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 Archive -- Week 9: 8/25/02 - 8/31/02
Song of the week: Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown
The most enjoyable thing to do is: Listening to/Playing music with 5 votes.
August 25, 2002
No entry.
August 26, 2002 - and the vacation vacated
Well, I apologize for not updating the past 2 days. I just haven't been myself lately. But I'm back now... big as life, and twice as harmless. I feel like I've been going crazy or something. At any given moment, I seem to have at least 900 thoughts going through my head. I never know what the right thing to do is. I just hope that everything works out okay for me. Life is hard sometimes, I guess. And just a quick recap for everyone about what happened since friday: I twirled my mace, I was slapped on the face, I had one last embrace, and now I'm met with disgrace. And that's about it. Later.
 
Image of the Day

That's a bunch of AOL cd's... I hate AOL. A few people have gotten together and decided to collect a million of them. Go to www.nomoreaolcds.com if you want more info.

Question To Ponder of the Day

What would you rather have, a bagel or an english muffin?
August 27, 2002 - back to good
Yikes... I just had 5 of the hardest days of my love life. We both have made our mistakes, but we're gonna put them behind us... and something tells me that things are gonna be awesome this time. They're still shaky now, but I know they'll get better. And sure, I may have lost a friend or two through it, but hell, they must not have been friends in the first place so do what they did and say what they said. My heart belongs to only one...
 
Image of the Day

That's me and Steve-o's sticker picture that we took at Cedar Point. That day was awful, but it's a pretty good picture if I say so myself. We truly are 'American Beauties'.

Profile Quote of the Day

"Things are always okay in the end... if they're not okay, then it's not the end."
August 28, 2002 - grow away
Last night was weird. Yes, the Patstravaganza was awesome... but I was in a very isolating mood. I didn't want to be around that many people, especially not ones I'm having major issues with.  Nonetheless, it went okay, I guess. Life's been weird for me lately. I think I'm growing in a lot of ways. I'm growing more to know myself. I'm growing away from some of my friends. And I'm also growing closer to certain people. And part of me is afraid I may be getting TOO close... because I'm gonna be leaving for college in a year. But then I think, what would I rather have? A sad goodbye, or no hello? I guess that's kinda trite, but still... Anyways, in site news, I added 3 rambles today, so check those out when you get a chance.
 
Image of the Day

Kind of a small IOTD, but that one's "Quaker Pat"... I think it's a good look for him, don't you?

Joke of the Day - submitted by Paul

There was once a young man who, in his youth, professed a desire to become a 'great' writer. When asked to define 'great' he said 'I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, wail, howl in pain, desperation, and anger!' 
He now works for Microsoft writing error messages. 
To a friend ~~ Just hold on... please hold on. I know you're not the type of person who can just give up, so don't. And I know it all seems so hard right now for you... and I know you wish everything would just go away sometimes. I just really want you to know that I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. And I know I'd never really say it to your face, but I do love you, and you are one of those people in my life that means so much, and that I'll never ever forget. 
August 29, 2002 - all about betsy
Warning: Today's entry is all about Betsy. For those of you who don't want to hear a bunch of mushy stuff, I suggest you forget today and come back tomorrow. 

Well, I spent ALL of yesterday with Betsy. And I loved every minute of it. Our relationship just felt so right, and there's no way to describe it. Near the end of the night, when we were at Laurie's and betsy was practicing twirling, her mom took me aside and had a little talk with me. She talked about how we all make bad decisions sometimes and stuff, and then she told me that I might get frustrated with Betsy because she can be stupid sometime, and I'm smart or something. And that couldn't be further from the truth. Sure, I'm smart. But no, she's not stupid. And I love being with her. Because with her, I don't have to always know stuff, and I don't have to be smart. I don't have to be anything but myself; She doesn't care if I know an answer or not, she doesn't care if I'm the smartest man in the world... She sees me for what I truly am, and I am so completely comfortable around her. Anyways, after her mom was off base telling me that, she got back on track and told me "we all make our mistakes, but i know you adore betsy..." And I definitely do ADORE her. And I know she'll probably never read this. But this is to let anyone and everyone know that I really do care about her, and I really do care about our relationship. And anyone who thinks they know how our relationship is and tells either of us to dump the other, then think again. Because I don't care what you have to say; there are two people in this relationship: me and betsy. And anyone else's thoughts are just speculative opinions. So... long story short: Betsy rocks my world, and there's nothing you can do about it!
 

