfilling. Trying to hide my emptiness, I lied
and told her I was very happy and that my religion was the Truth.
She listened patiently to my pompous and sometimes arrogant pronouncements.
Without arguing, she exposed my emptiness gently with politely phrased
questions.
She told me that Jesus
had brought her close to God. She also said that God is a God of love and
that He desires us to be close to Him. As appealing as this sounded
to me, I stubbornly resisted, not willing to surrender my Hindu roots.
Still, I found myself
asking, "What makes you so happy? You must have been doing a lot of
meditation."
"I used to," Molli responded, "but not any more. Jesus has
given me a peace and joy that I never
knew before." Then she said, "Rabi, you don't seem very happy. Are
you?"
I lowered my voice:
"I'm not happy. I wish I had your joy." Was I saying this?
"My joy is because
my sins are forgiven," said Molli.
"Peace and joy come from Christ, through
really knowing Him."
We continued talking
for half a day, unaware of how the time had passed. I wanted her peace
and joy, but I was absolutely resolved that I wasn't going to give up
any part of my religion.
As she was leaving, she
said: "Before you go to bed tonight, Rabi, please get on your knees
and ask God to show you the Truth -- and I'll be praying for you."
With a wave of her hand she was gone.
Pride demanded that I
reject everything Molli had said, but I was too desperate to save face any
longer. I fell to my knees, conscious that I was giving in to her
request.
"God, the true God
and Creator, please show me the truth!" Something inside me snapped. For the
first time in my life, I felt I had really prayed and gotten through
-- not to some impersonal Force, but to the true God who loves and cares.
Too tired to think any longer, I crawled into bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
Soon after, my cousin
Krishna invited me to a Christian meeting. I again surprised myself by
responding: "Why not?"
On our way there,
Krishna and I were joined by Ramkair, a new acquaintance of his.
"Do you know anything about this meeting?" I asked him, anxious to get some
advance information.
A little," he
replied. "I became a Christian recently."
"Tell me," I
said eagerly. "Did Jesus really change your life?" Ramkair smiled broadly. "He
sure did! Everything is different."
"It's really true,
Rab!" added Krishna enthusiastically.
"I've become a Christian too -- just a
few days ago."
The preacher's sermon
was based on Psalm 23, and the words, "The Lord is my shepherd," made
my heart leap. After expounding the Psalm, the preacher said: "Jesus
wants to be your Shepherd. Have you heard His voice speaking to your heart?
Why not open your heart to Him now? Don't wait until tomorrow -- that may
be too late!" The preacher seemed to be speaking directly to me. I
could delay no longer.
I quickly knelt in
front of him. He smiled and asked if anyone else wanted to receive Jesus.
No one stirred. Then he asked the Christians to come forward and pray with
me. Several did, kneeling beside me. For years Hindus had bowed before me
-- and now I was kneeling before a Christian.
Aloud I repeated after
him a prayer inviting Jesus into my heart. When the preacher said,
"Amen," he suggested I pray in my own words. Quietly, choking with emotion, I
began: "Lord Jesus, I've never studied the Bible, but I've heard that you
died for my sins at Calvary so I could be forgiven and reconciled to God.
Please forgive me all my sins. Come into my heart!"
Before I finished, I
knew that Jesus wasn't just another one of several million gods. He was the
God for whom I had hungered. He Himself was the Creator. Yet, He loved me
enough to become a man and die for my sins. With that realization, tons of
darkness seemed to lift and a brilliant light flooded my soul.
After arriving home,
Krishna and I found the entire family waiting up for us, apparently having
heard what had happened. "I asked Jesus into my life tonight!" I
exclaimed happily, as I looked from one to another of those startled faces.
"It's glorious. I can't tell you how much he means to me already."
Some in my family
seemed wounded and bewildered; others seemed happy for me. But before it was
all over with, thirteen of us had ended up giving our hearts to
Jesus! It was incredible.
The following day I
walked resolutely into the prayer room with Krishna. Together we
carried everything out into the yard: idols, Hindu scriptures, and religious
paraphernalia. We wanted to rid ourselves of every tie with the past
and with the powers of darkness that had blinded and enslaved us for so
long.
When everything had
been piled on the rubbish heap, we set it on fire and watched the flames
consume our past. The tiny figures we once feared as gods were turning to
ashes. We hugged one another and offered thanks to the Son of God who had
died to set us free.
I found my thoughts
going back to my father's cremation nearly eight years before. In contrast
to our new found joy, that scene had aroused inconsolable grief. My
father's body had been offered to the very same false gods who now lay in
smoldering fragments before me. It seemed unbelievable that I should
be participating with great joy in the utter destruction of that which
represented all I had once believed in so fanatically.
In a sense this was my
cremation ceremony -- the end of the person I had once been...the death
of a guru. The old Rabi Maharaj had died in Christ. And out of that
grave a new Rabi had risen in whom Christ was now living.
(Editor's Note: If you
would be interested in a detailed account of Rabi's conversion, read his book Death
of a Guru. Rabi is presently based in Southern California and
is involved in evangelism all over the world. He invites you to write:
East/West Gospel Ministries, P.O. Box 2191, La Habra, CA 90632.)
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