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 Archive -- Week 60: 8/17/03 - 8/23/03
Song of the Week: Perry Como - Catch A Falling Star

August 17, 2003 - A message from Larrold
This is Larry here. Ross did not update for today, and since I have something to say I decided to take the liberty of updating his website for him (although he does not know this yet :D). I didn't want to mess around with his archives so I just put this at the end of last weeks page...I figure he can fix it later. Anyway, on to my update. 
This may seem a bit odd coming from me, but I'd like to say something to all of my friends. You see, this whole going off to college thing is leaving me with a growing sense of nostalgia. I really hate the idea of parting ways with all of you. Just a couple years ago I finally started to become social and get to know many of you, and now its already time to go off to seperate schools and such. Well before you all go I want to say something that I've wished I could have expressed for quite some time now, but I never could manage to find a good way to say it. I figured that since I wouldn't be able to talk to most of you personally I'd use Ross's website to reach everyone. Anyway, on to what I want to say. 

First and foremost I would like to take this opportunity to say that I love you all and am glad to have gotten to know all of you. These past few years were some of the most enjoyable I've had thanks to you guys. I can't think of any people that I would have rather spent my highschool years with. You're great and I'll never forget you, you've left more of a mark on me then I would have thought possible. 

Secondly I'd like to express my regret that I could not have gotten closer to many of you and that for whatever reason I couldn't say how much you meant to me before now. I greatly desire to have people I can talk to and be close with, and I wish that I could have become better friends with most of you. I know that all too often I said things that were very harsh and made myself seem uncaring and distant. I wish I could have shown you guys the nicer side of me that cares very much about his friends. I'm not saying that I didn't mean most of the 'harsh' things I said, I generally did (although due to recent contemplation I would disagree with my past self on some of his points, but thats not important here), but I hate that I never seemed to say anything BUT harsh things. There were many nice and complementary things I thought but never really said. I don't know why I didn't, it kinda felt wierd for me to be nice I guess but thats ridiculous and I don't know why I was like that. I'm telling you now though that I do care about you guys and like you very much. I'd like to repeat myself and make sure you guys know that I love you, and I'm always gonna be there if any of my friends need something. 

I'm gonna miss these days. If I had my way we'd all stay together for many years to come...but I guess we gotta go so I can only hope that I keep in touch with everyone. Please feel free to talk to me for any reason, even if we haven't really talked in a while. If you're ever bored or need someone to talk to about something I'll listen. 

Well, that said, I wish everyone good luck with whatever they are going to be doing in the future. So long. 

~Sincerly, Larry Taylor 
 

August 18, 2003 - my first university update
Why hello there! Ross speaking, and it's been an action-packed few days for me. In the midst of my surgery recovery, I had to move into school! So I am here at Case now, with my internet finally fully functioning (how's that for alliteration, eh?)... Anyways, I am slowly getting settled in here; The room is still slightly torn apart, but I have my TV and Nintendo hooked up, and that's what really mattters. I've met a few people so far, though I haven't really spent enough time with anyone to develop any friendships. There are a cool bunch of guys on my floor, some of which are into music and such, so perhaps we'll rock out at some point. I've got orientation events the rest of this week on and off, so I really have no idea when I'll be able to get back home, especially since I was unable to get a parking pass. This whole going-to-college thing seems to have happened so fast. Because of my health condition, I never got a chance to get out and have final evenings with my friends... I didn't really prepare for this, I didn't really pack or anything. I pretty much just woke up Sunday, grabbed some clothes and stuff, and drove off. Anyway, once I get a bit more settled in, and once the rest of my friends start to leave, I'll post some more rambles about going away.

And speaking of which, I want to personally thank Larry for that message he posted on my site. The message was heartfelt, though I didn't know you had my password, Larry...you jerk. Just for that, you'll have to shave the 'L' into the back of your head before you go to CSU. Alright, that's all for today.
 
 

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A shot of fellow Euclidians George and Steve at before our big class kick-off yesterday at Severence Hall.
 

Quote of the Day - Colette

I am going away to an unknown country where I shall have no past and no name, and where I shall be born again with a new face and an untried heart.
 
August 19, 2003 - taking a break
I met my faculty advisor today... He seems pretty down-to-earth and stuff, and I really think he'll be able to help me get my thoughts sorted out. As for now, I've taken a break from the orientation extravaganza and hitched a ride back home. I'm gonna head back tomorrow morning, but I wanted to hang out with some of my friends that I won't be seeing come September when they start school. So yeah, I'm feeling alright physically and pretty good mentally/emotionally, and I'm ready to start classes on Monday. That's all for now.
 
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Lyrics of the Day - "Why Can't I" by Liz Phair

This is, this is just the beginning.
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming.
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it.
 