Image of the Day

Yikes! This is another one from Cedar Point. I stole this from Betsy without her knowing... so if you see her, let her know you saw her lovely picture on my website. That's her and Lauren, looking VERY scary. The 80's style hair IS nice, however.

Betsy Quote of the Day

"We always get those giant bags of lifesavers... I eat those things like candy!"
Profile Love Quote of the Day - Kristen Kulbis
"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives." - Unknown
August 30, 2002 - summer evaluation
Ah, what a long summer. It wasn't exactly "great", but it wasn't bad either I guess. We're starting up school again today... and when I think about school I think about my friends. I talked to Steve-O yesterday, and I was telling him how I would not be who I am today if it weren't for all my friends. I honestly think I take a piece of them with me wherever I go. It's kinda like I'm the apple core, and they're all the juicy apple around me. That was an awful analogy. Anyways, since summer's over, I went and found the "summer goal sheet" I made for myself at the beginning of the summer. Here were my goals for this summer:
  1. Get a job
  2. Stop being afraid of bugs
  3. Learn piano, trumpet, or trombone
  4. Learn how to do a good cartwheel
  5. Get a license
  6. Do my summer reading
  7. Get liquid nitrogen
  8. Work out
  9. Get a tan
  10. Spend at least 3 days doing FC stuff with Paul
  11. Hang out with each one of my friends twice
  12. Be able to sing and play a WHOLE song on guitar
  13. Have fun, and fight the good fight.
  14. At least once, control myself.
Well, I did 50% of my goals. I got a job, I am much less afraid of bugs (just ask Betsy); I did most of my summer reading; I worked out for a couple weeks; I got a tan at band camp; I did Field Commander stuff a bunch of times; Not only can I play a WHOLE song on guitar, but me and my band WROTE a whole song; And I definitely had fun, and I fought the good fight for the most part. I don't think I controlled myself that much, but that was a stupid goal anyway. And there you have it, my summer in a nutshell.
 
Image of the Day (click for bigger)

This one's from almost 2 months ago at MA camp. These are ALL the drum majors that were there with me. Just by looking at this picture, you can see how amazingly fun of a time we all were having. That's one of my highlights of summer. 

Article of the Day

Land of the free, home of the fat and unhappy by J.A. Getzlaff 
August 31, 2002 - schedules, jetpacks, and reality
Well, school's here again. I don't really know how I feel about my schedule. I really think I want to drop AP physics... not because I don't think I can handle it, but because I'd rather take classes of things I'm actually interested in, like Film and Theater Arts. I intend on going to a film school, or at least studying film in college, so it's always a plus to have taken some kind of class relating to film. Some film programs at schools require it. But unfortunately, my mom wants me to take physics, and I don't think she'll sign the class drop paper. I dunno, we'll see, I guess.
 
Image of the Day

Larry pointed me in the direction of this one. It's a "jetpack" of today... a functional one that is. It's actually called an "air scooter" and it can go 80 MPH for 150 miles before refueling. Anyway, for more information, go to this page.

Conversation of the Day - Ross and Paul 08.30.02
(for those of you who don't know, Paul and I basically disagree on EVERYTHING)

Paul: "Ross, you need to stop living in this imaginary dream world and start living in the real world."
Ross: "You need to stop limiting yourself to the real world, and start living in an imaginary dream world..."