~2003~
First...Let me say Thank YOU...Thank YOU...Thank YOU to Roxane for making the graphic of Max with angel wings. I have wanted one for so long...and Roxane was so kind to make it for me. I was completely surprised, and overwhelmed. The simple words of "Thank YOU" are not nearly enough to express how much I love, and treasure this picture of my precious son.
Tomorrow is Max's 5th birthday. I will admit to being in a total state of depression since about October of 2002. I just can't seem to pick myself up. This year I find myself feeling grateful for many, many Blessings in my life. But my sadness seems to overpower all else.
Max turning 5 has been very difficult for me. He should be starting kindergarten this fall, and that just breaks my heart.
So, In Max's memory and honor, I started
"The Isaac Max Benton Morgan Memorial Scholarship Fund".
I put $1000.00 in a scholarship fund to be given out in 13 years when Max should be graduating from High School. I will add to the scholarship every year on his birthday. Hopefully in 13 years there will be a nice sum of money to give to some deserving senior who wants to go to college.
The scholarship will be given to a Paola High School Senior from the "Class of 2016". (The school Max would have graduated from, and the year Max should have graduated.)
The scholarship will be open to all seniors, but preference will be given to the essay from the student who has experienced a death in their family, that profoundly affected them. (Preferably a sibling, but that is not my main focus.)
My daughters and I will read the essays and choose the recipient from those essays submitted. Grades or grade point average will not be a factor at all...I just want to help someone go to college.
I am hoping that the interest will add up and the scholarship can be broken up over 4 years...My oldest daughter is in college now...I know how hard it is to have enough money the 2nd year...and so on.
My son is not going to college...I want someone else, someone deserving to be able to go in his place...To be able to help with that in anyway is special to me.
And I think it would be very special to Max too.
My sadness is so great...
My heart aches...
I still want to know why?...
I'm not even mad anymore...I just feel sad...
I feel lost...Unsure of the future...What to do...Where to turn...
I just feel so sad...