August 20, 2003 - dorm sweet dorm
Back at Case today, though I didn't really do much. Steve-o and I went to a short seminar on Feng Shui, which was actually pretty cool. It inspired us to re-arrange our room, and probably this weekend, we're gonna go shopping for some fabric and a few artistic posters to add some flavor to our humble abode. We have a fridge and a carpet on the way, and in turn, we're on our way to having a comfortable living space.

As far as the evening went, I grabbed a bite to eat with Larry, Trevor, and Katy, which was very nice... It's making me kind of sad to be having these "Final Dinners" with people... Last night with a good amount of my friends, and then today. It's really setting in now that we're all going our seperate ways, perhaps to never cross paths again. The goodbyes in the guestbook and whatnot just add to this feeling of leaving behind the past. I mean, I want to move forward to and through my college life, but high school is a hard chapter to close. I guess it's just because I've poured out so much of myself into my friends, and I have grown so much because of them, and so now I feel like I'm losing a lot of what I've gained. I guess I just don't want to bid farewell. Alright, that's all for now.
 

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Just a sneak peek at our fabulous dorm room... Soon enough, you may be seeing it in an issue of Better Dorms and Gardens.
 

Quote of the Day - George Moore

A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it. 
 
August 21, 2003 - Happy Birthday Ashley!
I had my advising meeting today for my schedule and such; The whole thing only took about 5 minutes since I already scheduled the classes I should have. My advisor is a pretty cool guy; laid back, energetic, sense of humor. Since my sister is leaving tomorrow for New York and then Africa, my family threw a party for her, and naturally, I wanted to be there. I decided to take the RTA home... a trip that takes about 20 minutes by car. Alas, with the frequent stops and the backtracking I had to do, it took me 2 hours to get home. That's kind of upsetting since I wanted to be able to easily get back and forth from school... But perhaps I'll get a parking pass. Most likely not. Alright, I'm out for the evening.
 
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Here's a shot of Ashley from prom... She's always been one of those people I can always count on if I really need someone to talk to. That's all I'll say for now, I don't want to get depressed about my friends leaving. Hope you have a rockin' birthday, Ashley!

Quote of the Day - Madeleine L'Engle

When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability... To be alive is to be vulnerable.
 
August 22, 2003 - another farewell
Amidst the goodbyes I've been saying to friends I've known for four years, today I said goodbye to someone I've known for almost nineteen. My sister Marie left today for New York, where she'll be departing from in a few days. She's going to Kenya for a bit, and then to Zimbabwe for about three years. It didn't really feel like a goodbye, since I'm quite used to seeing her head off for one of her journeys. I see in her many of the qualities I find in myself... An adventurous spirit, a desire to help others, an appreciation for the arts, the ability to easily misplace things, a wacky and whimsical personality... She's had so many experiences, I just can't help but brag. Perhaps I'll share a few Marie Memories on here later in the year. For now, I wish her the best in Africa, America, and wherever life takes her.
 
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We have a running joke in my family that Marie looks a bit like Harry Potter, hence the picture on the left.

Greeting Card Saying of the Day - via Becky

"Because I love the stars so deeply, I can never fear the night." 

August 23, 2003 - another goodbye, another birthday
Stephanie hung out with the gang for the last time before she heads off to Kenyon... She and I were talking about leaving and stuff in the car, and I became fully aware of the fact that all of these goodbyes are actually goodbyes; that is, they're not "see you in a few months" or "see you next summer"... When we all go our seperate ways, it's not like we're being frozen in liquid nitrogen (or to be even more nerdy, Carbonite). If and when we see certain high school friends again, we will not be seeing the same people we're saying goodbye to. Up until now, we have shared most of our experiences; we have been there for each other for the good times and the bad. But soon enough, we will be in new environments, having new and different experiences, meeting other people to be there for the good times and the bad. Basically, a year from now, none of us will be EXACTLY the same as we are now. I mean, of course we've changed in the period of time that we've known each other, but the difference is that all of this time, we experienced more than the changes; we experienced the changing. Not anymore, though. Anyway, I don't know what I'm trying to talk about anymore, so I'll stop. 
 
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Not only is she the half-sister of my friend and roommate Steve-O, Chelsea is also part of the reason all of you out there in internet land get your daily dose of therosser.  Oh, and by the way, the lovely letter "o" in the current logo came from a picture Chelsea drew.

Shakespeare Excerpt of the Day - Prospero in Act 4, Scene 1 of The Tempest

Our revels now are ended. These our actors, 
As I foretold you, were all spirits, and 
Are melted into air, into thin air: 
And, like the baseless fabric of this vision, 
The cloud-capp'd towers, the gorgeous palaces, 
The solemn temples, the great globe itself, 
Yea, all which it inherit, shall dissolve, 
And, like this insubstantial pageant faded, 
Leave not a rack behind. We are such stuff 
As dreams are made on; and our little life 
Is rounded with a sleep.